Surety, you are no friend. You know my God does not want Me to entertain you. You know He warns against you. You know you’re putting chains on me If I were to give thought to you, Or speak on your behalf. No one can speak for you. Only God can say, “Have nothing to do with her. Plead release from her, But if she insists the debt be paid, PAY IT! BE DONE WITH HER! THEN LEAVE HER ALONE!” Jealousy is your friend. She tries to flatter me. She tries to convince me that “He” is worth it too. After all, a woman’s jealousy is So much well known that she is Referred for “her fury.” No Surety. No Adultery. No Jealousy. Only God! Only His wisdom!
7.6.2020 Monday Written by Gail Brookshire Inspiration: Proverbs 6 in my Proverbs Journal
**Verses are inserted exactly where God had them placed in my new journal at the bottom of each page. I love how personal He is! **
Good morning, Lord! It’s really the middle of the night as far as I’m, concerned, but technically… officially… it is 2:45 in the early morning. So it is morning.
I just needed to come talk to You. To sit with You. To lay in Your arms. to lean on You.. with my head on Your shoulder and my heart in Your hands.
So much has happened in this last week. It’s left me completely mindful this week as well. There is so much I need to note… for You.. for me… for my sanity. It doesn’t help that so much is going on in the world too… around us and across from us. No wonder so many are checking out. It’s not fair to You.
So many words, emotions, judgments, threats, temptations, fears, and so much more are being thrown at us. It’s hard to find someone to lean on, to talk to, to confide it, to counsel with… because we’re all going through this… even the strongest of us… so we need to be mindful of one another…
“The Lord thy God in the midst of thee is mighty; he will save, he will rejoice over thee with joy; he will rest in his love, he will joy over thee with singing.” – Zephaniah 3:17 KJV
to hold our tongue and all on the wrong to be done to us… so that we don’t lay our burdens on top of someone’s already heavy load. With so many losing their battle under the weight of their own burdens, it’s a very difficult time. Stress can be a pretty fierce opponent.
Praise You for being strong enough for all of us. Nothing is an opponent to You. Thank You for being mighty… Almighty! Thank You for being ever present, for being True and Faithful… Sure and Steady… Strong and Upright. Thank You for being You.
I miss writing to You, God. It’s been a couple of months since I wrote some poetry, but it feels like forever. It feels like I need to exhale so badly. What is it that I need to get out, especially when You are having me be as discreet as possible with my words. Even my thoughts are going through Your filter. What
“For I know that my redeemer liveth, and that he shall stand at the latter day upon the earth:” – Job 19:25 KJV
is it? Is it as important as it feels? Or is it just my mind trying to run away with me? What is it You are trying to say to me during these uncertain times? That You are the only thing that is uncertain? I know that You are! ❤
The Paper Waits to Relay
Words, thoughts, chasing shadows. Things heavy on my mind. There are no answers for the questions. The days are left behind. The pen runs with the ink. The paper waits to relay. Do the words have Your permission? What are they allowed to say? Weary, scared, confused, The world wonders what to do. The pen needs to write the message, God loves you!
10.21.2020 Wednesday written by Gail Brookshire
“Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.” – Matthew 11:28 KJV
PS… Lord, I LOVE how Your verses always address exactly what I am talking to You about, but from Your wisdom of what I need. You are so personal! ❤
You and I have been friends
Many times over.
I thank God for being our
He is wise to tell me to choose.
He tells me to choose you
Is to choose wisdom.
Thank you for being
A faithful companion.
Thank you for helping me
Keep my mind on Him.
Thank you for helping
To escape my folly.
Thank you for clarifying
What I can and cannot trust.
Thank you for not wanting
To make a mockery of me,
For not shaming me in my own guilt,
As I so rightly deserve.
Thank you for preserving me for Him.
Thank you for teaching me
Thank you for helping me to honor
our Mutual Friend.
