The “Would You Rather” Tag 4.19.19

Would I Rather???
❤ I’d rather have Jesus than anything this world affords today!
Now, Lord, You know I couldn’t see that kind of question and not think of Your great hymn I’d Rather Have Jesus. ❤
And You know how much I love Your dear Son! ❤
Yet here You have allowed Lovely Anita of Discovering Your Happiness to create another new tag… The “Would You Rather” Tag…  to quote her, “as a BOREDOM BUSTER!”

The ‘Would You Rather’ Tag gives you two options to choose from – it’s funny to see what people will choose.

** Either/Or questions always leave 4 options…. Either, Or, Neither, Both 😉 LOL **


Rules:

  • Thank & tag the person that has tagged you
  • Attach the tag photo
  • Answers the ‘Would You Rather’ questions
  • Tag a handful of friends

My Answers:

  • Would you rather have all dogs try to attack you when they see you or all birds try to attack you when they see you?
    • neither one thank you
  • Would you rather be unable to move your body every time it rains or not be able to stop moving while the sun is out?
    • unfortunately I know both the feeling of not being able to move my body and the feeling of being restless, but at least being restless with the sun out I would mean I could be active with a lifetime of living to do 🙂 making for a sweet peaceful rest.
      “The sleep of a labouring man is sweet, whether he eat little or much: but the abundance of the rich will not suffer him to sleep.”
      – Ecclesiastes 5:12 KJV
  • Would you rather spend the rest of your life with a sailboat as your home or an RV as your home?
    • RV for me! Keep me on solid ground please! 🙂
      “And every one that heareth these sayings of mine, and doeth them not, shall be likened unto a foolish man, which built his house upon the sand: And the rain descended, and the floods came, and the winds blew, and beat upon that house; and it fell: and great was the fall of it.”
      – Matthew 7:26-27 KJV
  •  Would you rather walk around work or school for the whole day without realizing there is a giant brown stain on the back of your pants or realize the deadline for that important paper / project was yesterday and you are nowhere near done?
    • I’ve met many a deadline as an Editor and a student. I love a challenge!
  • Would you rather eat a sandwich made from 4 ingredients in your fridge chosen at random or eat a sandwich made by a group of your friends from 4 ingredients in your fridge?
    • I would rather control what I eat! I want to know what I am eating!
  • Would you rather have plants grow at 10 times their normal rate when you are near or for people and animals to stop aging when you are near them?
    • The more people who know that Jesus went away to prepare a place for them, the more people there will be to stop aging… someday 😉

  • Would you rather have chapped lips that never heal or a terrible dandruff that can’t be treated?
    • being I have dealt with both of these I choose NEITHER!
  • Would you rather have out of control body hair or out of control body odor?
    • Doesn’t everyone have out of control body hair as we get older? LOL
  • Would you rather know all the mysteries of the universe or know every outcome of every choice you make?
    • God reveals the mysteries of His world to us every day! ❤
  • Would you rather never be able to wear pants or never be able to wear shorts?
    • Never able to wear shorts.
  • Would you rather only wear one color each day or have to wear seven colors each day?
    • one color each day. I use to wear everything color coordinated when I was younger.. earrings and makeup included.
  • Would you rather eat rice with every meal or eat bread with every meal?
    • rice
  • Would you rather have no eyebrows or only one eyebrow?
    • I’ll keep both thank you, but I have had friends born without eyelashes or eyebrows.
  • Would you rather your only mode of transportation be a donkey or a giraffe?
    • donkey
  • Would you rather live in a cave or live in a tree house?
    • I go to the rock! ❤ 😉

      “He hideth my soul in the cleft of the rock
      That shadows a dry, thirsty land;
      He hideth my life with the depths of His love,
      And covers me there with His hand,
      And covers me there with His hand.”
      – He Hideth My Life, classic hymn

      “Rock of Ages, cleft for me, Let me hide myself in Thee;”
      – Rock of Ages, classic hymn

