My Weekend Be Like This Tag 6.25.18

Lord, I give up. I am ashamed to say it, but I must wave the white flag.
Lovely A of Discovering Your Happiness nominated me
for the My Weekend Be Like This Tag several days ago. I have been trying to get the pictures for that weekend that had just fallen and the one that came after. But between an unfaithful camera, a very exhausting WordPress issue with Spammers, so many little things that are far from being small, and this issue with sleeping all the time…. it is all too much for me. SO I am afraid I must disqualify myself. My Weekend(s) be like Sketchy!

I remember originally I was excited about Joseph’s new book being out…
Table 41: A Novel by Joseph Suglia! 🙂

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I was so excited to finally get his book in a physical form because the computer puts me to sleep no matter how much I am interested in something. Thank You, God, for his insisting on sending me a copy from him even though I had already purchased one from Amazon because somehow they lost my order altogether! Now I will be able to share it with my son!
Lord, please help my neurologist, my sleep specialist, and other specialists figure out what’s going on with this falling asleep out of nowhere and sleeping sound… for hours… and still waking like I could sleep my life away. I’m missing out on my friends! 

I also remember excited to share that You gave me a new ladies Bible study to attend with Keitha and Sarah! I even got some Keitha hugs, Sarah hugs, and a Kristy hug! bbs6.21.18.3.jpgWe met on June 21st, and will meet again next week. I need to get that blog up for them!! Thank You for knowing exactly what I need through these Godly sisters in Christ!!

I remember being excited to do this tag for Lovely A (aka Miss Lovely), my-weekend-be-like-this-tagfor all the loving birthday wishes, I still have 2 other awards as well, and have been working away on getting the poetry up. Thank You, God, for scheduled posting. That’s really been a matter of copy, paste, and schedule.

I remember that their were several things as I tried to make a post work with a weekend, but My Weekends Be Like… sleep… sleep… sleep… church… music videos… struggling with fear and depression… car issues… house issues… family issues… LIFE! Getting pictures to chronologically tell what’s happening… is just not happening. 😉

Thank you, Miss Lovely for thinking  of me. May the nominees have a better chance of making you look good!


RULES
1 Tell me about your day in pictures (preferably own snaps). Use the pictures snapped/taken during 3 last days.
2 It should reflect – who you are, what do you like or doing on a daily basis.
3 Name for the post – any or “My day in pictures”.
4 Humor is welcome; no rush with post (take as much time as you need) and it’s not obligatory (Please don’t forget to create a “pingback!” I would hate to miss on your posts.)
5 Nominate 3 to 5 or as many as you like!


Nominees:

Alethea’s Mind
Invisibly Me
Grace Over Pain
Stubaby
Happy Sky 
The Word
Realistic Beginner
The Graced Citizen
Unbreakable Queen
Simply Chronically Ill
Lebana’s Journal
God’s Anointed Prnicesses

 

 

Intentional Effort

Fear… what a powerful foe! It has such a powerful grip… such a vast chasm of darkness… such a terrorizing torture on an already human mind. For weeks now fear has just had a choke hold on me. It has had me at its mercy. And what a horrible contradiction to what the very definition of mercy is. Why do we use that expression to refer to being someone’s prisoner? Bound by something or someone that we have no control over nor choice to get away from? What a cruel mockery of the true mercy You provide, Father.

Mercy is when we don’t receive a punishment or consequence that we do deserve.

Fear has this very unmerciful hold on even the righteous sometimes. Your Son was under Fear’s fierce attack in the garden. Even after Your angels ministered unto Him, He had to return and pray twice more while in such agony. Afflicted with human flesh and the godly knowledge of what He had yet to suffer, and to know it would begin any moment… weighed heavily on Him. So if there is anyone who understands how fear has been imprisoning me for the last several weeks, it has been my Lord and Savior.

Fear to move… fear to speak… fear to blog… fear to write… fear to watch this… fear to do that… fear to think… fear to communicate… fear to interact… fear to breathe…. fear to exist… and yet scared to death to fail to do any of these.