Written by Gail Brookshire Inspiration: Proverbs 5
Wisdom, let’s pursue one another. I need your instruction, And you need my obedience. I need your knowledge, And you need my heart. I need your understanding, And you need me to attend you. I need you to establish me, And you need me to exalt you. I need you to preserve me, And you need me to keep you. I need you to lead my paths. You need me to keep looking straight ahead. I need your grace and your glory. You need me to honor God’s word. His promises mean so much to me, And you mean so much to Him. He tells me so much about you, And promises so much value. Help me to receive the good In trusting His word. Help me to honor HIm In trusting you. Wisdom, knowledge, understanding, Let’s pursue one another.
7.4.2020 Saturday Written by Gail Brookshire Inspiration: Proverbs 4
Then you had my dear brother Stu of Something to Stu Over also nominate me for The Thirteenth Disciple Tag on 8.15.2020. Again I have taken so long. Please let Stu know how grateful I am for him as well. Bless them both and encourage them, Lord. Normally I would do the tags separate, but because I have taken so long I will do them together.
Thank you, Charity, for thinking of me. You created such an awesome tag! I loved the idea of hanging with Jesus!
Here Are The Rules:
Thank the person who tagged you and include a link to their post.
Use the original tag image as the FEATURED image on your post:
Here are the 13 questions:
1. Which disciple is your favorite? John… the one who was noted for loving Jesus so, and who wrote the book of John that is absolutely Love, Love, Love. It even has the REAL Lord’s prayer where Jesus is praying to the Father on our behalf in chapter 17! ❤
2. How often do you pray The Lord’s Prayer? Funny that this is the question just after I was thinking on it. 🙂 I pray as often as the Lord allows. There was a time I prayed it every day before I started my day, and every night before I went to bed as I felt the Lord asking me with compelling compassion, “Do you not think the words my Son gave you would be enough for everything?” I had been praying for “the right” thing to pray. So I committed to using it to pray for ALL my needs in those only 2 prayers of the day, allowing anytime I felt I should be praying more to God’s trust. It is amazing how He opened my eyes and my mind to those words covering every single thing we need prayer for. And why wouldn’t they? Would Jesus leave us unprepared or ill equipped?? NO! OF COURSE NOT!
3. How often do you take communion? It depends. If I attend my stepdad’s church, they do it every Sunday at the end of service. If I am at my church, I believe it’s quarterly (every 3 months). But since COVID arrived, I have not been back to church physically, and won’t be for sometime. They did one for Easter online, and that was the last time I did.
4. Do you listen to sermons during the week? Absolutely! As much as God will allow! I would rather listen to sermons than watch TV or movies.
5. If Jesus asked you to have your own small group of 4, which 3 disciples or Bible Characters would you choose to be in your weekly prayer group? John the Baptist, Samuel, amd Enoch
6. Why did you choose those 3? They were all three devoted and obedient from the beginning to the end. I want to be with people who love Jesus and His Father no matter the cost, and whose every thought is dying to self. Enoch was even spared of dying. One minute he was here, and then “he was not.” 😉
“and Enoch walked with God: and he was not; for God took him.” – Genesis 5:23 KJV
7. What Bible characters do you relate to or understand the most? I don’t know that I would claim to fully understand any of the Bible characters, but I relate to characters like Hannah, Hagar, Tamar (both David’s daughter and Judah’s daughter-in-law), Leah, and Mary. Hannah and Mary are the two I relate to most often. I, too, prayed for a child to give back to the Lord, like Hannah did for so long. I didn’t know my Bible yet then or my son Anthoni would have been named Samuel. When I did have him, I was a single mom like Mary (yes I know their engagement was the same as being married, but technically she was on her own until the angel told Joseph to marry her).
“Now the birth of Jesus Christ was on this wise: When as his mother Mary was espoused to Joseph, before they came together, she was found with child of the Holy Ghost… the angel of the Lord appeared unto him in a dream, saying, Joseph, thou son of David, fear not to take unto thee Mary thy wife: for that which is conceived in her is of the Holy Ghost.”
