Praise You for 100 Followers and Over 3,000 views on gaillovesgodspoetry!

❤ The Lord is worthy of ALL His praise! ❤

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Ok, God. It’s time to give YOU some more glory! It’s not about the numbers! You know anything You give me is all about You! What You bless this poetry blog with is all Yours!
According to WordPress, Damon Ashworth Psychology became the 100th Follower.
Bless him and his blog, Lord.
He had a pretty interesting sleep study (What Happens If You Go To Bed Too Early?) as his last post. Help him and his clients to have the restful sleep that only You can provide.
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A Season of Distress and Grief

Lord, how simply marvelous, wonderful, and loving You are to me. Despite that I am so undeserving of You, You think nothing but good OF me! You think nothing but good FOR me! You think of me, even when I am so easy to be so distracted with the stresses and cares of my life and easily forget You are there for me.

Last night I was so distressed about so many things that I could not sleep. I was so grieved that I was distressed that it exhausted me. I was making sure to play the 3 songs You have been ministering to me with when I have been in prayer over these things:

  1. Jesus, I My Cross Have Taken by Indelible Grace
  2. Oh My Soul by Casting Crowns
  3. Fear Is a Liar by Zach Williams

Eventually I fell asleep at the computer in the middle of doing the This or That Tag. When I noticed I had, I put everything aside and went off to lay in Your arms, in Your sweet rest. There would be an early morning appointment on the way before long.

“For God speaketh once, yea twice, yet man perceiveth it not. In a dream, in a vision of the night, when deep sleep falleth upon men, in slumberings upon the bed; Then he openeth the ears of men, and sealeth their instruction, That he may withdraw man from his purpose, and hide pride from man.”
– Job 33:14-17 KJV

Sure enough, the morning came along to stir me. Before I could even gather my senses, think on the day waiting on me, or really open my eyes I heard it! ❤

“In seasons of distress and grief,
My soul has often found relief,
And oft escaped the tempter’s snare
By thy return, sweet hour of prayer!”
Sweet Hour of Prayer,
classic hymn lyrics by William Walford

This was the song You wanted in my heart! You whispered that this would be what I needed for the day that lay ahead. You brought to mind a couple of challenges You and I both knew I would be facing today, and that only You knew the ones I did not know would be waiting for me. I would need to be prepared. And these were the words You wanted me to think on. Not just to help me through what was on the way, but to praise You for being so personal, so specific, and and so loving before I could even fully join the day. It would be a reminder of how You heard each word, each distress, and knew what grieved my heart.

How sweet and intimate is the love of my God! ❤

The day has now came and went. And those challenges absolutely showed up. Fiery and fierce were the darts of the enemy. Just as You described them.

“Above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked.” – Ephesians 6:15 KJV

Even now they weigh so heavy just to look upon. I would have been sorely wounded without Your warning. But just as faithful are the words and love of my Jesus! ❤

Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.”
– John 14:27 KJV

Thank You, Father, for thinking lovingly on me. For whispering so clear what You knew I would need to hear. And for finishing my day with a sweet reminder from WordPress. 🙂

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Thanks for flying with us. Keep up the good blogging.

I close by leaving the lyrics to the whole song. Thank You for allowing me to hide all of those words in my heart that I might not sin against You! ❤ I love You! ❤

Sweet Hour of Prayer,
classic hymn lyrics by William Walford

Sweet hour of prayer! sweet hour of prayer!
That calls me from a world of care,
And bids me at my Father’s throne
Make all my wants and wishes known.
In seasons of distress and grief,
My soul has often found relief
And oft escaped the tempter’s snare
By thy return, sweet hour of prayer!

Sweet hour of prayer! sweet hour of prayer!
The joys I feel, the bliss I share,
Of those whose anxious spirits burn
With strong desires for thy return!
With such I hasten to the place
Where God my Savior shows His face,
And gladly take my station there,
And wait for thee, sweet hour of prayer!

Sweet hour of prayer! sweet hour of prayer!
Thy wings shall my petition bear
To Him whose truth and faithfulness
Engage the waiting soul to bless.
And since He bids me seek His face,
Believe His Word and trust His grace,
I’ll cast on Him my every care,
And wait for thee, sweet hour of prayer!

Sweet hour of prayer! sweet hour of prayer!
May I thy consolation share,
Till, from Mount Pisgah’s lofty height,
I view my home and take my flight:
This robe of flesh I’ll drop and rise
To seize the everlasting prize;
And shout, while passing through the air,
“Farewell, farewell, sweet hour of prayer!”

Trusting the Authority You Obey

Rereading thru David’s bloody times… I feel for those ordered to kill or those honestly believed to be honorable by obeying. Sometimes they were right and rewarded for it… sometimes NOT and ‘rewarded’ for it as well. Makes me think of our soldiers, policemen, and people trying to obey authority, as is biblical to do.