  • Would you rather never sweat again or never feel cold again?
    • my body hates both, but never sweat again
  • Would you rather never have to clean a bathroom again or never have to do dishes again?
    • No dishes! We use all paper products already, and that would be one nasty bathroom!
  • Would you rather move to a new city or town every week or never be able to leave the city or town you were born in?
    • Stay home. There’s a difference between traveling and constantly having to move. We moved over 20 times when I was growing up.
  • Would you rather live a comfortable and peaceful life in the woods in a small cabin or a life full of conflict in a mansion in a city?
    •  I already live in the country.
      Just give me the cabin and praise the Lord for peace!
  • Would you rather be in debt for $100,000 or never be able to make more than $3,500 a month?
    • 3,500 a month. I hate the stress of owing.
  • Would you rather be the best in the world at climbing trees or the best in the world at jumping rope?
    • Double Dutch!! ❤ I LOVE it!! Which makes me think of a old favorite that is ALWAYS fun! We use to listen to this all the time. I’ve listened several times, singing all the way through each time just to get this for you!
      Do do do do do do do… 😉
      Thanks for putting a smile on my face!! I have had a HORRIBLE time of fear, stress, and a tear or two tonight! So thank you! 🙂

  • Would you rather never run out of battery power for whatever phone and tablet you own or always have free Wi-Fi wherever you go?
    • I was going to say never run out of power because you can’s use WI-FI on a dead computer, but then I remembered I am typing on a laptop that requires my power cord to stay plugged up to use the WIFI that’s letting me type! LOL
  • Would you rather 20 butterflies instantly appear from nowhere every time you cough or 100 butterflies die somewhere in the world every time you cough?
    • give life! don’t kill it!
  • Would you rather never be stuck in traffic again or never get another cold?
    • never get sick!!
  • Would you rather know the uncomfortable truth of the world or believe a comforting lie?
    • The cold hard truth! ❤
      A comforting lie can haunt you for the rest of your life! 😦
  • Would you rather every shirt you ever wear to be kind of itchy or only be able to use 1 ply toilet paper?
    • Isn’t this what cheap toilet paper is? Double fold the 1 ply
      I have an autoimmune disease that breaks out for months and makes life miserable if I aggravate my skin or allergies. 😦 No thanks!
  • Would you rather have no fingers or no elbows?
    • I’ll keep everything the good Lord gave me thanks! 🙂
  • Would you rather have all traffic lights you approach be green or never have to stand in line again?
    • My spinal damage makes it hard to stand for too long. Besides, if all lights were green there would be major accidents. Traffic lights have a purpose.
  • Would you rather have a flying carpet or a car that can drive underwater?
    • I want to fly! ❤
  • Would you rather find five dollars on the ground or all of your missing socks?
    • $5 🙂
  • Would you rather live on the beach or in a cabin in the woods?
    • I take one of each please. Gotta have somewhere to go during a hurricane, and somewhere to get away from slick mountain roads in the winter.
  • Would you rather lose your left hand or right foot?
    • Again I will keep what the good Lord gave me! 🙂
  • Would you rather face your fears or forget that you have them?
    • Face the real ones, forget the irrational ones.
      Said like a true hypocrite.
  • Would you rather snitch on your best friend for a crime they committed or go to jail for the crime they committed?
    • I’ve watched too many people go to jail for someone who never changed, nor gave one ounce of care about the one who took the fall for them.
      I’ve also seen people continue to get away with hurting others because none of their victims not being able to say anything or those aware of their guilt not  speaking up.
  • Would you rather eat a box of dry spaghetti noodles or a cup of uncooked rice?
    • let’s cook them both and enjoy! 🙂
  • Would you rather humans go to the moon again or go to mars?
    • I’d rather us all go to heaven! ❤
  • Would you rather never get angry or never be envious?
    • I don’t like to be either one.
  • Would you rather go to any theme park in the world for free for the rest of your life or eat free at any drive through restaurant for the rest of your life?
    • free food! 🙂 Free Cheddar’s Spasagna! A dream come true!
      Free Chick-fil-A. ❤ I get this alot because they are so generous!
  • Would you rather never lose your phone again or never lose your keys again?
    • I can easily but a new phone and switch my number over!
      It took me forever to break the habit of losing my keys.
      Praise the Lord for overloaded fobs! LOL
  • Would you rather lose the ability to read or lose the ability to speak?
    • Neither! I would be so sad! 😦
  • Would you rather live under a sky with no stars at night or live under a sky with no clouds during the day?
    • a sky with no clouds! It’s coming soon! What a Day That Will Be! ❤
      Oh, the land of cloudless day