When I think of the responsibility I felt from the beginning to raise a child given from God, especially when Anthoni began to be a little preacher, it was a very important concern for me every day…. and still is with him grown. How much heavier must that concern have been to be raising the Son of the Living God! ❤
8. Which disciple would you argue with the most? Judas or Peter for always wanting to argue with Jesus!
9. Which disciple would you get along with the best? I would love to hang with John or Nathanael. John loved Jesus so, and Nathanael believed Jesus was the Son of God and the King of Israel from the beginning just because Jesus knew who he was. Jesus said there was no guile in him.
10. If you were in the painting of the Last Supper, where would you be sitting? Definitely John because he was leaning on Jesus! He loved Jesus! ❤
11. Peter carried a sword and cut off a soldier’s ear in an attempt to protect Jesus. If you were there that night, what would your reaction have been to the soldiers coming to arrest Jesus? When I first read the Bible for myself, I was so angry and ready to fight before I came upon it. I remember being so glad when Peter used his sword. So yes I probably would have, but I would have had the same astonishing rebuke that Peter got.
12. We all need a Simon Peter in our life, someone who carries a “sword” and will fight for you. Who is/was your Simon Peter? My son Anthoni has been a Simon Peter sent from God Himself to rescue me from my world, and keep my focus on God not only in my own relationship, but also in the determination to teach Him about God’s love and teachings. God has taught me so much about His love for me through my love for my son, and in allowing me to have in common with Him being a single parent of an only Son.
13. Similar to Jesus, we all have a Judas in our lives who helps us fulfill our destiny or find our purpose. Can you look back and appreciate their role in your life despite the harm they did or the hurt they caused? Whatever God has given me, He has given. Regardless of who, what, where, when, why, and how… it is done. He has forgiven me, so I am to forgive. I pray the Holy Spirit helps me to appreciate all things that God has allowed or designed. I thank God for seeing me through all He has walked me through.
Nominees: (In honor of Jesus and the 12 disciples making 13, I will tag 13 nominees. 🙂
Good morning, my Beautiful Lord! My Loving and Personal Father! ❤ You and I began this day with crying unto You with things laying heavy on my heart, so heavy I did not even recognize them there. And while they could have been offensive and insulting, You were so tender to send me strong and clear messages of Love, Presence, Prayer, and You!
As I was praying to You about some honest emotions I had going on… anger towards those who are hurting other human beings in Human Trafficking, Domestic Violence, Sexual Assaults, and just pure evil… especially on children… I was broken. I was honest with You about the anger that I felt. Anger that brought me to tears. Anger and a broken heart that burdened me so heavily. Feeling so hopeless in not being able to stop it. Knowing it was only in Your power to do so. Yet remembering the free will You give us each.
In those moments, Satan was trying to fill me with unjust accusations toward You, and how little You seemed to care… about what is happening to the children, and the little girl I was at 3 years old. I knew He was wrong. I even told You so. But the words I have heard the world say so often kept trying to accuse You too. While I could not answer those questions of why, nor pretend to have the answers for something ONLY You will ever know, the anger and the pain that kept going back and forth eventually revealed to me that some of that pain was my own brokenness that seemed so long ago.
Feeling that pain kept Satan trying to accuse You, and caused that little girl’s memory of the pain and confusion to feel like we were still in the middle of it all. Sometimes that question the world throws at us about You caring, and where were You when we needed You can be pretty persuasive when that father of lies (Satan) causes such a heaviness from the cloudy visions of long ago. The distance of those years can make them feel like centuries ago, but the pain too easily brings shame, confusion, and sense of not mattering enough to allow any emotion. Emotion just annoys me. What good would it do? Nobody can do anything about it. And before I can get those next words out of my mind (Who cares?), Satan chimes in again with, “Yeah, who cares? We know He doesn’t.”
But I state to Him and You both that I know You do. I can’t explain why things are allowed to happen, but I know You are good, and You care! I even hear You say to me, “I care.” I know You do. But as soon as I even start to think of feeling any peace, my heart is broken for those who are not old enough to look back… with the freedom to be out of their situations… who will die in their environment, thrown away like trash, no one ever knowing, or caring. I cry so hard.
