Opened Eyes, Wondrous Things

“Open thou mine eyes,
that I may behold wondrous things out of thy law”
– Psalm 119:18 KJV

Today was choose any verse of your own. I am using the verse that is at the bottom of the Christmas 31 Day Scripture Writing Plan... Psalm 119:18. It’s a perfect one in describing what Your word does in opening my eyes and helping me to see… to understand. There are so many pleasures and treasures in Your word. Even my notes from church today go with this.

Looking on failures causes us to recognize You.
If we keep our eyes on Jesus, we will know Him.
Turn Your Eyes Upon Jesus! ❤
I love that hymn!

Turn Your Eyes Upon Jesus – hymn lyrics by Helen Howarth Lemmel

Don’t believe everything you think.
You cannot be trusted to tell yourself the truth.

Stay in the word.
– Evangelist Jerry Bridge

Thank You for allowing me to see You in every page… in every word!
You are everything to me, Father! ❤
Thank You for allowing me to see Jesus! Especially in my heart!
What love! ❤
Thank You for allowing me to see the Holy Ghost leading me to You!
He’s such a Comfort! ❤

My Day 31 of the Christmas 31 Day Scripture Writing Plan.
(I won’t have notes for each day.
I am doing whatever You allow, Lord.
Whatever You give! It’s all about You!)

My Day 1: Knowledge to Know

My Day 2: Obedience Is Trusting You

My Day 3: Quick Understanding

My Day 4: Glorious Rest

My Day 5: Comfort Ye My People

My Day 6: Good Tidings

My Day 7: That Good Thing

My Day 8: Abundant Peace

My Day 9: He Shall Have Dominion

My Day 10: His Name Shall Endure Forever

My Day 11: Come

My Day 12: Fuller’s Soap

My Day 13: Of The Holy Ghost

My Day 14: Call His Name Jesus

My Day 15: In Bethlehem of Judaea

My Day 16: The Star

My Day 17: Highly Favoured

My Day 18: Faith and Obedience

My Day 19: According to Thy Word

My Day 20: The Lowly of Lowlies

My Day 21: A Strong Arm

My Day 22: The Days Were Accomplished

My Day 23: Abiding Shepherds (The Night Shift)

My Day 24: A Multitude of the Heavenly Host

My Day 25: Wonder

My Day 26: The Spirit of Your Son

My Day 27: Obedient Unto Death

My Day 28: Highly Exalted

My Day 29: Every Good and Perfect Gift

My Day 30: The Hope of Eternal Life

Spiritual Warfare On Medication

Lord, what a  fight. Such a stormy sea within. Billowing winds. Tossing waves. And I have no idea if this is a storm you want me to ride out instead of causing you to say, “O ye of little faith.” At least there’s a little. Enough to come to you in case this is not you, so that you can calm the sea… even rebuke it. And what if it is simply just happening… this scary fear… this fear to move… the fear of doing anything else until I get this straightened out. But what?? Straighten what out??

And there are my medications. They can ease anxiety, lift depression, and totally alter my mind. It’s hard sometimes to know the difference between what’s just getting the best of me, is explainable because of medicines, or is Spiritual Warfare. Soon doubt makes me question if you appreciate my brain being on these drugs. Yet I followed you in prayer over my health, my doctors, and trusting the doctors you gave me. I know you gift doctors and scientists the grace to allow comfort and healing. It’s my weary and fearful mind that I don’t understand. Which makes me think on Luke 5:31,

“And Jesus answering said unto them, They that are whole need not a physician; but they that are sick.”

My mind is not whole, nor a great deal of my body. My spine and neurological system alone are so sick that without the doctors and medicines you provide I would not be walking, standing, or even sitting without severe pain. Some days the chemicals are stronger than the pain and confusion. Other days the pain and confusion are nothing to contend with. In all of these days, I solely rely on you to work through whatever resources you provide, or simply to be my faithful compassionate companion.

Every line I write is a struggle to complete and not delete, partly because I do not want to make you look bad, and partly because I NEED to talk this out with you. I NEED to be able to come to you with even my fears, so that you can help me deal with them. Fear can be our enemy, but you can use it to draw us near. I choose to draw near. And as I do I cling to your Holy Word that tells me,

Be not afraid of sudden fear, neither of the desolation of the wicked, when it cometh.”
Proverbs 3:25 KJV

So I simply finish with choosing to embrace my fear, though I still don’t understand it. I choose to praise you with a song you have comforted me with time and time again because every word of it is true. Turn Your Eyes Upon Jesus.

I know that when I look full in your wonderful face that the things of earth will grow strangely dim in the light of your glory and grace. Your Word will not fail me. You promised! And I believe! ❤