      Oh, the land of an unclouded sky
      Oh, they tell me of a home where no storm clouds rise
      Oh, they tell me of an unclouded day”
      – Unclouded Day, classic hymn
  • Would you rather have constantly dry eyes or a constant runny nose?
    • Neither. They’re both miserable.
  • Would you rather never be able to eat meat or never be able to eat vegetables?
    • I can do without meat.
  • Would you rather always be able to see 5 minutes into the future or always be able to see 100 years into the future?
    • I can see into an eternal future with my Jesus! And I yearn for it so! ❤
  • Would you rather be married to a 10 with a bad personality or a 6 with an amazing personality?
    • An amazing 6…. He’s in love with me and Jesus! ❤
  • Would you rather never be able to drink sodas like coke again or only be able to drink sodas and nothing else?
    • no soda
  • Would you rather have amazingly fast typing / texting speed or be able to read ridiculously fast?
    • Read fast! I struggle to read things… even blogs because of my eyes. But if I typed any faster the mess I tend to make would be much worse!
      Praise God for my favorite compute keys… delete and backspace! 😉
  • Would you rather sell all of your possessions or sell one of your organs?
    • All my possessions
  • Would you rather never have to work again or never have to sleep again (you won’t feel tired or suffer negative health effects)?
    • It is so tempting to say No Sleep! Boy, I could just live life to the fullest. But I am reminded of the Breathe Bible Study the Lord allowed me to do.
      Breathe: Making Room for the Sabbath by Priscilla Shirer reminds that God created the sabbath for a purpose… not just for our health, but to allow to enter into that beautiful thing called… REST. Oh how wonderful the feeling of kicking up one’s feet and remember to Be still and know that He is God! ❤ Such sweet fellowship! ❤ He promises His people rest for a reason!
  • Would you rather get one free round trip international plane ticket every year or be able to fly domestic anytime for free?
    • If the Lord allows me to actually cross the pond, I need the International plane tickets. I can drive anywhere domestic.
  • Would you rather be balding but fit or overweight with a full head of hair?
    • Fit with hair! 🙂
  • Would you rather be able to be free from junk mail or free from email spam for the rest of your life?
    • No Spam! I have to rescue messages from friends out of the junk mail all the time.
  • Would you rather know when you are going to die or how you are going to die? (You can’t change the time or method of your death.)
    • I’ll leave that one up to the Lord.
  • Would you rather never be able to use a touchscreen or never be able to use a keyboard and mouse?
    • bye bye touchscreen
  • Would you rather be able to control fire or water?
    • I’ll let God keep control of those.
  • Would you rather have everything you eat be too salty or not salty enough no matter how much salt you add?
    • unsalty… my blood pressure will love me for it
  • Would you rather have unlimited sushi for life or unlimited tacos for life? (both are amazingly delicious and can be any type of sushi / taco you want)
    • Tacos! I’ve never had Sushi.
  • Would you rather be unable to use search engines or unable to use social media?
    • both are so valuable
  • Would you rather give up bathing for a month or give up the internet for a month?
    • Give up internet
  • Would you rather donate your body to science or donate your organs to people who need them?
    • to science… it’s too diseased to help anyone, but maybe the research could save and or prevent others
  • Would you rather be able to teleport anywhere or be able to read minds?
    • my lack of trust in others says read minds, but to be able to transport away from danger is much more helpful
  • Would you rather never use social media sites / apps again or never watch another movie or TV show?
    • no social media or apps. TV is too vital for local news and weather, and the Internet is too unreliable… the connection, the speed, and the information
  • Would you rather have an easy job working for someone else or work for yourself but work incredibly hard?
    • Work obediently and faithfully for my Lord
  • Would you rather be locked in a room that is constantly dark for a week or a room that is constantly bright for a week?
    • I’ve been locked in dark rooms. That’s too cruel.
      Give me Jesus and you give me Light! ❤
  • Would you rather be poor but help people or become incredibly rich by hurting people?
    • Help others
  • Would you rather live without the internet or live without AC and heating?
    • If I want to be able to breathe and not freeze to death, I better say the net!
  • Would you rather always be 10 minutes late or always be 20 minutes early?
    • early! Being late throws things off.
  • Would you rather your shirts be always two sizes too big or one size too small?
    • 2 Big! 😉 Baggy!
  • Would you rather live in the wilderness far from civilization or live on the streets of a city as a homeless person?
    • In the wilderness. John the Baptist, Moses, and Jesus thrived in the wilderness.

