Finding Treasure In You

Ministry and friends,
I never knew one day they’d be the same.
Friends in ministry,
I never knew I’d know so many by name.
My son and you,
I had a hope you would know each other.
You in my son,
I would have hope for no other.
Serving in joy,
I would not have thought went together.
Joy in serving,
I want that feeling to last forever.
Hope in faith,
I seek to hold onto you.
Faith in hope,
I know you hold onto me too.

9-21-11 Written by Gail Brookshire
(by the grace of God)

Versatile Blogger Award 9.18.17

Lord, following your lead to read and encourage those who read and follow what you give me, I found blessings. Lebana and her Lebana’s Journal had been honored with the Versatile Blogger Award (Congratulations, Lebana! 🙂 ), and I was so excited for her! She is so honest in her posts. I love her boldness in her blog that dares others to get to know her. You know her better than anyone else, and know just when to encourage her with this award! While reading her blog I found that Lebana had nominated me for the Versatile Blogger Award! God, that is just like you!  Encouraging the encourager! ❤

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Versatile Blogger Award Rules:
1. Thank the blogger who nominated you and share their link.
2. Nominate at least 10 bloggers for the award and provide links to their blogs.
3. Inform them about their nominations.
4. Reveal 7 facts about yourself that your readers may not know.

Nominees:
Discovering Your Happiness (Lovely Anita)
Red Letters (Jon and Hayley)
Beauty Beyond Bones (Caralyn)
Happy Sky 7311 (A.C.)
The Perks of Being Different (Andrea)
A Poet’s Paradise (Arianna)
A Fractured Faith (Stephen and Fionnuala)
A Balanced Woman’s Voice (Disletti)
Princess Blabbermouth (Princess)
Frank Solanki (Frank)

7 FACTS ABOUT MYSELF YOU MAY NOT KNOW:
1. My favorite dish is Spasagna! A Lasagna with spaghetti baked inside it! Mmmm!
God allows such delicious things in life!
2. I’ve had the love and privilege of… swimming, dancing, biking, baseball, cheerleading, basketball, walking, walkathons, running, backbends, and one handed cartwheels.
3. One of my new favorite songs is Stronger for It by Lordsong. I don’t have the kind of faith it takes to sing the chorus. It strengthens me with humbleness and conviction.


4. Another new favorite is Called Me Higher by Northland Church. It touches home with a fear I have every time I even thinking of having to go back out into the world. I don’t want to leave being alone in the arms of my God. But He bids me, “Go.” I follow.

5. My favorite stanza of Amazing Grace is
The Lord has promised good to me. His word, my hope secures.
He will my shield and portion be as long as life endures.

6. When I was 6 years old, a man on the church bus named Mr. Farlough told me if I learned a verse he gave me, he would give me a jump rope. I got the rope the next ride! Unfortunately I didn’t understand that verse for years, but it was more valuable than that rope that didn’t last long. God gave me a chance to thank Mr. Farlough with a testimony in my early 30’s. He remembered me! I remembered John 3:16:

For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him, should not perish, but have everlasting life.

7. When I was 18 years old, God blessed me with the most loving pair of little arms, the most gorgeous pair of brown eyes, the most beautiful head or curls, and the brightest smile to light my life every day! God is so generous! ❤ He gave me my son Anthoni!

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CONGRATULATIONS TO ALL THE NOMINEES!
Don’t feel rushed or pressured to have to do them.
I just want to let others know about your site!

 

 

21 Day Self Care Challenge Summary List

Many of you liked the way I did the last post in finishing up the 30 Posts Challenge that I did with our dearest Fatima (aka Splendor in Embers), making a central place to visit each post, and wanted for one for the 21 Day Self Care Challenge as well.  Forgive me for taking so long. I know you’ve been waiting. It helps me to organize any way, and I too got them confused sometimes. Thank you, Lovely A (aka Discovering Your Happiness), for being so patient and kind with me throughout your challenge. I learned so much! And continue to strive to meet those goals.

While I actually “discovered” the challenge on Self Care Challenge Day 2: Sleep, I did already have a WordPress blog site so I was able to do my post for the assignment from Self Care Challenge Day 1: Keep A Journal. And although I did miss her 21 Day Self Care Challenge – Welcome that opened the challenge, Lovely A was always very welcoming and reassuring herself.

