Convalesce

Lord, I need Your help in getting a note typed up for my dear friends who are so kind to check in on me, even sending loving comments.  I keep trying to get a chance to write about things as they happen, but I am STILL struggling with feeling so easily wiped.

Convalesce… that was the word You gave me when I got to sick back in November.  I was sick the whole month. I was wiped… and still am. Thank You for healing me from the sinus infection. I know You will help me to continue to heal.

Webster says Convalesce is to heal and grow strong. I clearly hear You telling to come away and convalesce with You by resting in trusting You… and growing strong in Your word.. in Your strength… in You!

This most recent doctor visit with my podiatrist was not encouraging. There was the good news of no break (Praise Your Holy Name!), but she says that the stress is trying to cause enough pressure on my bones to cause a fracture, and the neuroma I’ve had since 1992 is being effected, but she says that it’s my back causing the problems. Because of that she says she cannot treat my foot because it may injure my back worse.

It is so challenging, Lord! I am supposed to be elevating my legs as much as possible to relieve the lymphedema and lipedema by getting the fluid off, yet I cannot elevate my legs as I should because my back will not tolerate my laying back like that for more than 15 or 20 minutes without severe pain, or causing me  not to be able to lift my legs. I have to drag them to get up. MY physical therapists have long wanted to help me with different exercises and treatments that I am unable to do because of this. The weight from the fluid on my legs make it heavier and harder on my back. And from sitting so much, I struggle to keep good circulation and other problems. I feel defeated.

I am blessed that You give me so many loving friends. I am touched more than they know by each word. I long to get opportunities to respond back, to thank, and to read how things are going with them, and encourage for them as I pray. Even as I type this, I am struggling to stay awake. So please let them know only the way YOU can, how much they mean to me! And that I am praying for them!.

**Thank you to each one of you who have been so kind to leave encouraging messages, smiles, and the posts you may not know I do read. Sometimes I get a LIKE on it before I lose it or fall asleep. Sometimes I don’t. Regardless, I am praying for each one of you! Each One!! Me and God love you!!! ❤ **

PS… God allowed me to write a small poem Convalesce In His Rest.
This is the message He has given me for now, and the coming year. This is the word.. the command… the whisper He has made so clear. I need to come away with Him and rest… physically, spiritually, mentally, psychology, and every way possible! I AM WIPED!
But By His grace, in His strength, and according to His will and perfect timing I will grow stronger.

Thank you for every one who has prayed, and continues to!
They make the difference!

Thank You, Jesus, for Your faithful presence, healing touch, spring of hope,
and Your wonderful matchless grace!

GIFTS of the King

Life is such a GIFT,
and Lord allowed today’s gift to be a very blessed one!
Thank You, My King, for Your gift of love in each day. ❤

Time is a GIFT.
Whether it be a lifetime with loved ones,
or a brief visit with a loved ones,
time is such a beautiful thing.
Yet God tells us when we get to heaven,
there will be no more time….
cause we will be with our loved ones
(which includes him)
FOREVER ❤
Praise you, Lord my Manger King!

Rachel & Leah Bible Study: Night 4 of 6

RLLBS.2019.17Oh my loving Lord! How beautiful You are to give such sweet rest… contentment… ease… when we are truly and genuinely refreshed… in our body… in our mind… in our spirit… in You! This is what You allowed me to feel this ladies bible study night! My week would be just as much a challenging week as the others, even in being exhausted. But for this night… for this study… I was very relaxed… extremely refreshed… and absolutely 100% present. Praise Your Holy name! It was so nice! ❤

IMG_20190324_153420Truth Four (aka Week 4) was You Didn’t Do Anything Wrong.
The verse to combat feeling like we did something wrong was Proverbs 16:9
“A man’s heart deviseth his way: but the Lord directeth his steps.”

I arrived in time to get grab my badge, a door prize ticket, and a blank card for my new prayer request. Walking toward the table, I just sat in the nearest corner. I would eventually be delighted with Ellen at my left. We enjoyed such sweet fellowship. I enjoyed sharing notes on our week. I was also so glad to see Keitha back!! 🙂 Beth had been a blessing!  But I am so thankful You brough Keitha back to us! It was nice to see her lively smile and get a Keitha hug! ❤

As we ate our snacks, Keitha told us about her convention she spoke at. There was so much good fellowship and laughter. A great deal of it being on the very subject of Comparison between the bible characters we were studying… Jacob, Leah, Rachel, Laban, Zilpah, and Bilhah. It is the most incredible thing to sit down with people who think and live just like me as we study these bible characters we have long heard of, and their horrible situations. Comments that no one else will hear us say, and familiar ways of saying the same old thing. “And he was 80! Ugh!”

IMG_20190330_134332We were given some information on different things we were considering helping out. I don’t have a Sprig can or I would share a picture, but I am checking the pantry for any of the items mentioned above on the Every Child Initiative.

Oh and the door prize tickets that we get each week, Lord?? IMG_20190330_140433

Thank You for letting me hear my number!
I was so delightfully surprised with a cup!IMG_20190330_140413

I am so BLESSED in You!IMG_20190330_140458

Now I finally see what Rae Dunn looks like close up!
IMG_20190330_140546Keitha LOVES Rae Dunn products!
I know this may sound weird, but my cup felt SO SOFT!!
I know, right?? A cup… feeling SOFT. But it did! It does!
It’s awesome! Thank You, Lord! And it’s large! 🙂

IMG_20190330_134706After we went to watch the video, I was blown away with
Truth Four: You Didn’t Do Anything Wrong.
It came with the combating verse Proverbs 16:9:
“A man’s heart deviseth his way: but the Lord directeth his steps.”

