WTCR (The Competitor Rocks)

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**The following is a short story I wrote for a Creative Writing class while taking summer classes in college. It was just for fun, and although I had no idea the class and professor would love it so much and publish it, I share it now with you and hope it brings you a laugh as well.**


WTCR (The Competitor Rocks)

“Ida! Ida! IIIIIIIdaaa!” Laura was screaming across the field, covered with a crowd of faithful listeners of the Competitor. Oh, forgive me, the unchallenged competitor, as the sweeper reads.

“What?!” cried Ida in search of the voice paging her name. “Who’s calling me?”

Laura Jamerson, a small girl, with shoulder length dark hair, waving both hands in the air, back and forth, cried, “Me, Woman! It’s Laura right here in front of you.”

Ida Ford, a perky young woman, with long curly dark brown hair, stood looking right at…

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Breathers: 7.19.18, Night 2 Extra

How Faithful You are to me, my God! How clearly You speak, whether in a whisper or shouting right in my face! You delight in me! And I delight in You! Just as I was speaking to You the other night when posting Breathers: 7.19.18, Night 2 of 3, You opened my sleepy eyes, and foggy brain, and honored noting whatever verses or notes I could from being present, without my camera as a distraction, and trusting You with everything.
(Anyone who has not read the post listed above, may not understand this one.
For those of you who did, there are new pics of that night at the end of this post! 🙂 )IMG_20180719_204409“And Moses answered and said, But, behold, they will not believe me, nor hearken unto my voice: for they will say, The Lord hath not appeared unto thee.  And the Lord said unto him, What is that in thine hand? And he said, A rod.”  – Exodus 4:1-2 

As I was listening to the speaker the other night when she got to this verse, my half asleep brain thought I was being asked the usual “What are you holding onto that you cannot let go of?” when she was actually asking “What is your hand to use?” As I was typing the post, I was still so foggy that I didn’t even really take in the cracked pots at all. But after the day of rest You gave me on Sunday (ironically a very long and restful sleep, followed by a long and peaceful time awake), You allowed me to reread in a relaxed state. And I finally heard You! Your word! Patricia’s message from You!

And I heard Moses! “A rod.” And I saw MY rod! In the picture! My PEN! ❤IMG_20180719_204726My pen is the rod You have given me to help others believe! The ink that ends up on the paper, or the characters on a computer, are the byproducts of this Cracked Pot (my sleepy and foggy brain)! How You choose to let Your people know that You want to free them of their Pharaohs and their taskmasters is up to You! But as long as I am willing to say, “Yes” to Jesus, that is all You ask of me! You want Your people to know!

“And the Lord said, I have surely seen the affliction of my people which are in Egypt, and have heard their cry by reason of their taskmasters; for I know their sorrows.”
– Exodus 3:7

And in the message You kept me awake for, You have spoken to me!

What’s in your hand? God is a God who sees and hears. Even when you can’t voice your needs/cries to Him because you don’t even know what they are. God hears and is helping against whatever has been your taskmaster.

Fear and doubt have been my taskmasters! Ghosts of the past and physical chains of the present! They convince me I am of no use to You. That I have nothing to offer, and mess up every attempt You give in mercy and grace with my afflicted body. Still!!! You assure me that You saw and heard me even when I was half asleep, helping me to get those words down so that I can hear You nowI have a rod in my hand! It is filled with ink! Or my fingers that are tapping the keys! The words are finding their way through this cracked pot after all! You tell me my earthen vessel is a treasure filled with Your power.

“But we have this treasure in earthen vessels, that the excellency of the power may be of God, and not of us.” – 2 Corinthians 4:7

Who am I to give into doubt and fear so easily when the excellency of Your power will be the glory to shine through? YOU designed this cracked earthen vessel! YOU have given this blog, and the one with all of the poetry that I fear insults You yet the responses from others magnify the testimony You have done throughout my life! It is YOUR testimony! It is YOUR glory! I am merely to say… Yes!