Self Care Challenge: Day 1, Keep a Journal
Self Care Challenge Day 2: Sleep
Self Care Challenge Day 3: Outdoors
Self Care Challenge Day 4: Fun
Self Care Challenge Day 5: Lunch
Self Care Challenge Day 6: Work/Life Balance
Self Care Challenge Day 7: What Makes You Happy
Self Care Challenge Day 8: Water
Self Care Challenge Day 9: Fear
Self Care Challenge Day 10: Books
Self Care Challenge Day 11: Tea
Self Care Challenge Day 12: Health Check Up
Self Care Challenge Day 13: Friendships
Self Care Challenge Day 14: Treat Day
Self Care Challenge Day 15: Bucket List
Self Care Challenge Day 16: Comfort Box
Self Care Challenge Day 17: De-Cluttering
Self Care Challenge Day 18: Music
Self Care Challenge Day 19: Meditation
Self Care Challenge Day: 20: Creativity
Self Care Challenge Day 21: Simple Pleasures
Self Care Day 21 Simple Pleasure Follow Up

Real Neat Blog Award 9-5-17

God is so good and so generous. He whispers. I obey. He honors. He sends His loving honor through souls like Arianna, who has nominated me for the Real Neat Blog Award this 5th day of September, 2017. Thank you, Arianna, for letting God use you to send tender loving thoughts my way! I am encouraged when I visit your site A Poet’s Paradise by your heart for God. You have so much love for Him. I know I have a sister in Christ!

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The Rules For The Real Neat Blogger Award
1. Put the award logo on your blog
2. Thank the people who nominated you, linking to their blogs
3. Answer the 7 questions asked by the person who nominated you
4. Nominate any number of bloggers you like, linking to their blogs
5. Let them know you nominated them (by commenting on their blogs, etc.)
6. Ask your nominees 7 questions

Answering Arianna’s Questions For Me:
1. Why did you start your own blog?
God has made me a writer since I was 9. Whether it be poetry, journal, or short story, I need to write for my sanity. Having no privacy was suffocating me. WordPress seem to offer a way to breathe. Following God’s lead, I have just been trying to get down and share what He whispers. I love it when He does! I NEED IT! ❤
2. Is there anybody you look up to? If there is, who is that person?
Christ is who I look up to. He was a real person, as He had taken on flesh to feel pain for me! He loved me so much that He gave up His comforts of heaven to take my punishment with His blood that poured out on the cross. Though I will try daily to honor Him, I know that I will never achieve what He did in self discipline. How can I not look up to Him! He causes my redemption to draw nigh! ❤
3. What animal do you think would be cutest if scaled down to the size of a cat?
A random question that brings to mind what an elephant must look like the size of a cat. I could just see that tiny little trunk roaring as though it’s still so mighty… lol.
4. Who do you go out of your way to be nice to?
Lord willing everyone.
“Beloved, let us love one another: for love is of God; and every one that loveth is born of God, and knoweth God.” – 1 John 4:7 KJV
5. Where do you get most of the decorations for your home?
As gifts from others, sometimes the store.
6. What are you interested in that most people are not interested in?
Learning and singing hymns. Not CCM or gospel. Hymns. Without any music but the melody that the Lord puts in my heart so I can call on the comforts and promises of God in the midst of a storm, or just lying in my bed singing to God.
7. What is the most hilarious joke you know by heart?
Two guys try to rob and old lady when she hollers, “Halt. Acts 2:38!” Later at the police station the cops ask the guys why they didn’t run from or try to hurt an old lady. One of the guys quickly speaks up, “Man, are you kidding?! That an old lady said she had an axe and two 38s!”

My nominations:
Inner Man Theatre
Discovering Your Happiness
Splendor in Embers
A Couple of Stars and a Happy Face
A Fractured Faith
Red Letters
A Balanced Woman’s Voice
Make It Ultra
Sara in LaLaLand
Beauty Beyond Bones
Sunshine for the Soul

My questions to my nominees are:
1. Do you have a favorite Bible verse?
2. What do you want on your next birthday?
3. Who is listed as your first follower?
4. What is the name of the last blogger you liked?
(or name of site if no name given)
5. What country do you love in?
6. What color are your eyes?
7. Do you know any hymns?