I’ve made intentional efforts along the way on several of these things through Your leading, Lord. Acting in faith. Some I have been able to make at least one step forward. Some I have yet to actually move. I have mentally went to lift a foot, but it felt like being stuck in a concrete block. If it had not been for feeling my muscles trying to contract, I wouldn’t have thought I even tried. But I know You know I have. I haven’t given up, but I recognize the challenge.

Yet no matter how much of a mighty foe fear is, I know a far Mightier Warrior! A Valiant King! A king who will NOT allow His children to remain prisoner. And just as You allowed the angels to minister to our precious Jesus in the garden, You have been faithful and loving to minister to me wherever it is I have been. And You are THE Almighty! Meaning You are Mightier than ALL Your foes! And my foes are Your foes! So they stand to be reckoned with by You!

So I make this intentional effort to blog because I know You will bring me out of this place. This darkness makes it hard to see where I have been, where I am now, where I am going, and in which direction to go, but I see Your Great Light. Even just a flicker of Your Shining Love is enough to lead me, to cheer me, to reach into my soul and keep me breathing. I know You know I’m in here. I know You know I’m trying. This is all I need… because You are the only one I answer to.

These demons who disguise themselves in false light just don’t shine the way You do, so they cannot make me smile the way You do.

You keep me going, smiling, singing, trusting, loving, living in joy…
 ❤ just to know You are! ❤

Keep shining, Lord. Keep leading. I’m following… even if it’s just by allowing You to carry me because I am either weak, or as stubborn as Lot. Keep doing what You’re doing in me. I fall more and more in love with You every day. And I love even that! ❤

See how You erase fear even as we enjoy one another! Thank You for teaching me about true reverent fear… true loving mercy… and genuine saving grace. Oh but for the love of Your salvation! You rescue everyone of us when You lift us up out of the miry pit of fear, darkness, and agony, just as You lifted our Savior in His hour of need. I need You, Father. Every hour, I need You! I love You! ❤

Glory In The Minefield

Lord, It’s so strange… walking around in this minefield… exploring so many old tripwires. These places have long been deserted. Intentionally so. I have never been more grateful to be away from them. I use to be so afraid of looking back. Of even thinking about them. I was so afraid it would take me back and re-imprison me. I can remember thinking it was never going to stop. That things were never going to change.

These poems are reminders of times, people, places, events that were so evil. I have long been horrified to reread them. Even though I wrote them… lived them… witnessed them. The only reason I even dare to go near them is to follow You in putting them into digital storage and on the poetry blog (gaillovegodspoetry). So many times I wanted to tear many of them up.

Even now they can be hard to type and click that publish button.

They’re so personal. So evil. So dark.

They scare me even now.

Yet as I have been following You, I am completely taken by the responses. Especially from those who say they are either going through those things now, or are trying to deal with the fact of their own similar events, but to see things from a lens of bringing them to You, talking them out with You, and allowing Your Spirit to lead me in writing anything new with them, is moving them… touching them…. helping them.

They are seeing YOU instead of the evil.
How You amaze me! ❤

We have only begun to approach this dark and evil time. We are literally on the outskirts of what seems like land mines, grenades, tripwires, explosives, and so many unpredictable triggers. As we walk through 1989 alone, I have seen so many that make me cringe just to see their titles.

But this is…. a journey… a life… a testimony… that You allowed…

and continue to magnify Your Holy name through what You have done in my heart alone. And when You allow ME to see the changes, and allow the poems to help me see the freedom from them, instead of the fear and shame that the enemy wants me to live with, You allow the love that You are in my life to be a love that I never want to let go of. I am so grateful that You are a love that never wants to let go of me! If any of the words You have given me, even through such an evil adventure, can bring one other soul out of their darkness, or shine Your light of love where the enemy chains their soul… it is very worth it all.

Freedom from a mental torture takes every bit of strength that we just don’t have alone.

That is why I am so in love with YOUR Word! ❤

“My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.” – 2 Corinthians 12:9 AKJV

May You receive all of the glory that YOU planned before I was even born!