WHEW! I’m finally done! God bless you 10 times over if you have actually read this far along with me! Lord, help me to choose the ones who love and live for doing these. I want to be a blessing, not a burden!


My Nominees:
Pennies for Dreams
A Fractured Faith
Dreamer’s Outlet
The Word
Quiet Girl, Noisy World
Sophie Harris
Real as the Streets
The Shower of Blessings

PTL! Congrats to the nominees! Please do not filled bound to do this Tag. If you do, us the same questions as above, and in your own time. That is between you and God.

Thank you, Miss Lovely!
❤ I still would rather have Jesus! ❤

‘ The Get To Know Me Tag’ Tag 4.19.18

Ok, Lord, here You go getting creative again through our Lovely A of Discovering Your Happiness, as she has nominated me for The “Get to Know Me” Tag. This was a tag that she created herself. The interesting things that You allow!

🙂 Thank you, Miss Lovely, for thinking of me! 🙂
❤ Me and God love you! ❤


Below are questions & answers for all of the nominees  ❤

  • What are my strengths?
    • Christ (Philippians 4:13)
    • faith
    • encourager
    • supportive
  • What are my short term goals?
    • Therapy
    • Keep copying God’s word
    • try not to give up
  • What are my long term goals?
    • Follow God
    • Love God
    • Serve God
    • Let others know God loves them ❤
  • Who matters the most to me?
    • My Lord and Savior Jesus Christ ❤
  • What am I ashamed of?
    • every sin I have ever committed against my Jesus! 😦
  • What do I like to do for fun?
    • walk the Parkway bridge
    • puzzle books
    • blogging
    • writing poetry and short stories
  • What new activities am I willing to try?
    • Whatever God asks of me.
  • What am I worried about?
    • too much
  • What are my values?
    • faith
    • Christian
    • relying on God’s Holy Word!
    • Keep God first… No Matter What!
  • If I had one wish, it would be…?
    • To be with Jesus! ❤ Soon and Very Soon!
  • Where do I feel the safest?
    • In the heart of my Lord God! ❤
  • What or who gives me comfort?
    • The Comforter (aka the Holy Spirit:) ❤
  • If I was afraid, I would…?
    • pray, sing a hymn, or read God’s word
  • What is my proudest accomplishment?
    • Giving birth to my son (by God’s grace and strength)
  • Am I a night owl or early bird?
    • night owl
  • What does my inner critic tell me?
    • Keep it all about Christ!
  • What do I do to show my self, self-care?
    • Shower
    • eat
    • lotion
  • Am I an introvert or extrovert?
    • introvert.
  • What am I passionate about?
    • the Love of my Savior  ❤
  • What do my dreams tell me?
    • For God speaketh once, yea twice, yet man perceiveth it not.In a dream, in a vision of the night, when deep sleep falleth upon men, in slumberings upon the bed; Then he openeth the ears of men, and sealeth their instruction, That he may withdraw man from his purpose, and hide pride from man.
      Job 33:14-17 KJV
  • What is my favourite non-fiction book?
    • The Holy Bible (King James Version preferred)
  • What is my favourite fiction book?
    • Pilgrim’s Progress by John Bunyon
  • What is my favourite movie?
    • Jesus of Nazareth
  • What is my favourite band?
    • Casting Crowns for one
  • What is my favourite food?
    • spasagna with garlic bread
  • What is my favourite colour?
    • lavender
  • What am I grateful for?
    • That God sent His Only Son to Save me! ❤
    • That Jesus willing paid my price to save me! ❤
    • That the Holy Spirit comforted my Jesus ❤
    • That Jesus is not in the grave any more, nor in pain! ❤
  • When I am feeling down, I like to?
    • lay in my Savior’s arms ❤
  • I know I am stressed when?
    • I get a headache, get shaky, get fearful, get painfully quiet or extremely chatty

I would like to nominate the below people to do the same tag:
A Sagittarian Seeker
Becoming His Tapestry
Teen, Meet God
Reema’s Garden
Hands Full of Blessings
Lea’s Spiritual Journey
Isaiah Roebuck
Cocina Italy
Coffee, Crime, and a Whole Latte More
Jack Flacco
A Better Man

Congratulations to the Nominees! Please do not feel obligated to participate. If you do, please do not rush. Using the same questions, please feel free to skip any question you do not like, or be as creative as you already are.
This is just meant to be a little “Get to Know You.”
❤ God loves you each one! ❤

Thank you again, Lovely Anita! ❤

TMI Tag 4.16.18

Tag, Lord! You’ve made me it! You used Lovely Anita of Discovering Your Happiness to nominate me for the TMI Tag! You open her heart to me so often! Thank You for thinking of her with a nomination too! Bless her, Lord.