“Lord, I hurt so much for them! I can’t help them. No one has the power to do anything to put a stop to all of it but You. No one cares about them. Some of them have been snatched so young that no one knows who they are and what happened to them. No one ever will! It’s so horrible! So sad! No one cares! I know You do, but why does another human being ever want to do such things! I know the psychological answers the world gives, but it’s not enough! People shouldn’t be able to find sexual pleasure from doing horrible things to another human being… especially children!! It breaks my heart!”
I keep crying… hard. When I cry that hard I can feel it… that emotion from that little girl inside of me that I deprive of that emotion because it feels so pointless, and I don’t recall feeling it then. I was too numb to feel anything in life. But I hear You telling me… “It’s not pointless. Be honest… with Me… and with Yourself. Your pain matters to Me too! Even when You convince yourself it doesn’t matter to You. It does to me.”
You bring my attention to the time. It’s after midnight. The devotional for the new day is ready on YouVersion. I take the time to go and prepare to sit with You, still finding it hard not to cry sometimes. But I am determined to show You I trust You… and believe You care!
What is the first thing I read?
WELCOME Where are you hurting? Today, we’re going to learn that God brings healing and comfort. As we begin, enter into a time of silence before God.
Keep silent. That’s absolutely what I choose to do because I am also afraid to offend You, to anger You. Yes I am to be honest with You, but I am also to reverent with You, remembering that the fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom and knowledge. I keep reading. You keep pouring out Your love!
SCRIPTURE He healeth the broken in heart, and bindeth up their wounds. – Psalm 147:3 KJV
I know You are in this message. I know You are wanting to focus on continuing to be honest. Trusting YOU, not the voices in my head.
REFLECT In what area of your life do you need to experience God’s healing? a) I need healing from emotional trauma. b) I need physical healing. c) I need spiritual renewal.
While the answer is really all 3, You I both know I ALWAYS make sure to pray for the spiritual renewal. In the last several years, I can’t get away from the need for physical healing. But You have made this clear…. it’s the trauma… and not just the physical trauma… but the emotional trauma that I can not even find value in. I need healing from emotional trauma.
DEVOTIONAL Day 3: You are wanted. (Taken from the Haven’t Seen It Yet 5 Day Devotional Series By Danny Gokey)
Wanted?? Do I feel unwanted, Lord?? I know this is You, and You are being very direct, very personal, and very detailed. Wanted?? You tell me to be patient and keep reading.
When I was writing the song “Wanted,” my co-writer was going through a difficult time. He had been praying about a specific situation that happened when he was younger. No matter how hard he prayed, he couldn’t seem to get past this incident from his childhood. He even had a bunch of friends praying for him, but he still felt the impact of the event on his life. He was praying for freedom from the past because it was holding him back from all the good things God had planned for him in the present.
Finally, one day while he was praying, God gave him a powerful picture. God took him back to the place of this traumatic event; but this time, my friend saw Jesus standing on the side of the room. Then He walked over and told my friend, “I was there the day you lost your heart, and now I’m giving it back to you.” Then Jesus handed him his heart, but it wasn’t broken, it was healed and whole.
We wrote the song “Wanted” for anyone, like my friend, who’s been wounded by circumstances beyond their control. You can be assured that the God who holds the universe in His hands is holding your heart He takes great care with it, because He wants you more than you could ever know.
The first verse of “Wanted” says, “I was there the moment it happened, but you couldn’t see Me through the pain. I caught every tear as they were falling, when you lost your heart that day.” The chorus goes on to say, “If you could see it through My eyes, you’d know that you are wanted.”
Friend, you have value in the eyes of God. No matter what you’ve been through; no matter what you’ve been told; you matter. Many times, we don’t understand His love for us because we compare the way others have loved us, and there is no comparison.
Humans are capable of wounding one another greatly. God is incapable of wounding us. He offers us a safe place to rest from the wounds of the world. Psalm 147:3 (KJV) says, “He heals the broken in heart, and binds up their wounds.”
We have to allow God to heal our hurt in order for us to fully embrace the good and perfect plan He has for our lives.
