6.11.18 Update 2: Kimberly’s PCT Hike

An update for those helping me pray for Cousin Kimberly (aka Legs, trail name) as she hikes the PCT (Pacific Crest Trail) from Mexico to Canada.

Kimberly is having so much fun! You see it in her smiles! My favorite pictures! She has so many other photos on her blog of so many friends that she has made along the way. She even has so many videos.

(Reminder: I don’t reblog or link the blog because of some of the language and  I have so many young people actively following my blog, as well as several friends who are Pastors, Evangelists, Worships Leaders, and serving in ministry in many different ways. I love my cousin and have been led by the Lord to pray for Kimberly on her journey! I am so grateful for those helping me pray for her! Kimberly has expressed how much she loves everyone praying for her!)

If you would like to make an extra note of encouragement to let Kimberly (aka Legs) know you are praying for her, note in your comment where in the world you are!

I love that so many from so many countries are helping me to pray for my cousin! God made her to be an awesome woman! Thank you! Me and God love you! ❤

 

 

ME AND GOD LOVE YOU, KIMBERLY (AKA LEGS)!

Happy Birthday, Charlie and Grandma Nellie

Happy Birthday, Charlie and Grandma Nellie! The Lord knows how much I love and miss you both! Thank You, Lord, for the assurance that I know they are safe and happy with You on their special day and every day! ❤

Grandma Nellie Mae was my Dad’s mom. We saw her sparingly, but she was nice. My dad didn’t really grow up with her either because he was just 5 when his dad died, and Nellie was suffering from mental illness and could not take care of him and his 14 siblings. So his older brother from the 1st marriage, who was 30 something years older, raised him. He struggled with bitterness toward her for a great while but was still glad to see her. It would not be till years later that we learned Charlie (my baby brother) was born on her birthday! She died while we were kids.

A picture we have of her as a nurse looks so much like her daughter Beulah (our aunt) that sometimes there is a playful debate over whether it’s actually Nellie or Beulah.


Charlie was my baby brother. Yes I said was. We were 10 months apart. My mom literally had him 46 days before my first birthday. He was my 1st birthday present. 😉
Below is a picture on the left when he was just 3 years old at the state fair that used to come to our local Speedway but now comes to the Agriculture Center.
In the picture on the right I was barely 12 so Charlie is 11. He’s standing on the car getting ready to lunge and hug my mom. Nathan has a hold of his leg because they wrestled all the time. We had just moved to Hickory.

Below in the left picture Charlie is in the middle of cutting up with his friends. Charlie was blessed with a multitude of friends, a handful of close guy friends, but Homey (in blue) was Charlie’s best friend.
The picture below on the right shows where he loved to be… on a roof! He was a roofer like dad. He could carry 3 bundles of shingles up a roof, but it made my dad so uncomfortable. He preferred he only carry 2… lol. (So you know, most roofers struggle to carry 1 bundle.) Charlie was very strong, yet had a very tender heart.

He also had a dream to be in law enforcement. When he met his wife, she encouraged him to follow his dreams. They were divorced after his BLET (Basic Law Enforcement Training) graduation, but before he became a deputy. Here are a couple of pictures the day he got his uniform and handcuffs. He was so excited that he wanted to show off the uniform and use the handcuffs… which he did on my son Anthoni.

Charlie’s birthday is the hardest for me to mention because his loss has been the hardest for me. In 2007, my mom’s sister had died and we were at her viewing when they took us into a backroom of the funeral home to let us know that Charlie was shot and killed in my mom’s home. He was 37. It is so hard that I am writing this the day after his birthday. 30713429_10215427963030520_2759935727145344905_n (1)Sometimes it is too hard for me to talk about people I love and miss on their special days until afterwards, or not at all. It’s so personal, and I am horrible with dealing with my emotions. I have been even more shut off since Charlie’s death. Writing poetry is where I can do that because poetry allows for symbolic and vague meanings, yet allows a writer to express what they want to reluctantly say behind safe words. I learned to do that with writing at a very young age.
I miss Charlie so much it hurts more than I can say. It literally takes my breath if I think too much on it. It was such a cruel and senseless death. But as I leave you with more pictures of his smile and personality, I leave you with the same words that Christ left me.

“But I would not have you to be ignorant, brethren, concerning them which are asleep, that ye sorrow not, even as others which have no hope. For if we believe that Jesus died and rose again, even so them also which sleep in Jesus will God bring with him.
For this we say unto you by the word of the Lord, that we which are alive and remain unto the coming of the Lord shall not prevent them which are asleep. For the Lord himself shall descend from heaven with a shout, with the voice of the archangel, and with the trump of God: and the dead in Christ shall rise first: Then we which are alive and remain shall be caught up together with them in the clouds, to meet the Lord in the air: and so shall we ever be with the Lord.
Wherefore comfort one another with these words.”
– 1 Thessalonians 4:13-18 KJV

My baby brother is in a much better place. I would never be so cruel as to bring him back to this cold and vile world just so I could hug him but then make him have to suffer the troubles of this world, know sickness and pain again, heartache, and to worry about him every time I hear of terrorism, airplane crashes, train derailments, or the rampant deaths from flu, and the never ending growing list of friends and family dying slow painful deaths of cancer and so many other illnesses that suck the life out of people.

