The Sunshine Blogger Award 11.2.19

Look at You, Lord! Shining Your love again this way! You are so delightful to prepare another way to keep sharing a little of Your love. I pray I continue to please You, as You keep sending encouragement by whispering to Stu of Something to Stu Over to nominate me for The Sunshine Blogger Award. Bless him, his family, his ministry, and his blog, Lord. Let Him feel Your strong embrace and powerful presence.

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Thank you, Stu, for the kind nomination! God has used you to shine a little of His light and love my way! Always a welcomed blessing! May the Lord continue to shower you with crowns to lay at His feet! Me and God love you, Brother!

Here are the guidelines:

  • Thank the blogger who nominated you and provide a link back to their blog so others can find them.
  • List the rules and display an award logo on your blog post.
  • Answer the 11 questions the blogger asked you.
  • Nominate 11 new blogs to receive the award and notify them by commenting on any of their posts.
  • Ask the nominees 11 new questions.


Stu’s Questions for Me:

1. When, what seems like the weight of the world is upon your shoulders, what keeps you motivated to take that next step?
God! Without His help I could no nothing… literally. He helps me to take the next step when I can’t even feel my legs.
“He giveth power to the faint; and to them that have no might he increaseth strength.”
– Isaiah 40:29 AKJV

2. What is something that you used to collect as a child that you wish you still had?
As a child I did not collect anything. I don’t know if I ever gave thought to it. But as a unwed teenage mom, I collected tapes and pictures of my gift from the Lord… my son. I still have pictures, but the voice recordings are gone. I think of them often and wish for them. Especially one where my 3 yr old son was telling my 20 something yr old brother, “Uncle Charlie! Uncle Charlie! Wake up! Wake up and hit the world before the world hits you!” It was precious and profound. I don’t know where he heard it, but I have carried that with me through life. I miss those recordings, and I miss my dear brother who has been in heaven now for 12 years.

3. What exactly gives you a sense of accomplishment?
It is hard to feel I have accomplished anything. But when God lets me know I have done His will, I have the blessing of feeling accomplished. He is sweet to allow me the same feeling in puzzle books… especially when they are hard or challenging!

4. What was your hardest challenge to overcome?
Myself! God has worked long and hard to help me see the junk I carried for so long from being misinformed and intentionally misled. And He continues to make me more and more of His every day!
“I am crucified with Christ: nevertheless I live; yet not I, but Christ liveth in me: and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by the faith of the Son of God, who loved me, and gave himself for me.”
– Galatians 2:20 AKJV

5. Why do you feel the church is silent on dealing with real life issues like addiction and sex?
Fear of influence on those vulnerable and impressionable,
and fear of unknown, differences, what seems threatening to one’s faith

6. What is your personal opinion as to why it seems more and more little ones are being shot, beaten, kidnapped or worse?
It is a wicked and evil world we live in. We have devalued life for quite awhile now, while making life all about looking out for ourselves. It validates God’s warning of having tribulation.
“These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world.”
– John 16:33 AKJV

7. Why would any parent, no matter what the hell is going on in their lives, want to take the lives of their kids?
These are hard questions because it is unbelievable what is happening to our children, and breaks my heart. Yet I assure you it hurts God too. Whether someone has mental illness or is simply filled with a evil spirit, they’re God’s children. He will have His justice.
“But whoso shall offend one of these little ones which believe in me, it were better for him that a millstone were hanged about his neck, and that he were drowned in the depth of the sea.”
– Matthew 18:6 AKJV

8. What is your favorite post/posts you have written? Share links please 😊
** Me and God This was my first attempt at a testimony. It was the 3rd post when I first opened my blog settings to public instead of just me and God. It was while I was taking the 30 Truth Posts Challenge about myself.
** Love of My Life – I Am His Song (my dear friend Lene invited me to write my testimony on her blog that honors purity… Song of Virginity. It is one of my favorites because I struggled for years to get my testimony down. Poetry I could flourish with (Thank You, Lord) but narrowing down everything Christ has done for me??? God used Lene to help me get it done.

9. I don’t know if this one is possible but what is the most liked post on your blog?
Thanking God For Failed Relationships is the top blog post among 20 or so awards that are most liked.

10. Which post is the one most commented on?
The Barnabas Award 10.21.19 and My Very Present Help

11. And finally, who is your top supporter as far as comments? Give them a shout out 😊
Wendi of Simply Chronically Ill ❤ God uses her so often to bless me!
Me and God treasure you, Wendi!

Nominees:

The Bipolar Writer Collaborative Mental Health Blog

Athena Johnson

Mws R Writings

elleguyence

Poems for Warriors

Educated Unemployed Indian

The Go To Girls Blog

THE ESSENCE OF LIFE

WATCHING DAILY AT WISDOM’S GATES

Congratulations to the nominees!
Please do not feel obligated to participate.
Just sharing a little of God’s love with you!
Praying you will be blessed! God loves you!