You have a divine strategy to alleviate the suffering of humanity… and if You want to include me for the glory of Your salvation, You know what stick You want to equip me with! What YOU give! THAT is what I am holding onto! THAT is what I have in my hand!

“My heart is inditing a good matter: I speak of the things which I have made touching the king: my tongue is the pen of a ready writer.” – Psalm 45:1

This has been my life verse for as long as I can remember… and yet I too easily forget!

So I am lovingly reminded again of that tender rebuke in the little blue note.IMG_20180719_204453“If you think you’ve blown God’s plan for your life, rest in this: You my beautiful friend, are not that powerful.” – Lisa Bevere

If it’s true You use Broken Things… then Lord, I’m all Yours! ❤

SO thank You, Lord, for giving me the very answer You were actually giving me when You were asking it of me. And thank You for allowing me to include the pictures from that night of the Bible Study. You know I always like to make sure I have permission before I use pictures.

I was so delighted to see that when Keitha gave the OK, she let me know she had just gotten back from a beach vacation with her hubby and son! She took a Breather! 😉 She was being an example for us! And You blessed her for saying Yes in allowing You to pour through her broken vessel!

From one Cracked Pot to another, me and God love you, Keitha! ❤

And Sarah, I trust that wherever God had you at work during this study that He was pouring through you too! I pray God allows me to see you at the next one!

Me and God love you too… my sister Cracked Pot! 😉 ❤

And for you who stayed with me through this post, I know you may doubt your earthen vessel, but your heavenly Father sees treasure to pour His excellent power through! ❤
Say Yes to Jesus, and trust it all to His glory!

He loves you too, my fellow Cracked Pots! ❤


If you would like to read the other night, they are here below:

Breathers: 6.21.18, Night 1 of 3 Soaking Up the Summer, Son, and Shade

Breathers: 7.19.18, Night 2 of 3 In the Cool of the Evening

Breathers: 8.16.18, Night 3 of 3 Gathering on the Back Porch

 

Intentional Effort

Fear… what a powerful foe! It has such a powerful grip… such a vast chasm of darkness… such a terrorizing torture on an already human mind. For weeks now fear has just had a choke hold on me. It has had me at its mercy. And what a horrible contradiction to what the very definition of mercy is. Why do we use that expression to refer to being someone’s prisoner? Bound by something or someone that we have no control over nor choice to get away from? What a cruel mockery of the true mercy You provide, Father.

Mercy is when we don’t receive a punishment or consequence that we do deserve.

Fear has this very unmerciful hold on even the righteous sometimes. Your Son was under Fear’s fierce attack in the garden. Even after Your angels ministered unto Him, He had to return and pray twice more while in such agony. Afflicted with human flesh and the godly knowledge of what He had yet to suffer, and to know it would begin any moment… weighed heavily on Him. So if there is anyone who understands how fear has been imprisoning me for the last several weeks, it has been my Lord and Savior.

Fear to move… fear to speak… fear to blog… fear to write… fear to watch this… fear to do that… fear to think… fear to communicate… fear to interact… fear to breathe…. fear to exist… and yet scared to death to fail to do any of these.

I’ve made intentional efforts along the way on several of these things through Your leading, Lord. Acting in faith. Some I have been able to make at least one step forward. Some I have yet to actually move. I have mentally went to lift a foot, but it felt like being stuck in a concrete block. If it had not been for feeling my muscles trying to contract, I wouldn’t have thought I even tried. But I know You know I have. I haven’t given up, but I recognize the challenge.

Yet no matter how much of a mighty foe fear is, I know a far Mightier Warrior! A Valiant King! A king who will NOT allow His children to remain prisoner. And just as You allowed the angels to minister to our precious Jesus in the garden, You have been faithful and loving to minister to me wherever it is I have been. And You are THE Almighty! Meaning You are Mightier than ALL Your foes! And my foes are Your foes! So they stand to be reckoned with by You!

So I make this intentional effort to blog because I know You will bring me out of this place. This darkness makes it hard to see where I have been, where I am now, where I am going, and in which direction to go, but I see Your Great Light. Even just a flicker of Your Shining Love is enough to lead me, to cheer me, to reach into my soul and keep me breathing. I know You know I’m in here. I know You know I’m trying. This is all I need… because You are the only one I answer to.