“Before I formed thee in the belly I knew thee; and before thou camest forth out of the womb I sanctified thee…” – Jeremiah 1:3 AKJV

 

Light of the World Award 5.25.18

Oh, Light of the World! How lovingly tender and personal You always are to me! In a world that gets so dark that my mind begs to go to sleep to escape, You faithfully send You whispers of love, and boldly shine Your Light of Love into my day. Brooke was one of those strong rays of Your shining Light when You allowed her to nominate me for the Light of the World Award. You already touch my soul with her motherly love for her precious little ones, her generous love in sharing with others, and her passionate love for You each time I visit her blog Noes to Knows. I loved reading You being so personal for Brooke on her journey from Labor to the Police Academy. Tonight, You allowed her to pass on a personal note to me from You in this nomination! A light still shines from the Light of the World into this blog You have given to me and You! And this will allow You to use me to shine Your Light to others.

Thank you, Brooke, for allowing God to use you to shine a little of His Light my way, and to those who will pass by as they read, or receive a nomination to keep sharing the Light through their blogs! ❤ Me and God love you!

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Light of the World Award Rules:

  1. Save and add one of the award images on your blog. (Here is the link for the award post with images and rules of award.)
  2. Create a page/post to mention the award nomination and thank the person/blog that nominated you. Make sure you provide a link to their site.
  3. Give credit to the creator of the award (Lighthouse Devotions) and provide a link to the site as well.  (http://www.Lighthousedevotions.blog)
  4. List the rules.
  5. Answer the next four questions on the same post:
    1. What three words would you use to describe your blog?
    2. In what way(s) can a Christian shine for Christ?
    3. What bible verse (quote it) talks about being a light in a dark and lost world?
    4. What Christian song do you know that has the word “light” in it? Provide a link if available.
  6. Nominate 7 or more people/blogs to receive the award. Briefly explain why you think they should receive it and provide a link to their sites.
  7. Contact them and let them know that you nominated them.
  8. Provide them with a link to the Rules page.
  9. Say a prayer thanking God for His light and ask that He continue to shine it through you and your blog.
  10. Keep shining the light of Christ wherever you go and in whatever you do!

Answering the 4 Questions:

  1. What three words describe you best?

    God’s, Christian, Writer

  2. In what way(s) can a Christian shine for Christ?

    In whatever way God asks, leads, or gifts… just to name a few. If it is allowing His light into their own life, and then pouring rays of light into the lives of others, then no one will be able to hide or mistake the glorious light shining from the Light of the World Himself! His love shines so brightly! It cannot be overshadowed!

  3. What bible verse (quote it) talks about being a light in a dark and lost world?

    “The people which sat in darkness saw great light; and to them which sat in the region and shadow of death light is sprung up.” – Matthew 4:16 KJV

  4. What Christian song do you know that has the word “light” in it? Provide a link if available.

    A Light Still Shines was the first thing You brought to my mind as soon as I read those words Light of the World. You reminded me of when You used singing A Light Still Shines in a Christmas Cantata at church to get me through one of the most horrendous heartbreaks I have experienced. I cried every time we sang it! I praise Your Holy Name for Your music and Your people! I’ll always cherish the Light You shone into my darkness then, and that You shine into any darkness that appears!

It is hard to find this song as a single.
I will post the lyrics below the video.

A light still shines. It will always glow
In the hearts and minds of the wise who know
That a King has come and His life defines
What His love has won. A light still shines.


Nominees:

Lovely A of Discovering Your Happiness is always trying to bring a ray of Your light into the lives of others. You led me to do her 21 Day Self Care Challenge at a time that my doctors and therapists were emphasizing self care needs in my own life. I use to blow that off as ungodly, thinking it was selfish and self centered. You opened my eyes and my mind to trust You in trusting the doctors You gave me. You not only used her to teach me how vital self care is to the vessel You gave me, but You blessed me with a dear friend for life… a sister in Christ… my Croatian-Australian Sister… Lovely Anita! ❤

Hayley of Red Letters has the loveliest voice that You have gifted her with. It beautifully compliments her love for sharing You with others. You led me to a song of hers that is still my favorite to this day… Know You.