11 Questions for the Nominees:

  1. Do you know how much God loves you?
  2. Is there a blog award or tag you have not done yet that you would like to do?
  3. Do you have a favorite bible verse?
  4. What’s your favorite blog post on your blog?
  5. Do you have a favorite hymn?
  6. Do you like your pizza with or without cheese?
  7. Do you have a testimony that you can link here for me to read. I LOVE testimonies!
  8. Do you and your family have Thanksgiving traditions?
  9. Do you have a favorite bible character?
  10. Pumpkin, Sweet Potato, or Pecan Pie?
  11. Do you know how much God loves you?

Gently Mending My Soul

God, You are so kind… so gentle… to lovingly pursue me the way You do. Your faithful affection comforts my restless soul. The world would tell me You grow weary of my weakness, that to have any at all is sin. But the love of Your only Son assures me with the same love You allowed Your angels to minister to Him within the garden, that just as You loved Him through a great time of agony and desire to avoid His cup if possible, You love me in my time of weakness, within the darkness that suffocates my soul.

No matter how many times I must battle sudden or lingering fear, You will never leave me, nor limit how many times You will tolerate me. Not one of the three times that Your Son prayed to You in anguish did You turn Him away. Not one time did You tell Him to dry it up, or that You were only going to put up with so much. When those great drops of sweat fell as tears or blood, You did not tell Him what a disgrace He was to Your name. Nor did You tell Him that His cries were shame on a faith that He just did not have.

You were there for Your Son every single time He prayed, every time He fell on His face to You, and every time He asked if You would change His circumstances by removing His cup. You instead heard His every word, including…

“And he went a little further, and fell on his face, and prayed, saying, O my Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me: nevertheless not as I will, but as thou wilt.
Matthew 26:39 KJV

And as You remind me of these words and my precious Jesus suffering His agony, You send me a song just as You sent His ministering angels.

Beggar by Benjamin James reminds me to be kind to the beggar that’s inside of me, and the fiend that I am hiding too. You know the part of me that constantly pleas for relief from the agony of my weakness and for forgiveness for that wretched fiend that is very much a part of me. Instead of scolding me, which I am already doing so much myself, You tell me to be kind to myself.

You tell me to feed the poor and lonesome girl in my own soul, to love her till she’s been made whole. There is so much she has been deprived of, robbed of, or simply thrown away in foolishness. I am to feed the poor within myself.

You tell me to be at peace with the enemy within my own home because whether it’s her undeniable guilt or my attempts to blame her, we can neither one throw a stone. We must take care of the mote in our own eyes, and do as You have commanded in loving one another so that the world will know we are of You. We are to be at peace with one another.

I’m to be good to the criminal I’ve locked away. In my repentance and growing in Your word, I learned to hate the sinful side of me enough to avoid it. But in my desperation to be free of the shame and guilt, in my desperation to be cleaner in Your presence, that I might have the hope of Your embrace, I have locked myself up in a self made prison that keeps me from remembering the freedom You have given this sinful girl who has been separated from that which convicted her. She is so weak from the lingering weight of a guilty conscience. I need to be good to her because she needs a friend, she needs to know she is genuinely forgiven. False guilt will imprison her enough. Doubt will try to convince her she’s still shackled. My refusal to show her love can hinder her from feeling Yours.

You remind me that when I’m broken to pieces, You make me whole, and through EVERY season You’re mending my soul. That includes weakness, doubt, darkness, fear, anxiety, depression, anguish, and everything that Satan can throw at me, or that I simply struggle with yet again. You are working to help me love You with my WHOLE heart.

Suffer long when you are your own prodigal. In Your Holy Word, to suffer means to allow. You tell me to allow my fear, my doubt, my darkness, and all that comes with being who I am to be, and take as long as it needs, to be able to feel like I’m finally coming home to You. For where my home is there my heart is full. By allowing You to work with me in whatever way You have prepared for me, and as long as You ask of me, I am allowing You to make my heart Your home.

So be gentle with the splinters in your mind. They haven’t all been put there alone. And no matter how they got there, by being violent to myself, I am merely continuing to blind myself like all those things along the road of life that blindsided me so that I would blindly walk along, unable to see the Light, the Truth, and the Way. Without the gentle love of Christ, I am keeping the blinders of life on, sometimes willingly.

So I am to be gentle as a Lamb… the precious Lamb of God, who has set me free of the prison of self condemnation. I am to love myself as He did… as He does.. the love that let me know I am the child of the One True King. God, my Father, my Creator, knows where I have been, what I have done, and what I’ve come through. But He wants me to remember that while I am still in this flesh, as His Son once was, He knows there will be moments of humanness. He also wants me to remember that He uses these times to draw me near, and remind me of what He has brought me through, so that I will have courage to face the fear, confidence to confront the doubt, and light to walk in the darkness.

“He giveth power to the faint,
and to them that have no might, He increaseth strength.”

– Isaiah 40:29 KJV