And if there is anyone who understands the pain of my loss but the joy of Charlie’s gain it is my Savior Jesus Christ. Jesus not only felt the loss of his dear friend Lazarus who was resurrected, but Jesus also had a dearly beloved cousin who was needlessly murdered as a party favor for a seductress, because of the influence of a heartless woman, and because of a coward who could not control his lust, and was more concerned about being a laughing stock by those who witnessed pride get the better of a weak man. John the Baptist was decapitated and had his head served on a platter during a birthday party. No one paid for his crime… YET!
Christ will have his day of justice. And so will my brother. For now, John and Charlie, and even Jesus, are now at home with our heavenly Father. No one will ever harm them again! Nor make jokes of their deaths! And because Christ STILL chose to die for us regardless of His own grief and pain, I can pray for my enemies as well. That’s just ONE more of the tender acts of mercy and grace Jesus did because of how much He loves you and me!

PRAISE GOD FOR A SAVIOR WHO LOVES…
MORE THAN WE CAN EVER UNDERSTAND! ❤
THAT IS A BIRTHDAY PRESENT WORTH CELEBRATING!

 

4.4.18 Update: Kimberly’s PCT Hike

For all of those who are helping me pray for Kimberly (aka Legs) as she hikes the PCT (Pacific Crest Trail), this is an update.

Tomorrow Is Day One was her introduction to her beginning for this incredible hiking journey. I will no longer be reblogging, but will give updates instead.

I will be using this picture for you to identify the updates on her hike in the Reader.29511773_2055391427809044_3113805081282536436_n

**You also will remember that I always make sure to put a heads up about the language that could make you uncomfortable.**
That is what this particular post is regarding. Because I have hundreds of families and friends who are missionaries, evangelists, pastors, worship leaders or are in some form of ministry, and because a great majority of them have children who are active in reading posts, e-mails and whatever forms of greetings and/or communications, I want to be mindful in not filling up their feeds with offensive material.

It is NOT to come across as judgmental on Kimberly or to discourage her!!

Particularly in this post is a topic a lot people simply don’t realize is extremely offensive. It is actually thought to be “keeping it clean” or simply not given a second thought (or first) to even be an issue. Using the word Holy with anything other than something you mean to refer to as being Holy, and IS genuinely Holy is considered offensive to God (or more specifically the Holy Spirit). Just as using God’s name with anything other than something you mean to refer to God with in a reverent way is offensive to God.

“Thou shalt not take the name of the Lord thy God in vain; for the Lord will not hold him guiltless that taketh his name in vain.”
– Exodus 20:7 KJV

Many people either have no idea of an issue, while most even have the best of intentions by believing not adding a cuss word or anything vulgar is being respectful, humorous, or simply keeping it clean. A lot Christians do this as well. I use to think like this too, having no clue that it is so important to God… the one I love and do not want to offend. While it is horrible to hear or read intentional offense, it is just as offensive to read God’s Holy Spirit being used as a punch line, or inconsiderate adjective or adverb.

“Wherefore I say unto you, All manner of sin and blasphemy shall be forgiven unto men: but the blasphemy against the Holy Ghost shall not be forgiven unto men.
And whosoever speaketh a word against the Son of man, it shall be forgiven him: but whosoever speaketh against the Holy Ghost, it shall not be forgiven him, neither in this world, neither in the world to come.”
– Matthew 12:31-32 KJV

“And whosoever shall speak a word against the Son of man, it shall be forgiven him: but unto him that blasphemeth against the Holy Ghost it shall not beforgiven.”
– Luke 12:10 KJV

“Let no corrupt communication proceed out of your mouth, but that which is good to the use of edifying, that it may minister grace unto the hearers. And grieve not the holy Spirit of God, whereby ye are sealed unto the day of redemption.”
– Ephesians 4:29-30 KJV

For this reason, I will give you updates, instead of just reblogging. I thank you so much for praying for my cousin as she walks from Mexico to Canada! I thank you too for knowing that this is in no way meant to be judging my cousin, or causing a debate. I have many family and friends who use far worse language. While I am to be careful in what I see, read, and do, I am also called be like Christ in loving one another. Christ walked among men… lived among us… and still lives among us… regardless of our imperfections. Vulgarity can come in many forms. When He leads me to pray for someone, to encourage them, or to simply be present in a part of their journey in life, I am to simply do that… pray… encourage… or simply be there… not to judge.

I love my cousin, and I love each one that God gives me to remind them of just how much God loves them, sometimes letting someone know for the first time ever. God’s love can be hard to know, understand, or felt if all one receives is judgment and offense. The most important thing God wants to let us know is…

“For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.
 For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved.”
– John 3:16-17 KJV

So until the next update, keep walking with Him, and keep walking in His love! ❤

Me and God love you, Kimberly (aka Legs!) ❤
Me and God have faith in you! ❤