A Week of Loss

A kind and loving person died today.
Her name was Jessie.
Her dog Jubilee is going to miss her so much.
This was their last picture together.
58852754_10156193511708365_1033950128823599104_nJessie had fought a long battle with cancer.
After winning a couple of rounds, she lost the last one today.
She was a very kind and giving person.

One of her last two posts included this picture below:
Be good to people for no reason.58796889_1132628666861112_6811418897065967616_nI cannot credit the picture to its creator because it was one of those Facebook pictures that got passed around without being properly credited. However, it describes her very nature. That was how the Lord blessed me with meeting her. I cannot tell of that generous act that she did as a total stranger because when she was being so benevolent, her greatest wish (next to helping someone in need) was being anonymous… truly anonymous. I am choosing to honor her the way she wanted it. It truly brought her such joy to give, and just as much joy to watch from a distance as the blessing blessed! If a person insisted on giving back to her, she insisted to give by passing it on.

In Memory of you, Jessie!
Thank you for letting God use you!
Hug Jesus for me! See you soon!

 


On Tuesday a member of my stepdad’s church family was buried. I cannot give too much information because she took her own life and there is concern the “ripple effect” is not over. This same family had lost her sister last year to a car accident. This family has a tie to our family in that there was a child born years ago to a member from each side but were never married, and the one from our family passed away years ago. This church family is extremely close as well. My son grew up in this church. I still take my stepdad each week. He has been there over 50 years.

Lord, be with this family
and the church!


And then there’s dear Kathleen,
who happens to be my Great Aunt.
She died just over a week ago
and buried last weekend.
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When I first met her, neither one of us knew we were related. We worked together at a Christian book club warehouse. We found out when I told her she reminded me so much of my grandmother and that they had so many things in common (singers, played the same instruments, both had families that worked on the railroad, Her name being Kathleen and my grandmother’s was Kathryn). When She heard the name, she shouted and hugged me. She had been married to my grandmother’s brother, both of whom were long passed.

Yet if Kathleen were to tell you her favorite memory, it would most certainly be when she gave me a prayer cloth to give to my son Anthoni. Anthoni was in 10th grade of high school when the doctor’s told me he had bone cancer. I was a 35 year old single mom living alone, and had just lost my dad around the same time. I myself had just been told I had a Lupus test come back positive and was being referred to a rheumatologist (although no one at work but my boss knew this, and that was only because she took the call and then brought the phone to me).

Anthoni’s orthopedic specialist told me he wanted to do surgery to confirm his diagnosis. My friend Irene (who I miss so much) was sitting with me in the surgery waiting room when the doctor came in and confirmed that both he and his colleague had seen the cancer, but wanted to biopsy a piece of the bone before they decided if they needed to remove just a piece of the bone or a section of the bone. He wanted to be safe, but also wanted to avoid unnecessary additional surgery to place something in Anthoni’s arm to support the bone where there would be a huge hole. They would have to wait on pathology to give them that answer.

When Kathleen and my coworkers found out they were so broken for me. Just weeks before they had witnessed me being so sick that one of the men asked why I didn’t just go on home, and the ladies told him I had to work because I had a sick son at home with no one to help. Anthoni was so sick that he needed an Rx and some cough medicine. The insurance paid for his Rx, but not the cough medicine. All of them pitched in together and had my boss insist I take it. It was exactly what he needed to get well! Praise God! When they heard about the bone cancer and the surgery, Kathleen immediately ran to the break room and ran back shouting for me while waving a white handkerchief.

She told me it was a prayer cloth. While I did not believe in them, I did not want to offend Kathleen. I was grateful for her heart, and the fact that she was obviously one serious prayer warrior. When I took it home, my 16 year old bible scholar son informed me that it was actually referred to in the bible. :O

“And God wrought special miracles by the hands of Paul: so that from his body were brought unto the sick handkerchiefs or aprons, and the diseases departed from them, and the evil spirits went out of them.” – Acts 19:11-12 KJV

I was completely surprised to say the least! So Anthoni put it in his wallet as an act of appreciation, and faith in prayer. Kathleen was so excited when I told them a week later that the doctor had let us know the pathology showed it was actually a fracture that had healed in a way they had never seen before. They were saying it was not bone cancer after all! I asked, “But I thought both you and your colleague had seen it with your own eyes while his hand was open during surgery, and confirmed it was cancer?” 

“We did!” He exclaimed. “We are completely surprised at the results! Let’s just keep an eye on it. If it does not grow or simply goes away, we will go by the pathology.”