Maybe you haven’t experienced a traumatic event in your life. Maybe, instead, you simply feel incredibly lonely today. Just know, you are not alone, you are enough, you are worthy, you are accepted, and you are wanted more than you can ever comprehend by a heavenly Father that loves you more than any human ever could.
Confession/Prayer: Father, I accept Your love for me. I accept Your healing for the wounds I have carried. I release my need to understand all of the hurt, and I receive the strength that You are bringing into my life through these events. Thank You for wanting me and giving me a place to belong.
PRAYER God, please come to my aid when I am hurting. Heal my wounds and restore my heart. Please come close to me and let me feel Your amazing love – today and every day. Amen.
A PRAYER OF THANKSGIVING God, thank You for being with me even when I struggle to talk with You. When I don’t know how to put my concerns into words, thank You that the Holy Spirit is praying on my behalf. Amen.
A PRAYER FOR FACING TRIALS God, when I face trials of any sort, help me to run to You, not away from You. Help me to see hard seasons as opportunities to grow in my faith. Give me the strength (Your strength) to persevere and the courage to always trust You. Amen.
TRUSTING GOD’S FAITHFULNESS God, I come to You trusting that You are faithful and good. No matter what I go through, please let me never forget that You are with me. Help me hold tightly to Your unfailing love and sure promises. Amen.
DEALING WITH ANGER God, please teach me to deal with my anger immediately, and help me not to be controlled by my anger. Please help me to release what is angering me completely to You. Amen.
LIVING A DISCIPLINED LIFE God, help me to live a disciplined life. I want to live full of faithful and obedience. Please show me the areas I need to be even more disciplined. Amen.
Wanted! That feels like a whiny word for me. It breaks my heart to think of all those children who are unwanted by their traffickers, by their rapists, some even by their parents. But unwanted feels whiny for me because that is what I felt when my brothers and I were tricked into visiting the foster care home, only to be abandoned by our parents. Unwanted is what I felt for the 10 months we were constantly promised to be taken home only to be dropped off again at the end of each visitation. Unwanted is what I felt the day I finally had enough of broken promises, lost it in front of everyone after fighting not to be taken out of the car, cried myself to sleep, and gave up on ever believing in hope again. All hope was false hope to me.
Somehow I do feel that pain when I think of 3 years old… and all those years of violence, filth, and death. I feel it all every time I think of these children. All I can think is that no one cares. No one can do anything about it. NO ONE wants or cares about Your children outside of their own evil gain. And they just keep doing it.
You want to make it clear to me that You care… for me… for them. You want me… You want them. I belong to You! Each child belongs to You! You care about every hurt… every tear… every act that You warn the world of committing against Your children.
“Take heed that ye despise not one of these little ones; for I say unto you, That in heaven their angels do always behold the face of my Father which is in heaven.” – Matthew 18:10 KJV
“Even so it is not the will of your Father which is in heaven, that one of these little ones should perish.” – Matthew 18:14 KJV
“And whosoever shall offend one of these little ones that believe in me, it is better for him that a millstone were hanged about his neck, and he were cast into the sea.” – Mark 9:42 KJV
You want me to know that You know exactly where I am, and what is going on inside. You aren’t angry with me for being honest. You aren’t disappointed with me for having emotions. And You certainly are not offended for having a broken heart for Your children. You have placed that burden on my heart. Just as I cry to think no one cares, so no one cries… You tender my heart to cry with You for Your children. And as You have me start to think on that very thought about where You have me in my journey with You, tears and all for Your little children, including the little girl who had no one crying for her, not even herself, You bring this Facebook meme to my attention while sharing the verse of the day.
FB Meme for Remembering 9/11 (That was the day planes were driven into The Twin Towers in New York, The Pentagon in Washington DC, and into the ground in Philadelphia. Thousands of people lost their lives. This meme was pointing out the many lives who were saved by the little things reported on the news that made them either run late, or not be there that particular day.