30 Posts Challenge: Follow Up

30 Posts Truth Challenge BadgeHi Guys! Just wanted to share with all of you who came along my journey of posting 30 true aspects about myself that you may not know… the AWARD from our dearest Fatima aka Splendor In Embers! Praise the Lord for using her to challenge me… in many ways!! Wanting to encourage someone I love and care about blessed and encouraged me!

By opening up myself to sharing truths with others, we spoke on these things below:
1. Introducing myself
2. Me and God
3. Me and Writing
4. Me and Anthoni
5. Me and Foster Care, part 1
6. Me and Foster Care, part 2
7. Me and My Fireworks
8. Me and Anxiety, part 1
9. Me and Anxiety, part 2
10. Me and Anxiety, part 3
11. Me and Depression
12. Dying to Self
13. Friday the 13th (A Blessed Day)
14. Designed to Follow
15. How a Devo Becomes A Poem
16. The Devo Poem
17. “Crucify him! Crucify Him!”
18. I Mourn, I Grieve (Edited)
19. What Makes Me Happy
20. River Baptism
21. I Love to Sing Hymns
22. God Speaks, I Listen!
23. Bearing One Another’s Burdens (as a Prayer Warrior)
24. A Friend Loveth at All Times
25. I’m a Very Private Person
26. My Fear of God
27. Ripping Your Heart out
28. My 2017 Solar Eclipse Experience
29. One Last Aspect
30. Challenging You

Along this journey, the Lord used His whispers, His nudges, and His many resources for encouraging me! Lovely A and her Self Care Challenge was a part of those resources! There are others I can’t mention, but you know who you are. Thank You for letting God use you to help me “fly” within God’s gift of life. And what would I do without InnerManTheatre… my patient son for his feedback and tech support (and Anita!).

I praise Him for each of you who took to read  (while patiently waiting for me to learn my way), for reaffirming His whispers (with your likes and follows) to be meant for more than just myself. Your comments allowed God to fill my cup with blessings. And the Awards! So unexpected! All crowns to lay at His feet! God bless you, Lovely A!

My Dearest Fatima, How grateful I am to God for you! For your challenge! For your heart. Please know I am praying for you and your precious family as often as God allows. You’ve always been dear to our family! You ARE family! Thank you for my AWARD!

If you are interested about this Challenge, you might be delightfully surprised to know that you do not have to wait for someone to nominate you, as I have read some of you have for quite some time. You only have to accept and post. See for yourself her 3 rules posted here. Praying for each of you! God loves you! ❤

Mystery Blogger Award 8-25-17

Dear Lord, you make my cup runneth over! Your love flows like a fountain! You give me the blessing of drinking from the springs of living water. Your song says there shall be showers of blessings! You are absolutely using Lovely A to send the rain! She is such a giving soul, Lord. You have gifted her with knowledge, encouragement, compassion, patience, and a love for you, which shows in her love for others. Thank you for leading me to discovering your happiness in her. May you glory be seen above all.screenshot_2017-08-07-23-52-00_11Thank you, Lovely A, for The Mystery Blogger Award nomination!  Praise the Lord! He is worthy! I am blessed to call Him Lord and to call you friend! May you continue discovering YOUR happiness.! May you always know God’s self care for you! I love reading what He gives you, and your heart to share the information you share with others! If anyone needs a pick me up, or feels like they need to talk to someone who has been there, you are open to welcome them in.

     Rules for the Award
Feature the award logo/image on your blog post
List the rules
Thank the blogger that nominated you
Tell readers 3 things about yourself
Answer the questions provided
Nominate 10-20 bloggers and notify them by commenting on their blog
Ask your nominees 5 questions of your choice, with one weird/funny question (specify)
Share and link to your best post(s)
Creator of this award is 19-year-old Okoto (Enigma Okotoenigmasblog)

3 Things About Myself
1. I love God! (hence the blog name)
2. I love Jesus! (God’s Son ❤ )
3. I love the Holy Spirit! (He teaches me about my God!)

My Answers to the Questions Asked of Me
What is your favorite quote + why?
“Jesus Christ died for you. What more do you want Him to do? Die Again?” It’s convicting.
If you could give relationship advice, what would it be?
Keep God first… individually AND as a couple.
What does your typical weekend look like?
Church, rest, sometimes a treat with a special friend
Do you believe in horoscopes?
God tells us they can cause confusion, troubling the soul.
What does a self care day look like to you?
feet elevated, lotions, eye drops, shower, washing hair

My Nominees
Splendor in Embers
A Poet’s Paradise
Lonely Blue Boy
Reema’s Garden
The Godly Chic Diaries
InnerManTheatre
AnxietyDepressionandMe

My Best Posts
A Friend Loveth at All Times
River Baptisms
Me and Writing

May the Lord fill your cup, overflowing, and pouring out! God loves you!