I can sit and listen again and again (and I do)! Thank You for my Brummie Sister Hayley… my Brummie family! Our family loves being able to say hello to and pray for the whole family! Thank You for the gift she is to me! ❤

Lene (aka LeneinJapan) of Song of Virginity shines a light on celebrating and encouraging those choosing Christ first through abstinence, and she does it with a loving and nonjudgmental heart. I was delightfully surprised when You had her invite me to write my testimony on her God honoring blog. But I trusted prayed and trusted You as I did so with Love of My Life – I am His Song.  I’ll always be grateful just as much for the friend You have given me in my American- Japanese Sister in Christ… beautiful Lene! She also has her other site… Wrestling with Faith – Dancing with Jesus. A place to find blessing and inspiration, and her testimony. ❤

Arnya of Walking With The Way is one of the dearest and passionate young ladies I know that You have introduced me to on WordPress. I constantly have to remind myself that she is just 14! The wisdom You give her through the Your Word as she shares it faithfully shines through each post. Just recently I was encouraged by her post A Verse for Anyone Struggling. It was Your encouragement for someone with anxiety… like me! 🙂 Thank You for my young sister in Christ… sweet Arnya! I am so grateful You make us family! ❤

Margaret of The Word shines a light on Your Word every day! She literally posts verses from Your Bible all the time! What better way to share You than to share the very Words You lived and left us!  She also shares some poetry like Is It? and loves sharing Your encouragement with as many as You will allow her. She emphasizes to others the benefits of reading Your Word for themselves because she wants everyone to know that pure joy personally. Thank You so much for my sister in Christ… dearest Margaret! ❤

Karen (aka KJ Smith) of A Couple of Stars and a Happy Face shines Your love through a smile each day for those You allow her to be seen by on her blog. Her recent post He Restores My Soul touches on one of my favorite passages to think on… Psalm 23… because that particular thought alone makes me dreamy and lost with joy in You! You make me to lie down in green pastures…. *sigh*… beside those still waters *sigh*… where You restore my soul… *SIGH*! Oh I so need that place to be lost in… so often! I love You for putting that in Your Word! And in my heart! ❤ Thank you for putting my smiling Sister in Christ… Happy Face Karen… in my life! ❤

Shae of Teen, Meet God is another young lady who You have blessed me in knowing who is constantly shining Your light through verses, music, notes from her Sundays in church, and the beautiful thing You are doing with her through the gift of dance! Her recent post Stories of the Bible – Manoah’s Wife especially touched me as Manoah’s Wife was also given a son by You and a personal one on one message on how to raise Him just as You allowed me the same gift in my son! What a light You shed on our way! Thank You for my dancing Sister in Christ from Illinois… bright Shae! ❤

Also nominated are so many others who simply love to shine Your light to others! Whether boldly or softly, PLEASE make them feel encouraged enough to accept and to keep sharing the nomination with others! I went to the beginning of the list under Followers and used the first seven names You gave me!

Congrats to all of the nominees! Me and God love you!


Thank You, Light of the World, for shining Your personal light into my life, into this blog, and into every place You allow me to receive it and give it! May this blog always be Yours, and continue to shine YOU! 🙂
❤ I love You! ❤

Waiting For My Man of God’s Unfailing Love and Unbiased Mercy!

Years ago I was asked to read this for a single’s program. I was so nervous! I prayed and prayed… that I was doing His will… and that He really wanted me to read THIS material. I was so afraid it was going to offend. God completely humbled me!

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**A very long and personal one**

Dreams and fantasies of the perfect future mate, I like so many have them quite often.
I dream of loving someone who loves my God.
I dream of someone who says “our” God.
I dream of sharing His love and word with him.
I wish for someone who will love me as God loves me… just as I am.
I need someone who will not judge me, for I have enough lions to watch for in snatching my joy and confidence.