These demons who disguise themselves in false light just don’t shine the way You do, so they cannot make me smile the way You do.

You keep me going, smiling, singing, trusting, loving, living in joy…
 ❤ just to know You are! ❤

Keep shining, Lord. Keep leading. I’m following… even if it’s just by allowing You to carry me because I am either weak, or as stubborn as Lot. Keep doing what You’re doing in me. I fall more and more in love with You every day. And I love even that! ❤

See how You erase fear even as we enjoy one another! Thank You for teaching me about true reverent fear… true loving mercy… and genuine saving grace. Oh but for the love of Your salvation! You rescue everyone of us when You lift us up out of the miry pit of fear, darkness, and agony, just as You lifted our Savior in His hour of need. I need You, Father. Every hour, I need You! I love You! ❤

Praise You for 100 Followers and Over 3,000 views on gaillovesgodspoetry!

❤ The Lord is worthy of ALL His praise! ❤

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Ok, God. It’s time to give YOU some more glory! It’s not about the numbers! You know anything You give me is all about You! What You bless this poetry blog with is all Yours!
According to WordPress, Damon Ashworth Psychology became the 100th Follower.
Bless him and his blog, Lord.
He had a pretty interesting sleep study (What Happens If You Go To Bed Too Early?) as his last post. Help him and his clients to have the restful sleep that only You can provide.
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Congratulations on getting 100 total follows on gaillovesgodspoetry!
Your current tally is 102.
WordPress also says there have been over 3,000 views now. You always amaze me that what You whisper in my ear, or that I talk with You about would be of any interest to anyone.  It’s You! They see You in anything they see good, or…

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A Season of Distress and Grief

Lord, how simply marvelous, wonderful, and loving You are to me. Despite that I am so undeserving of You, You think nothing but good OF me! You think nothing but good FOR me! You think of me, even when I am so easy to be so distracted with the stresses and cares of my life and easily forget You are there for me.

Last night I was so distressed about so many things that I could not sleep. I was so grieved that I was distressed that it exhausted me. I was making sure to play the 3 songs You have been ministering to me with when I have been in prayer over these things:

  1. Jesus, I My Cross Have Taken by Indelible Grace
  2. Oh My Soul by Casting Crowns
  3. Fear Is a Liar by Zach Williams

Eventually I fell asleep at the computer in the middle of doing the This or That Tag. When I noticed I had, I put everything aside and went off to lay in Your arms, in Your sweet rest. There would be an early morning appointment on the way before long.

“For God speaketh once, yea twice, yet man perceiveth it not. In a dream, in a vision of the night, when deep sleep falleth upon men, in slumberings upon the bed; Then he openeth the ears of men, and sealeth their instruction, That he may withdraw man from his purpose, and hide pride from man.”
– Job 33:14-17 KJV

Sure enough, the morning came along to stir me. Before I could even gather my senses, think on the day waiting on me, or really open my eyes I heard it! ❤

“In seasons of distress and grief,
My soul has often found relief,
And oft escaped the tempter’s snare
By thy return, sweet hour of prayer!”
Sweet Hour of Prayer,
classic hymn lyrics by William Walford

This was the song You wanted in my heart! You whispered that this would be what I needed for the day that lay ahead. You brought to mind a couple of challenges You and I both knew I would be facing today, and that only You knew the ones I did not know would be waiting for me. I would need to be prepared. And these were the words You wanted me to think on. Not just to help me through what was on the way, but to praise You for being so personal, so specific, and and so loving before I could even fully join the day. It would be a reminder of how You heard each word, each distress, and knew what grieved my heart.

How sweet and intimate is the love of my God! ❤

The day has now came and went. And those challenges absolutely showed up. Fiery and fierce were the darts of the enemy. Just as You described them.