The head of a company survived 9/11 because his son started Kindergarten. Another man was alive because it was his turn to bring donuts. One woman was late because her alarm clock didn’t go off on time. Another was late, stuck on the NJ Turnpike because of an accident and his life was spared. One missed his bus. One spilled food on her clothes and had to take the time to change. One’s car wouldn’t start. One couldn’t get a taxi. One went back to answer the house phone. A man who put on a new pair of shoes that morning developed a blister before he got to the Towers, so he stopped at a drugstore to buy a Band-Aid. When you’re stuck in traffic, oversleep, miss your ride…all the little things that annoy you…maybe you’re exactly where you’re meant to be at that very moment. May all who perished on 9.11.01 Rest in Eternal Peace & may the loved ones still grieving find strength.
You want me to trust where You have me, exactly as I am. How can I trust emotions that I won’t even acknowledge? You want me to trust YOU with them. You want me to trust that You are healing me. You want me to trust that You are using me to help someone else… even if it’s just through sharing this post, or sharing a missing child alert, or sharing trafficking information with others, or counseling someone who has been hurt by letting them know You do care… You DO love them!
I then go to look up the song You have given me in the devotional…
Wanted by Danny Gokey. I was there the moment that it happened But you couldn’t see me through the pain I caught every tear as they were falling When you lost your heart that day Yeah, you lost your heart that day And now you only see through broken lenses Trying to keep your head above the shame You believe the lie that I am distant But I hold you every day Yeah, I hold you every day If you could see it through my eyes You’d know that you are wanted You’d know that you are wanted And if you’d let my love inside I’ll show you that you’re wanted I’ll show you that you’re wanted You’re more than all your darkest moments You are defined by what I see You’re my reflection, you’re my treasure, you’re my heartbeat Oh, child, you belong to me, ohh ‘Cause if you would see it through my eyes
How incredibly personal You continue to be. I feel as though I have been leaning on the shoulder of my loving Father who cares about every tear…. more than I do.
And then You add another song right behind it that is so fitting. Even the video itself feels like it represents that LOOONG road You and I have been on. I listen to You minister to me with…
Haven’t Seen It Yet, also by Danny Gokey. Have you been praying and you still have no answers? Have you been pouring out your heart for so many years? Have you been hoping that things would have changed by now? Have you cried all the faith you have through so many tears? Don’t forget the things that He has done before And remember He can do it all once more
And then You finish this time of loving on me with a song singing the very declaration I was determined to trust You with… I know You are Good!! Nothing is more important to me than to keep it all about Christ! If there is anyone who understands pain… it is Your precious Son! My Jesus! ❤
I Know by Big Daddy Weave! I know that You are good I know that You are kind I know that You are so much more Than what I leave behind I know that I am loved I know that I am safe ‘Cause even in the fire, to live is Christ, to die is gain I know that You are good
Thank You for spending so much time with me! Thank You for reminding me I am wanted, that my emotions matter, that my pain matters, and that my tears matter.. to You… and to me! Thank You for crying for Your children. When innocent children lost their loves, it’s horrible enough. But when no one cares, or knows about what has happened to be able to cry, it’s so much sadder… heart breaking. Thank You for crying!! Thank You for caring. Thank for the promise… the assurance that THERE WILL BE AN END TO ANY CHILD EVER BEING HURT AGAIN! And EVIL WILL PAY FOR EVERYTHING THEY HAVE EVER DONE!
Thank You for making us Yours. Thank You for giving us a place to belong. Thank You for creating LOVE to be a beautiful thing with You! Thank You that there is NO PERVERSION with You! Thank You for being You! And thank You for thinking I am worth spending the time with!
“Speaking to yourselves in psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, singing and making melody in your heart to the Lord;giving thanks always for all things unto God and the Father in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ; submitting yourselves one to another in the fear of God.”
– Ephesians 5:19-21
Lord, how grateful I am to You for creating a church family! And for allowing me to be a part of one! And a part of the church family worldwide… also known as the family of God! Family in Christ! A part of YOUR family! ❤ I am so grateful to call You, Father! I am so humbled for Jesus to be my Brother! ❤
I am just as grateful that You allowed my son to grow up always knowing church family! To allow Him to grow up knowing hymns instead of rock music. Even though He heard it at home, He grew to love God’s music. Thank You for allowing Him to learn You, Your Word, and allowing me to glean from His learning. Thank You for His heart to teach His mom.