Kathleen said in such a delightful soft tone, “What cancer?” She smiled as she said, “It was the prayer cloth!” I could not argue with her and did not want to. As a mom I wanted to first obey the doctor in giving it time to see, but I was praying that it was the miracle we needed. It was! 🙂

Kathleen was delighted to have introduced me to the prayer cloth.

This is a much longer post than I thought I would write in the beginning. I was just going to honor Jessie by sharing that quote. While downloading and uploading, the Lord brought me across Kathleen’s picture. She was a much needed smile. It has been such a sad time for me for awhile now. Jessie’s loss just added to it. I’m also sad because I do not know if she got to see my card I sent her on Wednesday.

If you stayed with me this far into the post I will be honest with you. I have been struggling with depression much longer and harder than I mention… and I do mention it.

The saddest part is that I cannot share this on my FB because family argues so much. I certainly cannot share anything personal. It is so sad because the majority of those I’ve known through my life to have troubles or trauma, it is well over 50% family related. I would even say 90%. This is so opposite of the picture Jessie shared!

Jesus told us…

“A new commandment I give unto you, That ye love one another; as I have loved you, that ye also love one another. By this shall all men know that ye are my disciples, if ye have love one to another.” – John 13:34-35 KJV

I’m so grateful that God allowed Kathleen and my coworkers to be so kind to me, my son, and my family when my dad passed. I am so grateful He allowed me to meet Jessie through her kind heart. And I am most grateful to have known the kindness of God!

Love and miss you, Kathleen!
Hug Gran and Jesus for me!
I’ll be home soon!

 

The Hope of Eternal Life

“For we ourselves also were sometimes foolish, disobedient, deceived, serving divers lusts and pleasures, living in malice and envy, hateful, and hating one another. But after that the kindness and love of God our Saviour toward man appeared, not by works of righteousness which we have done, but according to his mercy he saved us, by the washing of regeneration, and renewing of the Holy Ghost; which he shed on us abundantly through Jesus Christ our Saviour; that being justified by his grace, we should be made heirs according to the hope of eternal life.”
– Titus 3:3-7 KJV

I am so sad to say that the first part so describes how I use to live, be, believe, and think like. Why You thought I was worth the effort, I have no idea, but I am so grateful that Your kindness and Your love appeared, and that Your mercy saved me, that the Holy Ghost has renewed me abundantly through my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ! Thank You for making me justified by Your grace! Thank You for making me a part of Your family! ❤ I am a child of the King! 🙂 Forever and eternally!
I have the hope of eternal life! ❤

My Day 30 of the Christmas 31 Day Scripture Writing Plan.
(I won’t have notes for each day.
I am doing whatever You allow, Lord.
Whatever You give! It’s all about You!)

My Day 1: Knowledge to Know

My Day 2: Obedience Is Trusting You

My Day 3: Quick Understanding

My Day 4: Glorious Rest

My Day 5: Comfort Ye My People

My Day 6: Good Tidings

My Day 7: That Good Thing

My Day 8: Abundant Peace

My Day 9: He Shall Have Dominion

My Day 10: His Name Shall Endure Forever

My Day 11: Come

My Day 12: Fuller’s Soap

My Day 13: Of The Holy Ghost

My Day 14: Call His Name Jesus

My Day 15: In Bethlehem of Judaea

My Day 16: The Star

My Day 17: Highly Favoured

My Day 18: Faith and Obedience

My Day 19: According to Thy Word

My Day 20: The Lowly of Lowlies

My Day 21: A Strong Arm

My Day 22: The Days Were Accomplished

My Day 23: Abiding Shepherds (The Night Shift)

My Day 24: A Multitude of the Heavenly Host

My Day 25: Wonder

My Day 26: The Spirit of Your Son

My Day 27: Obedient Unto Death

My Day 28: Highly Exalted

My Day 29: Every Good and Perfect Gift

My Day 31: Opened Eyes, Wondrous Things

Every Good and Perfect Gift

“Do not err, my beloved brethren.
Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above,
and cometh down from the Father of lights,
with whom is no variableness, neither shadow of turning.
Of his own will begat he us with the word of truth,
that we should be a kind of firstfruits of his creatures.”
– James 1:16-18 KJV

“Every good gift”and “Every perfect gift.” You are every good gift, Jesus. You are every perfect gift because You are from above and cometh down from the Father of lights. You and Your Father are One. You are the Light of the world. Of His own will He begat You… born of a virgin… conceived of the Holy Ghost. Of His own will begat He us with the word of truth. The book of John says You are the Word, and have been the Word from the beginning. You also tell us in John that You are the Way, the Truth, and the Life.