Let every soul be subject unto the higher powers.
For there is no power but of God: the powers that be are ordained of God.
Whosoever therefore resisteth the power, resisteth the ordinance of God:
and they that resist shall receive to themselves damnation.
For rulers are not a terror to good works, but to the evil.
Wilt thou then not be afraid of the power?
do that which is good, and thou shalt have praise of the same:
for he is the minister of God to thee for good.
But if thou do that which is evil, be afraid; for he beareth not the sword in vain:
for he is the minister of God, a revenger to execute wrath upon him that doeth evil.
Wherefore ye must needs be subject, not only for wrath, but also for conscience sake.
For for this cause pay ye tribute also:
for they are God’s ministers, attending continually upon this very thing.
Render therefore to all their dues: tribute to whom tribute is due;
custom to whom custom; fear to whom fear; honour to whom honour.”

– Romans 13:1-7 AKJV

“When the righteous are in authority, the people rejoice:
but when the wicked beareth rule, the people mourn.”

– Proverbs 29:2 AKJV

Even Jesus submitted to authority, whether it was as a child submitting to the authority of his parents, or as an innocent man wrongly convicted, sentenced, and executed by the hands given the authority to carry out the unjustified punishment. We must be careful to obey God’s voice so that whether we are blessed to raise our swords in victory, or our lives are placed into the hands of men with authority, we will have the peace of mind to know it is God’s authority in which we have trusted, and will be justly rewarded.

“And he went down with them, and came to Nazareth, and was subject unto them:
but his mother kept all these sayings in her heart.
And Jesus increased in wisdom and stature, and in favour with God and man.”

– Luke 2:51-52 AKJV

“Then saith Pilate unto him, Speakest thou not unto me?
knowest thou not that I have power to crucify thee, and have power to release thee?
Jesus answered, Thou couldest have no power at all against me,
except it were given thee from above:
therefore he that delivered me unto thee hath the greater sin.”

– John 19:10-11 AKJV

“But without faith it is impossible to please him:
for he that cometh to God must believe that he is,
and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him.”

– Hebrews 1:6 AKJV

 

Look Up

Lord, Facebook reminded me of this memory from 2 years ago when you gave me a theme for 2016 when the New Year rolled around. You told me to make no resolutions. Just to Look Up… every day… whatever may come my way… Look Up. And see you coming for me… maybe today… eventually! You have not forgotten me. You ARE coming for me… some day. ❤ You gave me a verse.

“And when these things begin to come to pass,
then look up,

and lift up your heads;
for your redemption draweth nigh.”

– Luke 21:28 KJV 

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So I made this for my Facebook Cover Photo to remind me, and to motivate me. I am so glad that I listened to you! I fell in love with your sky… the firmament where you watch me from on high. I began to see you so much more. Our conversations became so much sweeter, more personal than ever, and added such depth to our relationship while I developed a desire to fly!

“And I said, Oh that I had wings like a dove!
for then would I fly away, and be at rest.”
– Psalm 55:6 KJV 

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When I see your clouds so high in the sky, I am envious that they could linger around in the sky, so close to you, and floating in the midst of your beautiful creation.  I wish I could just spread my wings and soar. But you remind one day I will.

“then we which are alive and remain shall be caught up together with them in the clouds, to meet the Lord in the air: and so shall we ever be with the Lord.”
– 1 Thessalonians 4:17 KJV

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Sometimes you delighted me with nice surprises like this double rainbow. Ever so faint, but I could see it as you brought to mind 2 Kings 2:9.

“And it came to pass, when they were gone over, that Elijah said unto Elisha, Ask what I shall do for thee, before I be taken away from thee. And Elisha said, I pray thee, let a double portion of thy spirit be upon me.”
– 2 Kings 2:9 KJV

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One of my favorite nights was on our best date night we had this last year of 2017. For while the theme was given for 2016, I fell in love with looking up into your firmament and seeing you every moment of the day. All of these pictures in this post were 2017.

Delight thyself also in the Lord;
and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart.” 
– Psalm 37:4 KJV
“For then shalt thou have thy delight in the Almighty,
and shalt lift up thy face unto God.”
– Job 22:26 KJV

And you are a God who delights in giving us the desires of our heart… when they are desires that you have put there. By following you in Looking Up, I gained a desire to want to see more of you. You took a lot of fears and anxieties, and turned them into joys and delights. And by continuing to follow you in faith, I heard your whisper drawing me to my front row seat of My Fireworks in July. Again, your word was my guide. You wanted me to believe you are a rewarder… and you are! ❤

“But without faith it is impossible to please him: for he that cometh to God must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him.”
– Hebrews 11:6 KJV

 

It’s Snowy Around Here

Lord, I was going to call this 1st Snow 2017, but many could debate that as there has been “some” snow here and there. It is the 1st “big” snow. Everyone has been posting their pics. I am 3 days late, but it was a big enough snow to leave plenty laying around, as you can see from the neighbor’s snow man. Anthoni and Sandra (son and sister) were so excited about that snowman.

There was snow out back everywhere too. 😉

I then ventured out front… well to the porch anyway.
As you can see the steps were a bit snowy too. 🙂

I took a picture of the car, but the sun made such a glare. At first I was going to delete it, but thought, “That is exactly what it’s like trying to look at everything when not in the shade. Let them see just how blinding it is.