30 Posts Challenge: #30, Challenging You

Can you believe it, Guys! We made it to 30! Took me long enough, huh! To be honest… I wasn’t so confident I would finish. I can procrastinate, give up, or feel defeated. As you may have read, I was closed off to the world pretty good. I had become so afraid of it. Afraid of living. Those last words were the strongest truth behind doing the challenge.

I was doing an online bible study when I saw Fatima (Splendors in Embers) post her hospital stay after her suicide attempt. I was so concerned for her because I’ve known her since she was in preschool. At first, I was surprised… not just because we didn’t know each other’s personal life like that… but because I was having my own struggle.

I was not in a hospital, but I could not encourage her with lies I was not believing myself at the time, or not willing to LIVE by. I was afraid someone deep in depression would see through anything I post… be further burdened… more encouraged to leave her babies better off without her. And a very selfish part of me, afraid she could expose me… ruin my plans… or talk me out of them without even knowing they were there.

As I did pray for her privately, the Lord led me to do 2 things… 1. Let Fatima know I was praying for her… 2. Let my own therapist know my struggle. With God’s help, I did both. In my struggle, I was avoiding commitment so nothing could hold me back. I knew my faith would not play yoyo with my peace of mind. I was taking my time to be sure.

I began to do Fatima’s challenge using my WordPress to post. With thoughtful prayer I opened my privacy settings on Facebook and WordPress. I told no one so I could close them if need be. When I finished the aspects, I would close everything back. Yet I found myself curious of a self care blog. After I signed up, I realized commitments! But Lovely A had the Lord whispering in her ear… Don’t think of it as commitment.

Before I knew it I had a new friend in Australia, Staffordshire, and Dublin. God’s whispers were heard around the globe, and responded to, and shared. His whispers were no longer just for me. The same thing was happening on my Facebook, my Group page, when I went to church, when I ran into a friend. God used Fatima’s blog. And the patience of someone who listened and kept me from flying. He too had God on His side.

Having said this long post, I challenge you… to open up… to trust… maybe even take Fatima’s 30 Truth Posts Challenge. You can read here below her 3 rules. https://splendorinembers.wordpress.com/2017/06/03/you-are-challenged-do-the-30-post-truth-challenge/
1. Let her know you’re going to do it.
2. Create 30 Posts in whatever media you choose.
3. Let her know when you finish.

Most importantly I encourage you to open up to someone if you are struggling with your darkness. I know I have been vague with the specific terms, but if you are contemplating giving up you know exactly what I am talking about. There is hope… even if it’s just in another day! The Lord made that one too!

Blogger Recognition Award 8.24.17

God is so good and generous with His outpouring of love! He has poured out blessings to me again through dearest Lovely A! Thank you, discoveringyourhappiness.com,  for the nomination on the Blogger Recognition Award! Thank you for continuing to let God use you to pour out His love to me! More crowns to lay at His feet!!! ❤ ❤ ❤ I definitely discovered my happiness in good self care advice and friendship! There is so much to learn and apply on her site. I love her weekend posts, and the pictures she includes.bloggerrecognitionawardillustrationbyfregga-250x250How I Got Started Blogging
According to WordPress, I began blogging in May of 2016 (Just like our Lovely A!), but I did not become semi regular until I began a challenge with a good friend of our family, someone who was a classmate of my son, Pre-K through 5th grade. In doing her challenge, I took a risk and opened my blog for everyone to see. I had been a very private person, and was extremely apprehensive about giving the world access to me, but it was something the Lord was leading me to do. I told no one, not even the family friend, in case I had any issues I could just close it back without hurting anyone’s feelings. I followed the link to someone who had liked my post and “discovered” a self care challenge that got me curious. That’s where I met Lovely A, and became a regular by doing her 21 Day Self care Challenge.