How precious and humbling that Your Father
would make us a kind of His firstfruits.

Thank You, Father, for making us one of Your creatures. I am so grateful that You would allow me to be any part of anything to do with You and Your Son, and Your Holy Spirit. I am gladly blessed to be Your firstfruit, Your creature, Your child, Your image, Your servant, Your friend, Your vessel, Your daughter, Your temple… just to name a few of the many things Your word has told me You have made me or allowed me to be.
Most precious of all YOURS! ❤

I love You, Father God! ❤
I love You, Jesus Christ! ❤
I love You, Holy Spirit! ❤

My Day 29 of the Christmas 31 Day Scripture Writing Plan.
(I won’t have notes for each day.
I am doing whatever You allow, Lord.
Whatever You give! It’s all about You!)

My Day 1: Knowledge to Know

My Day 2: Obedience Is Trusting You

My Day 3: Quick Understanding

My Day 4: Glorious Rest

My Day 5: Comfort Ye My People

My Day 6: Good Tidings

My Day 7: That Good Thing

My Day 8: Abundant Peace

My Day 9: He Shall Have Dominion

My Day 10: His Name Shall Endure Forever

My Day 11: Come

My Day 12: Fuller’s Soap

My Day 13: Of The Holy Ghost

My Day 14: Call His Name Jesus

My Day 15: In Bethlehem of Judaea

My Day 16: The Star

My Day 17: Highly Favoured

My Day 18: Faith and Obedience

My Day 19: According to Thy Word

My Day 20: The Lowly of Lowlies

My Day 21: A Strong Arm

My Day 22: The Days Were Accomplished

My Day 23: Abiding Shepherds (The Night Shift)

My Day 24: A Multitude of the Heavenly Host

My Day 25: Wonder

My Day 26: The Spirit of Your Son

My Day 27: Obedient Unto Death

My Day 28: Highly Exalted

My Day 30: The Hope of Eternal Life

My Day 31: Opened Eyes, Wondrous Things

Highly Exalted

“Wherefore God also hath highly exalted him, and given him a name which is above every name: that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, of things in heaven, and things in earth, and things under the earth; and that every tongue should confess that Jesus Christ is Lord,
to the glory of God the Father.”
– Philippians 2:9-11 KJV

Highly Exalted is definitely how You have me seeing Your precious Son today. Jesus was given a name above every name. One day every knee will bow, and every tongue will confess that Jesus Christ is Lord! Not all who kneel and confess will do so as an act of love and adoration, but out of reverent fear forced from the realization that He is who You say He is, and therefore to glorify You, God His Father. They will not escape their eternal destination just because the words come out of their mouth. Jesus will be given His due reverence and His righteous justice… the glory for which You have highly exalted Him forever. ❤

My Day 28 of the Christmas 31 Day Scripture Writing Plan.
(I won’t have notes for each day.
I am doing whatever You allow, Lord.
Whatever You give! It’s all about You!)

My Day 1: Knowledge to Know

My Day 2: Obedience Is Trusting You

My Day 3: Quick Understanding

My Day 4: Glorious Rest

My Day 5: Comfort Ye My People

My Day 6: Good Tidings

My Day 7: That Good Thing

My Day 8: Abundant Peace

My Day 9: He Shall Have Dominion

My Day 10: His Name Shall Endure Forever

My Day 11: Come

My Day 12: Fuller’s Soap

My Day 13: Of The Holy Ghost

My Day 14: Call His Name Jesus

My Day 15: In Bethlehem of Judaea

My Day 16: The Star

My Day 17: Highly Favoured

My Day 18: Faith and Obedience

My Day 19: According to Thy Word

My Day 20: The Lowly of Lowlies

My Day 21: A Strong Arm

My Day 22: The Days Were Accomplished

My Day 23: Abiding Shepherds (The Night Shift)

My Day 24: A Multitude of the Heavenly Host

My Day 25: Wonder

My Day 26: The Spirit of Your Son

My Day 27: Obedient Unto Death

My Day 29: Every Good and Perfect Gift

My Day 30: The Hope of Eternal Life

My Day 31: Opened Eyes, Wondrous Things

Wonder

And when they had seen it,
they made known abroad the saying which was told them concerning this child.
And all they that heard it wondered at those things which were told them by the shepherds.
But Mary kept all these things, and pondered them in her heart.
And the shepherds returned,
glorifying and praising God for all the things that they had heard and seen,
as it was told unto them.”
– Luke 2:17-20 KJV