“Above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked.” – Ephesians 6:15 KJV

Even now they weigh so heavy just to look upon. I would have been sorely wounded without Your warning. But just as faithful are the words and love of my Jesus! ❤

Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.”
– John 14:27 KJV

Thank You, Father, for thinking lovingly on me. For whispering so clear what You knew I would need to hear. And for finishing my day with a sweet reminder from WordPress. 🙂

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I close by leaving the lyrics to the whole song. Thank You for allowing me to hide all of those words in my heart that I might not sin against You! ❤ I love You! ❤

Sweet Hour of Prayer,
classic hymn lyrics by William Walford

Sweet hour of prayer! sweet hour of prayer!
That calls me from a world of care,
And bids me at my Father’s throne
Make all my wants and wishes known.
In seasons of distress and grief,
My soul has often found relief
And oft escaped the tempter’s snare
By thy return, sweet hour of prayer!

Sweet hour of prayer! sweet hour of prayer!
The joys I feel, the bliss I share,
Of those whose anxious spirits burn
With strong desires for thy return!
With such I hasten to the place
Where God my Savior shows His face,
And gladly take my station there,
And wait for thee, sweet hour of prayer!

Sweet hour of prayer! sweet hour of prayer!
Thy wings shall my petition bear
To Him whose truth and faithfulness
Engage the waiting soul to bless.
And since He bids me seek His face,
Believe His Word and trust His grace,
I’ll cast on Him my every care,
And wait for thee, sweet hour of prayer!

Sweet hour of prayer! sweet hour of prayer!
May I thy consolation share,
Till, from Mount Pisgah’s lofty height,
I view my home and take my flight:
This robe of flesh I’ll drop and rise
To seize the everlasting prize;
And shout, while passing through the air,
“Farewell, farewell, sweet hour of prayer!”

Trusting the Authority You Obey

Rereading thru David’s bloody times… I feel for those ordered to kill or those honestly believed to be honorable by obeying. Sometimes they were right and rewarded for it… sometimes NOT and ‘rewarded’ for it as well. Makes me think of our soldiers, policemen, and people trying to obey authority, as is biblical to do.

Let every soul be subject unto the higher powers.
For there is no power but of God: the powers that be are ordained of God.
Whosoever therefore resisteth the power, resisteth the ordinance of God:
and they that resist shall receive to themselves damnation.
For rulers are not a terror to good works, but to the evil.
Wilt thou then not be afraid of the power?
do that which is good, and thou shalt have praise of the same:
for he is the minister of God to thee for good.
But if thou do that which is evil, be afraid; for he beareth not the sword in vain:
for he is the minister of God, a revenger to execute wrath upon him that doeth evil.
Wherefore ye must needs be subject, not only for wrath, but also for conscience sake.
For for this cause pay ye tribute also:
for they are God’s ministers, attending continually upon this very thing.
Render therefore to all their dues: tribute to whom tribute is due;
custom to whom custom; fear to whom fear; honour to whom honour.”

– Romans 13:1-7 AKJV

“When the righteous are in authority, the people rejoice:
but when the wicked beareth rule, the people mourn.”

– Proverbs 29:2 AKJV

Even Jesus submitted to authority, whether it was as a child submitting to the authority of his parents, or as an innocent man wrongly convicted, sentenced, and executed by the hands given the authority to carry out the unjustified punishment. We must be careful to obey God’s voice so that whether we are blessed to raise our swords in victory, or our lives are placed into the hands of men with authority, we will have the peace of mind to know it is God’s authority in which we have trusted, and will be justly rewarded.

“And he went down with them, and came to Nazareth, and was subject unto them:
but his mother kept all these sayings in her heart.
And Jesus increased in wisdom and stature, and in favour with God and man.”

– Luke 2:51-52 AKJV

“Then saith Pilate unto him, Speakest thou not unto me?
knowest thou not that I have power to crucify thee, and have power to release thee?
Jesus answered, Thou couldest have no power at all against me,
except it were given thee from above:
therefore he that delivered me unto thee hath the greater sin.”

– John 19:10-11 AKJV

“But without faith it is impossible to please him:
for he that cometh to God must believe that he is,
and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him.”

– Hebrews 1:6 AKJV