2 Pieces of Advice for New Bloggers
1. Don’t be afraid to take a chance on people, no matter how scary the world may be.
Yes, we need to be careful, but we do not have to be closed off. We need each other to know we are not alone in the struggles we have when it sure feels like it.
2. If you are trying to save your e-mails as I do, make sure to pay attention to where the notifications read… There is a new post/response on SOANDSO. It helps to know where to go read and/or reply. I do not want to miss anything!

Nominees
Sara in La La Land
A Fractured Faith
Red Letters
Crystal Harper
Elan Mudrow
Inner Man Theatre
Splendor in Embers
A Balanced Woman’s Voice
Beauty Beyond Bones
Kimberly Brookshire
Song of Virginity
Pure Glory
Pastor Jonathan Jordan
The River Walk

All glory to God in the Highest! May His Holy Name Be Lifted Up, and Each Soul Spiritually Encouraged! If it weren’t for Him, I wouldn’t Be! ❤

Self Care Day 21 Simple Pleasure Follow Up

Today as I was doing my nails and getting pics for the Simple Pleasure blog from Self Care Day 21, I found myself missing the challenge already… BUT at least there is still the friendship found on discoveringyourhappiness! and the many self care habits that have been continuing… listening to Lovey A Challenge 19 playlist, decluttering, meditation, drinking water, better sleep, back to PT, talking with friends, and so much more. I definitely found gain! Good gain! So as promised… pics with the nail polish that I put on, and the lipstick I’m still working on the nerve to try. It’s suppose to be permanent for a good bit, and I do not like to draw attention to myself. We’ll just keep praying and see! God loves you each and everyone! <

30 Posts Challenge: #28, My 2017 Solar Eclipse Experience

Hi Guys. Did you survive your solar eclipse day… lol? I know you have your story to tell. So many people were doing different things, and had different kinds of reactions to their experience… or lack of. It’s hard to believe it was just yesterday. Well, except for all of the traffic trying to head home.

A few months back, ads and news reports were saying there was coming a solar eclipse. Later people were panicking because the special glasses were running out of supply. People were making lavish plans in areas for 100% total eclipse… meaning the moon would cover the entire sun with an outer glow perfectly encircling the moon. This could make one go blind or have permanent eye damage. Scientist were saying cameras weren’t safe. It would destroy them. There were ways to view… i.e. welding glasses, etc.

My son asked me, “If that time is so dangerous it can kill camera lenses, is it safe for us to be out there even with protective glasses?” We watched from the porch (away from the sun). My brother let his security cameras record. When I told him of the warning, he simply replied, “I’ve got spares.” He wasn’t missing footage… lol. This is one of his pics.

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As time drew near, we began watching NASA footage online. My son went to make it reflect to the ground. It worked enough to be exciting to cast something happening in the skies to the ground, but it was a white dot on cardboard. Just as the eclipse was drawing near its end, our neighbor drove in. He pulled out his old welding helmet. He offered us each a turn to look. It was such a difference!

Before putting on the helmet, the sky had a hue as if dusk was setting in. Even the crickets were singing loudly. After putting on the helmet and looking up, everything was black except the sun ring around the moon! How incredible was that! It was so brief, but it was like God saying, “Here. Have a peek at my wonders. It is pretty amazing!”

This was extra meaningful to me as I asked God earlier that morning (4:30am) if there was a friend we had to look into His sky… with a telescope. I get amazed at God’s beauty. It was dark, but I could easily see God! And God being His personal loving self,  answered a prayer in a way I would have never expected. Thank you, Neighbor! God bless you!

Soon it was all over. People in many places were upset because of cloud coverage, or simply let down from what they were expecting. Personally, I think science makes it out bigger than what it is to get people’s attention, but end up disappointing them far worse. So that’s my 2017 Solar Experience (later dubbed on the news as the Great American Solar Eclipse). My stepdad slept through the whole thing. What’s yours?

Liebster Award, August 21, 2017

Praise our Generous and Thoughtful God! What kindnesses He allows… in whispering into my ear, encouraging me to write, challenging me through others, and sending me a new friend. In all these things He has used Lovely A  ❤ to do each… and more. Her blog is very inviting, very encouraging, and solely focused on helping others to find happiness.. hence the name of her bog discovering your happiness.

water-lightShe reads each comment and responds and within very good time. She shares so much of herself that you feel like you gain a friend. When doing the 21 Day Self Care Challenge, all the challenges were to encourage, to teach, to support, and to genuinely help others learn more on bettering themselves. While it was a daily challenge there was never a pressure about time. I came across it on Day 3 and was given such positivity and confidence. I thank you, Lovely A (Amiga) ❤ , for your nomination on the Liebster Award! I consider this a crown to lay at His feet!  May the Lord continue to bless your gift in motivating others! God loves you! ❤
Having said this… I must say too that discoveringyourhappiness.com is my favorite blog. I would have said so without an award. I was just curious when I stumbled on it, but I am glad that God used curiosity to get me out of my comfort zone. Fear easily keeps me from doing anything requiring commitment (which Lovely A would tell me to think of it as one step at a time, not a commitment).