I struggle to find the words to describe the sudden and heavy darkness that someone had suddenly shed a light on, and all I could do was freeze and go numb. Comfort wrestled with shame. Disgust wrestled gratitude. Numbness wrestled with feeling sick to my stomach. Holding my breath wrestled with strangled breath wanting a moment to finally let go and inhale a nice deep breath of fresh air of new life. I ended up having to go to the ladies room. My stomach was in such knots. And I felt so numb to life. So confused at what I was supposed to think… to feel.

IMG_20190330_135931When I got back, we were beginning discussions. Then Keitha said a prayer for us before we broke into small groups, exchanged prayer cards, and took turns praying in our small groups. My prayer cards now have me praying for jobs and employment issues, incomes, finances, health, pain, and friends with CA (Cancer). On my card this week, I asked for prayer regarding my stepdad Bobby’s breathing issues and over the tests results he would be getting back during the week.

I enjoy praying with and for others… individually, as a large group, in small groups, out loud, silently, and at home each day as I do my study. And when You lovingly lay them on my heart at random times. Bobby helps me pray to. And tells me he loves the ladies praying for him. That he loves them and is praying for them too.

I left the night with hugs from my sisters in Christ, laughs, and the most awesome conversations going on even as literally going out the door.

“He was 80! Ugh!”

“Well why did Rachel give her handmaid to Jacob for a wife?? Hello! That was just adding another wife when she was already jealous of Leah! That was another woman in his bed!”

“I was disappointed in Leah giving her handmaid! I mean she had FOUR PURE BLOODED SONS… who would ALWAYS be the oldest… having the birth right… and she knew her sister didn’t have her OWN son yet.”

“I feel sorry for the handmaids. Just given to someone they didn’t even want… to have children that wouldn’t even be theirs!”

“Who would name their children after farm animals?”

“And he was 80! Disgusting!”

Looking forward to seeing You next week, Father. I’m getting sad to know there are only 2 nights left, but I will be grateful for even those 2! I love You!

Our Long Journey

What a long journey of mercy
You have walked me through.
What a long journey of grace
to have been blessed with You.
So many memories flood in,
I am overwhelmed with words.
You have seen me through
so many misery and hurts.
Yet nothing on my journeying
has compared to learning of You,
and Your wondrous love
shown in everything You do.
Those memories are Yours and mine.
Those treasures are all ours.
You have poured out Your blessings.
I’ve loved bathing in the showers.

2012
written by Gail Brookshire

My Blessed Mother’s Day 2018

❤ Blessed is the woman who walks with God! ❤

This is the overwhelming message You sent me this Mother’s Day 2018! How that touches my heart, Lord, that You would send me this message through the many blessings You showered me with!

First there was the Spasday You gave Anthoni and I as a combination of celebrating his birthday that just happened to fall on Mother’s Day this year, as it sometimes does.
I posted that day to the world as a testimony and praise to You in

Happy Birthday to My Son Anthoni
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because You know we had to carefully follow You in making that day happen 3 days before the actual day. If it had been the actual day, it would not have happened. The actual day itself came so close to being a normal day of family warfare. We even lost the keys to the car during the stressful event. But You in Your loving mercy and omnipotent sovereignty displayed the omniscient Father You are to each of us! ❤

After getting Anthoni’s back up keys to the car, going to get pizza & breadsticks that were Anthoni’s chosen dinner, and watching Anthoni receive his birthday presents (reclining cot and chair from his aunt, a Gamestop giftcard and gaming t-shirt from his uncles), I was handed a bag of goodies. I first thought it was him showing me more of his presents. But it came with 2 cards for me!

The first one was from my brother and brother-in-law.Md18.6

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The other card was from my son Anthoni.
(with his unique humor 😉 )
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Then I opened the bag of goodies! 🙂
❤ Candy and a rose! ❤
My son knows I love some Reese Cups ❤ ,
and this one has Reese’s Pieces inside the cups! ❤Md18.1

And that wasn’t JUST a rose. It was a light-up rose! 🙂
I love a rose that won’t die! ❤

Also in the bag was a small note pad and stylus pen!

Then it was church time! I got to go to Your house, sing with Your people, pray with Your people, fellowship with Your people, and hear a powerful message from our family friend Pastor Boyer on Running Our Race. And these were not just any people, this was longtime familiar faces of dear friends, church family! And the Mother’s Day gift for us moms was so You… being so personal! ❤

The cutest little stationary book!
The cover read…
Blessed is the woman who walks with God.Md18.10

Inside was a note pad
(with the same message at the bottom of each sheet),
a pen, a sticky note pad, and sticky strips! 🙂
personally put together by a dear friend! ❤Md18.11

I’m familiar with the talent of that dear friend, as she has made me personal stationary books before! She is so talented, creative, sweet, and very dedicated to serving God! She is the same friend who treated me to a Wendy’s Frosty and Taco chips not too long ago! And that pen wasn’t just a pen! It has a light up too! With the same message on the pen!Md18.12

All day long, You were with me… with us as a family. Satan wanted to disrupt and ruin, but what he meant for evil You worked to good! Everyone had a good day! There was plenty of pizza, bread sticks, and even the homemade cookies and cream cake that Anthoni specifically asked his aunt for. Everyone was able to eat. No one was sick. The family squabbles were put on the back burner. And even the rain that threatened to interrupt was the sunniest day! Smiles! Laughs! My brother using his phone to take pictures while using snap chat with each of us to entertain himself!

Your message was personal and clear.

Blessed is the woman who walks with God.

❤ And for You to say that! ❤

❤ Confirmation of walking with You! ❤

❤ Be still my heart… and know He is God! ❤

Praise Your Holy name, Father!
Thank You for making me a Mom!
Thank You for Your many blessings!
Thank You for family!
Thank You for Your message…
From You to me! ❤
❤ I love You! ❤