Thank You for allowing all of the fellowship, the unconditional love and support, the unexpected relationships, and a world of people who are also so in love with You too! Who never grow tired of loving You! Who delight just to think on You, Your Word, Your People, and Your hymns. Souls who do not waver from Your word because they know the value of discipline… an honest and tough love! For our good!
Thank You for all of the Vacation Bible Schools, the many memories, the children’s plays, the children I have been blessed to fellowship with in the nursery, to teach in school and the many forms of church classes, the bus rides, and the abundance of memories with children singing Your songs with such sweet sound and sweet smiles!
Thank You for the many times You have sent someone to minister to me and Anthoni, and the rest of my family. Thank You for those who have been there during loss, births, marriages, divorces, moves, tragedies, celebrations, showers, storms, and so much of life. Thank You for those You have allowed to think of me when I have had health issues. Thank You for the church body!
Thank You for the ladies bible studies, the ladies Sunday School, ladies events, ladies banquets, ladies retreats, and the countless ladies outings and friendships… sisters for life!
Thank You for men of God! Godly men! Men who genuinely love You, serve, You, Worship You, OBEY YOU, testify of You, sing of You, preach of You, and that have shared the wisdom, knowledge, and teaching with my son! Living out being a man of God for my son to learn by example.
Thank You for the missionaries and evangelists! Serving You wherever You send them. Trusting in You to provide! Thank You for the years You gave me to send cards, notes and encouragement to hundreds! I WAS THE ONE BEING BLESSED! Thank You for what they taught me about depression… the biblical truth! Thank You for their preparing me in knowing what my son would suffer and go through. Thank You for what that teaching did for ME in my own struggle with clinical depression… as a child of God.
There are not enough thank Yous when in comes to being a part of church family! But I give You the ones You have allowed to come to mind! I love You, Father God! I love Your church! And I absolutely pray church family!
I look forward to being a part of the biggest church family ever when I get to heaven! What a day that will be! ❤
“And whatsoever ye do, do it heartily, as to the Lord, and not unto men; knowing that of the Lord ye shall receive the reward of the inheritance: for ye serve the Lord Christ.” – Colossians 3:23 KJV
“For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus unto good works, which God hath before ordained that we should walk in them.” – Ephesians 2:10 KJV
Good early morning, Lord. Today’s study notes hit right where we all are… dealing with community… and TRYING to love one another. How could I not think on this whole COVID-19 Pandemic? There are so many suffering, so many who have lost their lives, and many of them died fighting on the front lines to save those stricken with COVID. It makes me think on my dear friend Nitin of Daily Bible Bytes for You who is a doctor in India, and had his long time doctor friend and mentor come down with the virus. Then had another friend who lost his mother one day and then his father a few days later. Both parents in the same week! I read that the same day I saw a local news report of 2 teenage boys losing both of their parents. Just yesterday Nitin was sharing about another doctor from the front lines passing away from the virus. 😦
There are so many in my own community in my county, the city, and the state. If I were to try to name all of the friends and family who have lost someone or come down with it, this would be a very long post. And that would not even represent the ones who have passed, yet the families will not tell the public it was COVID. There is actually a stigma for some people, as if this disease was something to be ashamed of contracting. Hundreds of thousands around the world have died from this disease. Millions have contracted it. How does one attach shame to such a ruthless and invisible killer? We had a cousin in our family who died from it, but we did not know for a month because the family not only wanted to keep people from gathering for a funeral (understandably so), but they were actually ashamed to let anyone know it was COVID.
And then there is this whole mask debate, the unbelievable accusations of this being a hoax, the argument of a constitutional right, and quite frankly just a pent up world looking for an excuse to blame someone for the fact that they can’t do everything they want, when they want it, and the way they want it. A world who is upset that their world changed over night and will more than likely never be the same. A world where they could not even escape with sports, Hollywood, immorality, favorite snacks and comfort foods, no dining out, nor getaways for quite some time. So many special once in a lifetime events were postponed or cancelled altogether. This is what comes to mind when I think of community right now. But praise Your Holy name that is not all I think of.