LIEBSTER AWARD RULES TO FOLLOW IF YOU ACCEPT:
Thank and promote the blogger who nominated you.
Answer the 11 questions you were asked.
Tag 5-11 new bloggers who you think deserve some love.
Create 11 new questions for your nominees.
For the full list of rules, check out the Global Aussie page, https://theglobalaussie.com/blog/liebster-award-2017
and you can also choose your Liebster Award image there!

Answering the Questions:
1.Whereabouts in the world are you from? North Carolina, USA
2 How long have you been blogging for? Since May 2016
3. What does your morning routine look like? Take son to work by 4 or 5 am, devotions, breakfast
4. What do you do for self care? Shower, sleep, elevate legs/feet, therapies, lotions, powders, meds, water, live, pray
5. Lollies or Chocolate? Can’t we do both? No? Chocolate
6. What a typical weekend looks like for you? church and rest
7. What is one of your hobbies? writing
8. Places you’ve traveled? Georgia, South Carolina, Florida, Tennessee, Arkansas, Texas, Louisiana, Mississippi, Alabama, Virginia, West Virginia, Delaware, District of Columbia, Maryland, New Jersey, and Pennsylvania
9. Places you want to travel to? Australia, Jerusalem, Great Britain,
10. Where you see yourself in 5 years? With God, wherever I am.
11. Where do you see your blog in 5 years? Wherever God takes it.

NOMINEES FOR LIEBSTER AWARD:
1. Inner Man Theatre
2. Jonathan Jordan
3. Red Letters
4. Crystal Harper
5. Lene in Japan
6. Kimberly Brookshire
7. From the Depths
8. Anxiety, Depression, and Me
9. Disletti

Questions for Nominees:
1. What day of the week is best for you to blog?
2. Do you know how much God loves you?
3. How often do you post… daily, weekly, monthly?
4. Do you read other bloggers’ posts?
5. Do you visit other blogger’s pages?
6. Do you know how important you are?
7. Did you do a kindness today?
8. Have you read the Bible… or at least try to?
9. What’s your favorite song?
10. Who is your favorite relative?
11. What can you cook?

Please tag me when you do your blogpost (send me a link to read your blog post).
May you always know how much God loves you. You mean everything to Him. ❤
I pray everything He allows me to write or put out there in the world lets Him and everyone know… Gail Loves God! ❤

Self Care Challenge Day 21: Simple Pleasures

Lord, I’m mixed with sadness and gratefulness. Today we end the 21 Day Self Care Challenge that you and I began weeks ago, reluctant as I was to commitment. Curiosity and desire to improve anything in my health or life that you were willing to address led to self awareness, insight, and a blessing you gave I did not expect… a new friend! A fellow believer!

We are to have a GOOD DAY by choosing one thing to do… and enjoy it. I have some clear nail polish I like to use to keep my nails strong (they hurt when they chip off) that I have not used in months. Every time I put it on, here comes another medical treatment or issue that keeps me from being able to use it again for awhile.

There was a time I use to wear make up, nail polish, simple jewelry (if it didn’t cause a skin reaction, or harm babies and children when holding them, and could take the wear and tear I take), and never went without a watch or earrings. As I started having surgeries, procedures, and other health related issues, they would make me take off jewelry and nail polish. I gave up. I’ve not worn a watch since 2004, and I don’t remember how long since earrings.

Ironic thing… health issues from the last couple of years have led to recommendations from doctors to use different skin care items, especially for dehydration. I have a special lipstick I have not used yet. Maybe I will use it? We’ll see. But nail polish is a treat for sure. Thanks for the chance to wear it. That may seem trivial, but breaking nails is not.