So ok, Father. I sense a little fun is what You seek to share with me. 🙂
So I will be sure to pass it on! Everyone needs a smile! 🙂


TAG QUESTIONS:

  • What are you currently wearing?
    • clothes.. *GASP* I know! Shocking right! 😉
  • Have you ever been in love?
    • I still am… with a wonderful and beautiful Savior! ❤
  • Have you ever had a terrible breakup?
    • unfortunately I have… if only we would obey God first and always!
  • How old are you?
    • hanging onto my 40s by the hair of my chinny chin chin! 😉
  • How tall are you?

    • tall enough to duck, but short enough to stretch
  • How much do you weigh?
    • I could qualify as a heavyweight if I were a fighter 😉
  • Do you have any piercings?
    • Yup… my ears took one for the team years ago… lol
  • What’s your favourite drink?
    • Nesquik Chocolate Milk
  • What’s you favourite song?
    • Sweet Hour of Prayer and LOTS of other hymns
  • What’s your zodiac sign?
    • one of those horoscope creatures 😉
  • How long does it take you to shower?
    • I tend to take 15-20 mins 🙂
  • What’s your favourite show?
    • Jeopardy... I like seeing what I can guess… AND learn! 🙂
  • What’s your favourite band?
  • Something you really miss?
    • swimming 😦
  • Where do you go when you’re sad?
    • to the arms of God… with my head on His Word! ❤
  • How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?
    • 10 -15 minutes to awaken.  15 -30 to be ready to go
  • Have you ever been in a physical fight?
    • unfortunately
  • What turns you on?
    • the Love of Christ ❤
  • What turns you off?
    • anything that hurts my Jesus 😦
  • Qualities you look for in a partner?
    • the man whom God has chosen to be my guide that has such a love for Christ that He will lead me closer to God every day, not leading me further away by the minute. He won’t be perfect, but as long as He is making sure we keep our Savior first, He will have my whole heart and complete trust. And we will love the one who created that trust in both of us! ❤
  • What’s your favourite colour?
    • lavendar
  • Loud music or soft?
    • soft
  • Favourite quote?

    God loves you! ❤

  • Favourite actor?
    • Ernest Borgnine
      ❤ (my two favorite roles are as Marty
      and as the Centurion in Jesus of Nazareth)
  • Do you have any fears?
    • I’m human. Of course I do.
  • What’s the last thing that made you cry?
    • an unpleasant memory 😦
  • Last time you said you loved someone?
    • to my stepdad as he was headed off to bed
      (poor little guy, his medicines win the war too 😉 )
  • Last book you read?
    • Besides my daily reading of God’s Holy Word aka The Holy Bible
      (which I am in the book of Exodus right now),
      it was either
    • Breathe: Making Room for the Sabbath by Priscilla Shirer
    • or Hearts of Fire: Eight Women in the Underground Church and Their Stories of Costly Faith by The Voice of the Martyrs
  • The book you’re currently reading?
    • Again Exodus in my daily reading
    • Tortured for Christ by Richard Wurmbrand
    • and Jesus Led, I Simply Followed by Blanca Mesias Miller
  • Last show you watched?
    • Lion
  • Last place you were?
    • Ingle’s (our local grocery store and gas station
  • Last sport you played?
    • It’s been so long that I don’t remember. 😦
  • Who’s the last person you talked to?
    • my sister
  • The last song you sang?
    • This Is My Father’s World hymn lyrics by Maltbie D. Babcock
    • Be Thou My Vision hymn lyrics by Dal­lan For­gaill
    • All for Jesus hymn lyrics by Mary D. James
      We sang all 3 of these for family devotions tonight.
  • Favourite chat up line?
    • May I ask you to pray for me?
  • Do you have a crush?
    • No but I have a Caffeine Free Pepsi 😉 LOL
  • The relationship between you and the person you last texted?
    • A longtime dear friend
  • Favourite food?
    • spasagna at Cheddar’s
  • Place you want to visit?
    • wherever God wants me
  • What’s the last time you kissed someone?
    • 15 years ago
  • Last time you were insulted?
    • don’t remember
  • Favourite sweet?
    • ice cream
  • What instruments do you play?
    • little piano… very little
  • Favourite piece of jewellery?
    • don’t have any
  • Last time you hung out with anyone?
    • a dear sister in Christ treated me to Wendy’s
      I ate a chocolate Frosty with taco chips 🙂
      Was a blessing to catch up with church family ❤