Wonder… that is what I see… hear… and remember. How could one not wonder at all of these things? And when I read on Mary wondering/pondering these things in her heart, it reminds me of things You made me wonder on with the son You blessed me with. Like how he was so modest before he could barely talk, yet when he voiced his strong conviction You caused me to hear You talking through him. You caused me to wonder on what you were teaching, and that You would use a child. You taught us both. You have caused us both to wonder on Your Son for quite awhile now, and I trust we always will.

My Day 25 of the Christmas 31 Day Scripture Writing Plan.
(I won’t have notes for each day.
I am doing whatever You allow, Lord.
Whatever You give! It’s all about You!)

My Day 1: Knowledge to Know

My Day 2: Obedience Is Trusting You

My Day 3: Quick Understanding

My Day 4: Glorious Rest

My Day 5: Comfort Ye My People

My Day 6: Good Tidings

My Day 7: That Good Thing

My Day 8: Abundant Peace

My Day 9: He Shall Have Dominion

My Day 10: His Name Shall Endure Forever

My Day 11: Come

My Day 12: Fuller’s Soap

My Day 13: Of The Holy Ghost

My Day 14: Call His Name Jesus

My Day 15: In Bethlehem of Judaea

My Day 16: The Star

My Day 17: Highly Favoured

My Day 18: Faith and Obedience

My Day 19: According to Thy Word

My Day 20: The Lowly of Lowlies

My Day 21: A Strong Arm

My Day 22: The Days Were Accomplished

My Day 23: Abiding Shepherds (The Night Shift)

My Day 24: A Multitude of the Heavenly Host

My Day 26: The Spirit of Your Son

My Day 27: Obedient Unto Death

My Day 28: Highly Exalted

My Day 29: Every Good and Perfect Gift

My Day 30: The Hope of Eternal Life

My Day 31: Opened Eyes, Wondrous Things

Abiding Shepherds (The Night Shift)

“And there were in the same country shepherds abiding in the field, keeping watch over their flock by night. And, lo, the angel of the Lord came upon them, and the glory of the Lord shone round about them: and they were sore afraid. And the angel said unto them, Fear not: for, behold, I bring you good tidings of great joy, which shall be to all people.
For unto you is born this day in the city of David a Saviour, which is Christ the Lord.
And this shall be a sign unto you;
Ye shall find the babe wrapped in swaddling clothes, lying in a manger.”
– Luke 2:8-12 KJV

It’s so touching, Lord, seeing Your shepherds just minding their own business, or as You have written in Your word… abiding… in the field… where their business was… keeping watch… over what was given to them to watch… the flock… by night… because even the night shift is just as important in looking over what You have entrusted to us. Our children, our people, our assignments, our tasks, and our many gifts You have entrusted to each of us.

Just as the many emergency workers look over the city to protect the people, whether it be the police officers, the firefighters, the medical personnel in the hospital, the emergency room, the ambulance, the soldiers (whether assigned local or afar), and even the simple professions (as most people thought of the shepherds) like those working convenience stores, the late night restaurants, the snow plows who make it possible for emergency workers to get gas, to get to work, to get home, to keep gas in the vehicles between each run, to keep the workers fed, to provide medicines they made need for a cold or a headache, and the many things we may not think on. It’s the night shift… the shift where most of the world has shut down for the night.

Your shepherds were in their field, keeping watch over their flock by night. And then Your angel appeared. How incredible Your glory must have been to shine all around them. But I could understand how that could seem terrifying to those shepherds in the dark of night to see the sky lit up all around them. How thoughtful and patient of You to comfort their fear first thing. That’s You… to be so attentive and personal.

Thank You for the good news of Your Son, and for including everyone in that good tidings for great joy which was to be to ALL people! Jesus is the greatest joy ever! Thank You for being a God who’s willing to give us signs. How beautiful of a sign was Your Son as He was wrapped in swaddling clothes, lying in that manger.

Thank You for allowing us to be reminded of Your loving Son. It adds to the great anticipation of Your Son. How You must have felt. Thank You for sharing Him with us. Congratulations on Your new arrival… then… each year… and when we are finally home with the both of You.

My Day 23 of the Christmas 31 Day Scripture Writing Plan.
(I won’t have notes for each day.
I am doing whatever You allow, Lord.
Whatever You give! It’s all about You!)