I need someone who will not hold my past against me.
If Jesus knows what I have done and forgiven me, who is man to say that I am unclean?
Wouldn’t it be great to marry someone who saw your past as what God intended it be… growing?
Wouldn’t it be great to know that your mate could see the purpose in witnessing…

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Mystery Blogger Award 5.18.18

“And without controversy great is the mystery of godliness:
God was manifest in the flesh, justified in the Spirit,
seen of angels, preached unto the Gentiles,
believed on in the world, received up into glory.”
– 1 Timothy 3:16 KJV

Oh how wonderful to think on such a verse… such truth… such good things of my Jesus! You are without controversy in my mind! You are manifested in my heart! You are justified through the blood You poured out for me! You were seen of angels! ❤ You were preached to me when I was a child! How blessed I was to meet You! You were absolutely believed on in my heart and soul! And our heavenly Father has received You into glory! Where You have went away to prepare a place for me! And will be back for me! ❤
I’m so excited, Jesus! I am so homesick for you! ❤

Thank You, Jesus, for Joni of Grief to Life
for nominating me for this Mystery Blogger Award!
And for the joy it gave me to think on this verse! ❤
Bless her and her family!
Her testimony of her loss still touches me,

but even more so the loving passion You give her for life!
Thank You for the encouragement she is to me!
In Your Holy and Compassionate name I pray, Amen! ❤

 <3 THANK YOU, JONI! ME AND GOD LOVE YOU!! ❤


For those of you who don’t know what the Mystery Blogger Award is:

“Mystery Blogger Award is an award for amazing bloggers with ingenious posts. Their blog not only captivates; it inspires and motivates. They are one of the best out there, and they deserve every recognition they get. This award is also for bloggers who find fun and inspiration in blogging, and they do it with so much love and passion.”

Created by: Okoto Enigmas Blog

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RULES

  1. Put the award logo/image on your blog
  2. List the rules.
  3. Thank whoever nominated you and provide a link to their blog.
  4. Mention the creator of the award and provide a link as well
  5. Tell your readers 3 things about yourself
  6. You have to nominate 10 – 20 people
  7. Notify your nominees by commenting on their blog
  8. Ask your nominees any 5 questions of your choice;
    with one weird or funny question (specify)
  9. Share a link to your best post(s)

3 Things About Me:
1. I love God.

2. I love children.
3. I am so grateful for people who love to help others.

 

My Answers to Joni’s Questions for Me:

  1. Why did you start blogging? 
    As a personal blog to have private talks with God.
  2. If you had to change your name, what name would you choose and why?
    I am content with my name… real or blogging. 🙂
    But if I HAD to, I would follow whatever God gives me!
  3. You are about to get into a fight, what song comes on as your soundtrack?
    Lion and the Lamb by Bethel
    Our God is the Lion, the Lion of Judah
    He’s roaring with power and fighting our battles
    And every knee will bow before Him!
    Our God is the Lamb, the Lamb that was slain
    For the sin of the world. His blood breaks the chains.
    And every knee will bow before the Lion and the Lamb
    Every knee will bow before Him
    (link to video added below)
  4. If you could write one new law that everybody had to obey, what would it be and why?

    ❤ That no one could ever hurt a child again! ❤

    No questions asked!

  5. What’s the meanest thing you have ever done to someone to get back at them?
    I am ashamed of any harm I’ve ever caused anyone, especially my Jesus! 😦


Nominees:
Jessie of Jess Kidding
Lois of LoftForum (Living Our Faith Together)
Shacollier of Her Reason
Joy of Finding Joy
Secret Angel of The Abuse Expose
T.R. of Inside Cup
Overwhelmed By Joy
Susan of Nana’s Love Notes
Brandon of Chaotic Shapes
Caz of Invisibly Me
Alethea of Alethea’s Mind
A Country Boy of Whosoever Will, May Come
Tony of Reflections: A Mindful Journey
Lakeside Poetry
Emma of Blogging Babe
Lisa of Blended Hope
Aicha of They Got it Covered
Paleeza of Just a Quiet Girl
Payte of Paytej

 


My Questions or the Nominees:

1. What makes you burp? (That’s my required weird question.)
2. What would you like to talk with God about one on one?
3. Do you have a prayer request?
4. What do you like to blog about?
5. Where in the world do you live?

I don’t know that I have the right to pick my best post or how I would decide, but the most important is my testimony of salvation… how I met the Love of my life… my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. ❤ I would love to tell you about Me and God! ❤

Congratulations to the Nominees! Please do not feel obligated to participate. If you do, no rush! It’s meant to be a blessing, not a burden! 🙂 Tag me and let me know when you do so that I can come check out your post! God loves you! ❤