My Nominees for the TMI Tag:
Arnya of  Walking With The Way
Caz of Invisibly Me
Hayley of Red Letters
Stu of Something to Stu Over
Siphe of God’s Anointed Princess

God bless you each one.
Feel free to tag yourself if you would like to do this!

Thank you for thinking of my, Lovely A!

❤ LOVE YOU FIRST AND MOST MY WONDERFUL SAVIOR! ❤

Week 2 On The PCT With Kimberly

Hi, Y’all! Here’s an update for all of those helping me pray for my Cousin Kimberly who is hiking the PCT from Mexico to Canada! She is doing so awesome! She has plenty of the most spectacular scenery pictures, many even shot in the panoramic view. This week Kimberly passed 200 miles already, and that’s even with a couple of Zero days (days she doesn’t hike so there are no miles accounted for).

Along the way, Kimberly has met a lot of people and gained some trail family, saw snakes and lizards, hiked rocks and deserts, and has really embraced a lot more freedom with self expression (**which will be why I am not including even a link this time, as there would be language AND triggers for my dear friends in ministry, with young children, and struggling with addictions**). She is really enjoying her hiking adventure, and her smiles are huge! Thank you for helping me to pray for her! I hope you will help me to keep her in prayer! She still still has quite a way to go. Hopefully that will give all of this winter weather a chance to clear our before she gets up north.

Thank you for being patient with me on sharing her update from this week. I’m still having issues struggling with sleep, even under the wheel or at red lights, even if I do get good sleep. My body just wants to shut down. My neurologist is having me see a couple of my specialists, including my sleep doctor. She wants to see if it is part of my sleep apnea or something else. Otherwise, we are working on trying different things, including changing meds around, adding one to keep me awake during the day if need be, and today I started back with my regular physical therapy team. I have not seen them since November when I was sent off to lymphedema/lipedema therapy.

God bless you each one who prays!
❤ God loves you! ❤

Happy 26th Smoke Free Anniversary!

Yay!! Thank You, Jesus! 26 years of being smoke free!! My lungs, my heart, my blood pressure, my sinuses, my entire body is so thankful! It’s so hard, and yet so delightful to know it has been 26 years! It was so very hard then! But You could not pay me to take even one puff! I am eternally grateful for Your help.

I really don’t remember how young I was when I first smoked a cigarette. I just remember by 7 years old, it was a habit me and my siblings had sneaking cigarettes out of cartons or packages belonging to my grandmother and my dad. Sometimes we even stole them from the stores, along with candy. We were so horrible! And I do NOT say that fondly, as if to promote that as a sweet memory. You were so merciful to see us through such sinful times. You are so wise when You say,

“Even a child is known by his doings,
whether his work be pure,
and whether it be right.”

– Proverbs 20:11 KJV

I do remember by 12 that my neighbor (who was also my best friend) and I bought a pack of cigarettes each, along with some candy, and made sure to eat the candy and smoke every single cigarette we had before we got home within 30 minutes or so. We stayed up all night. The next afternoon when she was supposed to go with us out to eat, my parents let me know she could not go because she had been throwing up all day. Before we could leave, I too became sick. They were highly suspicious but never figured out why. But I knew. It actually made me quit. But then…

Later that year, we moved to Hickory and I went to a school for troubled kids. Twice a day there was a 15 minute smoke break for the WHOLE school! Teachers and students smoked and talked together. Eventually I felt like I was missing out on something. Just a few months later, we moved back and I was smoking so often that my parents officially allowed me to smoke. The only lecture I got was 2 questions from my grandmother.
1. You know that is what killed your Granddaddy? Lung cancer? That it made his lungs black?
2. You know you are going to have to buy your own cigarettes, don’t you?
By Christmas I was on my grandmother’s Christmas list to receive a carton.