Self Care Challenge Day: 20: Creativity

Yay! And praise you, Dear Lord. You just keep showering me with blessings in this self-care challenge. Our challenge tonight is to color, and journal on how we felt while coloring. You know I have that coloring journal you led me to get. It was so comforting, and so relaxing, and saved me many a day that I needed to “have my focus elsewhere”. It even brought your Word to life… “When a man’s ways please the Lord, he maketh even his enemies to be at peace with him.” Proverbs 16:7 KJV

Well, sadly it has been laying on my bed for a couple of months. Another one of those things I felt guilty to even “waste” my time on. Thank you for including it in the challenge. I will be sure to either listen with my new Lovely A Challenge 18 Playlist, in silence, or both. Just to know I will get a chance already puts a smile on my face and a pep in my step (even though it’s bed time…lol). Yeah right. 😉

30 Posts Challenge: #27, Ripping Your Heart Out

It’s hard ripping your heart out when you believe you have found love… the love of your life. When the only reason you are walking away is because God tells you this is not the one. If there were not that reason, everything would be perfect. At least that’s what you think… because the world is telling you so. Your heart is telling you it is. But Christ, who is your first love insists it’s not love He has chosen for you. There is nothing wrong with this person as a friend, but the love that draws you in is not of God.

The Lord says clearly, “Be ye not unequally yoked together with unbelievers: for what fellowship hath righteousness with unrighteousness? and what communion hath light with darkness?” – 2 Corinthians 6:14 KJV. You have believed in Christ so long, you no longer recognize words that deceive. Confusion sets in because the one who is sending these mixed messages is Satan himself. By the time you hear James 2:19 warning “Thou believest that there is one God; thou doest well: the devils also believe, and tremble”, Satan no longer bothers with you. Your heart is so filled with a false sense of love that you don’t even realize you are waist high in quicksand.

This love… why is it so wrong? Especially when it is so strong? This person is not a bad person. You know God loves them. You know He died for them. You’ve heard them say God told them to be good to you before they lose you. Why is God asking you to rip your heart out? to rip theirs out? what if there is never love again? Christ has such little room in your heart with you pushing Him out with each plea to live in this fairytale that is misery in disguise… for both of you… when it is not what God wants. You are so persuaded by the world’s idea of love and the overwhelming consensus that this is the one for you that you do not remember that if Christ is not in it, then it is not of God, and is not love. If you had listened to God in the beginning, you would not be confused. You would not have another soul wrapped up in the same false hope.

Suddenly, as your head is just about to go under, you see a hand and recognize it to be yours. What has gotten your attention was the feel of a rope. Your first Love is throwing you a lifeline, trying to save you from your self destruction. The little bit of Christ still in your heart reaches out for the rope. Christ pulls it, even with you looking back. He holds you as you cry. He know what it’s like to know love and lose it… and by His grace He just rescued her. He lets her know He understands her need for love, to be wanted, to be thought of as special, to have someone be protective, and to feel that love make them smile. He promises there will be love again. Even if He is that Love. Christ shows you the loss of love was worth the sacrifice, just like He thought you were on cavalry.

Self Care Challenge Day 19: Meditation

Well, Lord, tonight’s challenge is meditation. My first thought is that it sounds a lot like quiet time with you. Yet you and I know that our quiet time often struggles to be quiet or have my complete attention. Even as we spend our time, I am either reading the devotion you give me, the scripture that goes with it, or already thinking on what you give me to write in my journal on what we are focusing on. I try to take the time to think on what you wrote, but I am either in a restaurant, a parking lot, or somewhere that other people are passing by or looking from a distance, so my mind is ALWAYS thinking or worrying about something. It is extremely hard to stay still for just a sure 10 minutes, especially without feeling guilty about it. While I take what you give me through the day, I also take that feeling guilty too.

I looked through the listed sites (well they were apps, but I’m not downloading something without knowing what it is). I tried the only free sample I came across on Smiling Mind. I wasn’t able to do it uninterrupted (family), but it didn’t seem too bad. It actually made me smile and even laugh a couple of times. Is it suppose to do that? If not, I guess my focus just isn’t cooperating. The voice said if my mind got to straying or thinking that is was normal. Maybe it wouldn’t be too bad sometime? What do you think? Could this help our quiet time get back to where it used to be, hopefully my peace of mind too? Do we need a 3rd party to help my mind, like these medicines, doctors, and therapists? I will pray about it and let you lead.