My Day 1: Knowledge to Know

My Day 2: Obedience Is Trusting You

My Day 3: Quick Understanding

My Day 4: Glorious Rest

My Day 5: Comfort Ye My People

My Day 6: Good Tidings

My Day 7: That Good Thing

My Day 8: Abundant Peace

My Day 9: He Shall Have Dominion

My Day 10: His Name Shall Endure Forever

My Day 11: Come

My Day 12: Fuller’s Soap

My Day 13: Of The Holy Ghost

My Day 14: Call His Name Jesus

My Day 15: In Bethlehem of Judaea

My Day 16: The Star

My Day 17: Highly Favoured

My Day 18: Faith and Obedience

My Day 19: According to Thy Word

My Day 20: The Lowly of Lowlies

My Day 21: A Strong Arm

My Day 22: The Days Were Accomplished

My Day 24: A Multitude of the Heavenly Host

My Day 25: Wonder

My Day 26: The Spirit of Your Son

My Day 27: Obedient Unto Death

My Day 28: Highly Exalted

My Day 29: Every Good and Perfect Gift

My Day 30: The Hope of Eternal Life

My Day 31: Opened Eyes, Wondrous Things

The Lowly of Lowlies

“And Mary said, My soul doth magnify the Lord, and my spirit hath rejoiced in God my Saviour. For he hath regarded the low estate of his handmaiden: for, behold, from henceforth all generations shall call me blessed. For he that is mighty hath done to me great things; and holy is his name. And his mercy is on them that fear him from generation to generation.”
– Luke 1:46-50 KJV

How exciting to read (and experience with her) Mary praising You with such magnification and joy, with such mindful praise. Counting her blessings and naming them one by one. 🙂 ❤ You have regarded the low estates as You even gave Jesus a life of lowly estate. How profound You have made the word humility. To be humble is to completely defined, yet how mighty You truly are, as is the mighty love and obedience of Your Son. Holy is Your name! Your mercy is surely on those that fear You. Thank You for humility, strength, for holiness, and Your mercy.

It seems so odd to break this devotion off in the middle of praise, in the middle of Mary’s prayer and praise to You. I’m so enjoying hearing her praise when her faith had no doubt, and her wisdom simply asked how it would happen. She has not laughed or doubted as others. She believed enough to ask how You were going to make that possible because she knew the logic of how the body worked, and the law of Your own words regarding purity. She knew You would not violate Your word, nor ask her to. Once You answered her, she simply continued to believe and praise Your Holy name.

So in faith with no question on what You do is Your plan for me, even in writing a devotion that You designed in someone else’s heart and mind, and then led me to do, I choose to do to continue to trust You even in what seems like an interruption to her praise for You. You are mighty and great, and have perfect knowledge in emphasizing whatever You will. It definitely emphasizes that You are God, and that we all are of low estate in regard to Your mightiness. How great and merciful You are to teach us such holiness, mercy, and love! It takes such love to pause Your own praise to teach us of who You truly are… The Lowly of Lowlies. I love You God ! ❤

My Day 20 of the Christmas 31 Day Scripture Writing Plan.
(I won’t have notes for each day.
I am doing whatever You allow, Lord.
Whatever You give! It’s all about You!)

My Day 1: Knowledge to Know

My Day 2: Obedience Is Trusting You

My Day 3: Quick Understanding

My Day 4: Glorious Rest

My Day 5: Comfort Ye My People

My Day 6: Good Tidings

My Day 7: That Good Thing

My Day 8: Abundant Peace

My Day 9: He Shall Have Dominion

My Day 10: His Name Shall Endure Forever

My Day 11: Come

My Day 12: Fuller’s Soap

My Day 13: Of The Holy Ghost

My Day 14: Call His Name Jesus

My Day 15: In Bethlehem of Judaea

My Day 16: The Star

My Day 17: Highly Favoured

My Day 18: Faith and Obedience

My Day 19: According to Thy Word

My Day 21: A Strong Arm

My Day 22: The Days Were Accomplished

My Day 23: Abiding Shepherds (The Night Shift)

My Day 24: A Multitude of the Heavenly Host

My Day 25: Wonder

My Day 26: The Spirit of Your Son

My Day 27: Obedient Unto Death

My Day 28: Highly Exalted

My Day 29: Every Good and Perfect Gift

My Day 30: The Hope of Eternal Life

My Day 31: Opened Eyes, Wondrous Things