I quit when I found out I was pregnant just as I turned 18, but I started having quite a problem with my blood pressure. This caused the clinic to send me to a high risk clinic and sent a nurse to my house. EVERY DAY I was accused of smoking and told to quit for my baby. No matter what I said, they would not believe me, but only stressed me more by talking about cigarettes every second they could. Eventually I caved. When the nurse came back, she started praising me for quitting. When I told her the opposite happened she asked how much I smoked before hand. I told her a pack to a pack and a half a day. She asked me how much I was smoking now. I answered just one or two a day for my nerves. She asked if I had quit cold turkey, and I said yes. She said that was probably why and apologized for stressing me out. She encouraged me to quit smoking before labor.

I quit smoking for maybe a week or two, but after having him, again my nerves were so stressed that my body struggled to have bowel or bladder movements. It didn’t help that my little brother teased me day and night about wanting one, and smoking right in front of me to tease me, but it was my sister who told me it was because I quit smoking. So I started back, and sure enough. My body relaxed and had mercy on me.

I would try on and off for years to quit but could not seem to do it. By the age of 22, I was on antibiotics every 2 weeks. I could not breathe through my sinuses, so I had to hotbox each cigarette to feel anything. Taste was long gone. But I couldn’t finish even half a cigarette because hot-boxing was giving me such a headache, and making my sinuses so much worse. My doctor kept trying to tell me I was allergic to smoke, but I would tell him I had been smoking since I was little. And I thought that for a person to be allergic meant immediately rushing to the hospital to save your life. I also already had a damaged heart valve by then, but kept smoking.

One night at the ER, they refused to treat me… saying… “It won’t do me any good to prescribe anything. Even if I had a magic pill to heal you, one puff could undo everything. You already know you shouldn’t smoke with the damaged heart valve. You already stay on antibiotics so much and have a genetic disadvantage to emphysema (my dad already had it), so it is clear you are starting to develop emphysema, and I can promise you that you will be dead before you’re 30, and that’s if you make it.”

I don’t know why that visit made such a difference, but I can tell you it did! It scared me so much to know they refused to treat me, knowing I was so sick, struggling to breathe, after all the lectures they would give me about my heart valve. By the grace of God, I quit COLD TURKEY!! Yes, I would have challenges with my brother, my best friend, my sister, and so many friends constantly and intentionally getting in my face trying to get me to smoke again. My best friend even openly declared all the time that I made her look bad. But God had put a good scare into me. The closest I came was after I had a SINGLE cough while sitting in a college class, and this nasty yellow GUNK went into my hand. GROSS! My doctor told me it was my lungs clearing out. I told him if it kept up, I would start back because I had NEVER done that! He said I was lucky because not everyone’s lungs tries to clean themselves out, especially so quickly. God used that to encourage me!

During that summer, I was also blessed with another great love of my life… swimming… unlimited, night and day access to a swimming pool and a hot tub. I couldn’t smoke and swim like other smokers around me. I would have SUCH headaches and chest pain, so it was no contest. I LOVED swimming! And still do! I miss it so! 😦 I was able to play softball with the guys, was very active in the Jaycees, walked or ran 5 miles a day before or after work, and went back to swim every chance I got in the day! I not only avoided the usual gaining of weight (which everyone swore I needed then), but I lost weight, gained some sun, and improved on some surgical scars from the sun lotion! I felt so awesome!

I know this is a very long post that I meant to be a quick… YAY! PTL! But you have to understand the difference that made in MY life. I was a 22 yr old single mom, and my son was just 3 years old. If I had made it to just 30 (just 8 more years) I still would have missed out on so much! My son’s beautiful smile, his junior high graduation, being his escort for Senior prom banquet, his high school graduation, protecting him during a time family and friends were trying to push known sex offenders into my son’s life (literally into our home and to allow him to be picked up from his school). I was a fierce momma bear during that no matter what family or friends were offended, and directly confronted the sources! Even becoming a part of a two man (me and my son) team to defend those already victimized!