The same thing happened with the wishing well.
(which is leaning now) 😦

Even the bushes were still holding snow pretty good. And considering where they were near the house, that would explain why we lost satellite service. We were very blessed, Lord, to have only been without Satellite. I pray for our family and friends who were (and some still are) without power, water, or heat.

But from the looks of the tree closest to the house not having as much now, that would explain why the satellite came back on yesterday afternoon. 🙂1stsnow.10

Yep, it was pretty snowy around here, and still is. But with Your help, I will get that snow off the car, and get to my therapy tomorrow. For while I am praying to You for my therapists to get their cars, driveways, and steps cleared safely as well, I am also reminded of the stanza from Amazing Grace that sings,

“The earth shall soon dissolve like snow,
The sun forbear to shine;
But God, who called me here below,
Will be forever mine.”

May we be ready for that day, Lord.

 

Losing… It!

I’m losing… it. The storehouse of faces I’ve loved. Those voices I once heard whispered in my ear. Those unmistakable laughs. Those unforgettable moments I was dying to tell. Those corny jokes told again and again, but I loved the one telling them. Those little arms that came along with little smiles and wide eyes. Those exciting and luring moments that seemed too hot to forget. And all of those things that made me who I am… by knowing who I am… and knowing who I am not. Memory. That’s my it. So when I say I am losing… it, I am not joking. I am losing… my memories. I am losing… me.

It sounds so selfish to say it like that. But, Lord, how can it be selfish to be concerned about my heath. It’s not healthy to lose everything you have done in me to make me who I am. I am going to lose all of that as well. I am losing the verses, the hymns, the parables, the commandments, and the beautiful love letter your Son left us in the book of John. Worst of all, I am losing everything I know about you, your Son, and your Holy Spirit. My reason for living.

My friends used to call me “human rewind”. I was the one who remembered birthdays, anniversaries, and even phone numbers and addresses long before cellphones. I could verbally playback songs, note for note, ooh ah for ooh ah. I made extra money on jobs because of articulation, pronunciation, accentuation, and remembering the details of products, customers, and all sorts of info. I was given leadership roles in work and college organizing resources of information because I had pleasure (really a need) to keep things in some form of order for immediate access.

By your grace, I memorized countless bible verses, even chapters. You allowed me to memorize the whole book of James. I knew the ten commandments fully. I knew the books of the bible, new and old, in chronological order. I learned so many hymns, in their entirety, not just their popularity. I was asked by church to do a writing ministry because I was already sending cards for birthdays, anniversaries, new babies, weddings, graduations, get wells, and just because. They offered to keep me in supply of stamps, cards, and whatever I needed as they handed me a directory and told me to let them know whenever I found mistakes.

Now… now I’m lucky if I can finish a conversation without fumbling, or rambling, forgetting, or sounding like the high school drop out I was (my high school teacher, who was teacher of the year with NCAE and our school several years running, urged me to quit school to get my G.E.D. and go on into college in fear I was getting bored with school), or a nervous rambling wreck unable to at least keep my focus on topic. I find it extremely hard to remember the simplest of things if they’re not written down. Even then, I have to remember they’re written down already, or at least put a note where I hope I will see it. And my editorial skills, well they speak for themselves.

Friends and family are hurt that I cannot remember their special days, even more by my asking them to write it down… again… and again. They are offended by my writing the same notes I have written again and again over very personal matters, some that they only entrusted to me. They ask me not to write any more. I have not been the one who everyone comes to for everything for quite some time. They no longer trust my wisdom, my confidentiality, or my ability to be genuine.

Most days, I am struggling with medications… having to take them, having to trust them, and having to be careful of them. A couple of years ago I only had a couple of prescriptions to take as needed, which wasn’t often. Now I take 9 to 11 on a daily basis. Some I take more than once a day. I have to be careful discussing this because we have family/friends we have to hide meds from. So I have to hide them and remember. I have to write down what I take so I can remember when they’re due, and catch myself before I accidentally take meds on top of each other, and sometimes when I have already taken them again it gives me a window of time… to know when I’ll be ok. As long as I get to write these things down, it helps.

Lord, it’s hard. It’s scary. It’s depressing. It makes it easy to give up, especially when I see the hurt I put on a face, or when I disappoint those I love, and I mean disappointment that sticks for life, the kind I know from my own personal experience, and to know there’s nothing I can do about it. On top of this, losses in my life and my family have been many and continue. The people who once asked me to let them help, or asked me to be their help are not here to vouch for what I’m like, what I eat, what I’m allergic to, what health issues I have, or anything else that I will eventually have no control over. My life will be at the mercy of strangers. All I can do is pray they are your strangers, with your wisdom, your compassion, and your favor.

How does all of this feel? That’s all anyone ever wants to know. Didn’t I just say that… hard, scary, depressing, easy to give up, helpless, hopeless, disappointing, lonely, frustrated, and there’s nothing I can do… but pray. And I do.