I was blessed to see his college years, to meet his first girlfriend, to know his bride, to be a part of his beautiful wedding, meet his wonderful in-laws, and new loving church family, be there when he went through an unwanted divorce, was there for him when the doctors thought he had bone cancer in high school, and so much more. I was able to be there for my dad when he was sick and in the hospital, to later care for my mom in her last few years, even when house ridden, bedridden, and my stepdad had a stroke around the same time. I beat myself up quite a bit, greatly insulting God when I do, but God uses my son and wonderful souls along the way to remind me of what HE DOES in and through me. And He uses this blessed anniversary to remind me each year.

So I share this because I have SO many family and friends who are struggling with quitting. Some are trying for the umpteenth time. Their health is screaming at them now! I want to support and encourage them! My health has a lot of challenges, and I am only here by God’s say so, but He does still have me here. If I had not quit 26 years ago, I wouldn’t even be here to give myself such a hard time.

This also comes at a time that I am struggling with many things physically because of childhood or teenage behaviors. Whether they were taught to me, done to me, or I simply learned or was allowed to do them doesn’t matter. My body is the one screaming at me now for many of those things. I am trying hard to follow God in taking care of my body… the vessel He gave me. Many of you may be struggling with or simply having to live with the consequences of your past. God wants you to know that even if those things cannot be erased, He can give sweet grace, mercy, peace, and sometimes even healing. But we must first come to Him, allow Him to point those things out, ADMIT to them so that we can deal with them by first giving them to Him! He loves you! He cares what has happened to you, and what IS happening to you now. Confess to Him.. even if it’s just the emotions of how things make you feel… how you feel towards Him.. be as honest.. as raw… as open as possible! He knows any way! He just wants you to trust Him!

One day we will ALL have freedom from our scars, our addictions, our behaviors, our abusers, our damaged bodies, our impaired thinking, our failing health, our weakened and bitter spirits, and all things that make life a challenge where God did not want anything but good for us. He has good waiting for us. He has perfection waiting for us! We have new bodies waiting! New names! New spirits! New homes!

A NEW… ME and YOU!!

God has went to prepare a new place for me and you!
❤ He loves us!! ❤

“Let not your heart be troubled: ye believe in God, believe also in me. In my Father’s house are many mansions: if it were not so, I would have told you. I go to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again, and receive you unto myself; that where I am, there ye may be also. And whither I go ye know, and the way ye know.” Thomas saith unto him, Lord, we know not whither thou goest; and how can we know the way? Jesus saith unto him, “I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me.”
– John 14:1-6 KJV

 

Thanking God for Failed Relationships

Lord, thank You, for failed relationships!
I know You know what I mean and why I say that.
For as long as things have gone wrong,
You knew exactly where I was at.
From molestation as early as I can remember
(which happens to be three),
to things a child just shouldn’t know,
and neither should a teen.
From dating before I even “became a woman”
to “becoming a woman” with a man,
nothing has been hidden from You,
and by Your grace You’ve held my hand.
—–
So it makes sense that it would take so many failed relationships
to bring me peace in a relationship just with You,
a relationship that cares about my body and spirit,
willing to make my life brand new.
If any of those relationships had succeeded,
I would have never known the peace
in having 1 year of life without anything to do with touch.
The filth would have never ceased.
Being in a wrong relationship only allowed me
to focus on pleasing someone else instead of You,
or maybe enjoy someone saying what made me feel good,
instead of knowing what the Holy Spirit could do.
—–
While I do pray for each one of those souls,
I thank You earnestly for the failure each had.
Thank You for loving me enough to save me for Yourself,
for only wanting good for me, not any bad.
Thank You for allowing failure to be my rescue
of what would only get worse if allowed to last.
Thank You for the years that have brought peace
from the guilt and shame of that past.
Thank You for showing me purity from YOUR eyes,
as mine just could not see.
Thank You for sparing me of a miserable life,
and finding it special to spend a Holy one with me.

1-31-12 Written by Gail Brookshire
(by the grace of God)

Afraid of the Dark

reblogging my published poetry

gaillovesgodspoetry

On a late Friday night,
we walked into the park.
he stayed so very close to me.
She was afraid of the dark.

Another time we double dated,
she was out with Marc.
He wanted to take her to the swings,
but she was afraid of the dark.

There were many other times
we came upon the park,
but we would always go around
cause she was afraid of the dark.

Well last night as I thought
of how she’s afraid of the dark,
she somehow finally got the courage
to be murdered in the park.

8-9-89 Written by Gail Brookshire
(by the grace of God)

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