WordPress Community! I thank You for allowing me to know, have, and be a part of this community You have blessed with encouraging one another. That includes being honest about our own experiences with COVID, along with the raw emotions everyone is feeling. I am especially grateful for those who are still trying to keep it all about You, even in their experiences, and bringing those raw emotions to You openly in their blogs, and being sure to look for those sought out and needed answers in Your scriptures.
Even the ones who wrote this little devotional book (Woman of God, Wonderfully Made) way back in 2012 (that I am noting from now in 2020) wrote on being made to love our community regardless of our disagreements or circumstances from a very beautiful Godly heart.
“You may not always love your neighbors, but God does. You may consider some people in your community to be unworthy of your time and effort, but God doesn’t. God loves each person in your community no matter his or her faults, weaknesses, or sins. The question isn’t ‘Who deserves my acts of service?’ but rather ‘Who needs my acts of service?’ In Christ Jesus, you can serve your community without considering its worthiness. In Christ Jesus, you can love your inconsiderate neighbor. In Christ Jesus, you can display God’s love to the hurting world. When you serve others, you serve God. When you love others, you live our your love for God. It all comes from Him, because of Him, for Him!”
Thank you for Christian Community… fellow believers who are determined to keep it all about You, to keep their faith in You, and to still be absolutely convinced even now that YOU ARE GOOD! We may not understand everything going on. We may be lost in a very dense fog. We may be angry, hurt, and devastated with loss and circumstances that no one could have imagined happening. In ALL things, You are STILL A GOOD AND LOVING FATHER AND GOD! Thank You for Community, God! We need You, and we need each other! ❤
“Put on therefore, as the elect of God, holy and beloved, bowels of mercies, kindness, humbleness of mind, meekness, longsuffering; forbearing one another, and forgiving one another, if any man have a quarrel against any: even as Christ forgave you, so also do ye.” – Colossians 3:12-13 KJV
“But God commendeth his love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us.” – Romans 5:8 KJV
Lord, boy did I mess up on this bible study. Even back when I was doing it and making notes, and did it know it. Or if I did, I completely forgot and messed up again. I think You finally let me see how. The titles in the book for each day were messed up. I mean I am sure the person prayed for guidance and You led her to write it just the way it was. I did see the playfulness in the wording and how it related, but I do believe it is what messed me up so much that I accidentally started doing the same thing in getting it on the blog.
This one came from a day called Remade To Love In My Family, but there was never a MADE to Love In My Family. So when the titles that did a RE-whatever the title was before HAD a title before, I guess I assumed this one did too. As I look the next several days had a RE to a title that was NOT before. So if You don’t mind I’ll just keep going with personally made titles as You had me doing to try to prevent the confusion.
I’m sorry, Lord, for not doing a better job of paying attention. I try. I really do, and I know You know that. When I did this study, I was telling a friend of mine who knew I was doing it that I had no notes to share because I had not been really noting enough to share any with them or on the blog. As I would later look in my little notebook, You pointed out that I had what You were giving me and that was enough. When I started to pick back up where I left off I did not notice 6 days worth of noting missing. Again when typing them up, I did not notice either. It was being done with a 5 week study in 2 weeks that was throwing the huge red flag. Maybe that is why it felt so short when doing them?? Anyway, I deleted the last 2 I had up, along with the 4 You allowed me to get scheduled, and just took the big TIME OUT You were blowing the whistle on.
It took me the whole week to get a chance to look over just what was going on. Now I see, I DID do the study, but got very confused over the titles, stopped noting, then thought I wasn’t really getting anything to share, and was just enjoying it between You and me. However, later on I realized I had more notes than I thought, it was the book that was confusing. It still is, but with Your help I can still try to get it back on track. That means this one and the 5 to follow will actually be blogged as I am reading them. Being as so many messages You have sent me this week have been clearly dealing with being lost, it seems quite appropriate. Even Sue Mulhare of New Hope Church in Toowoomba, Australia had a message this week…
that fit right in, and actually gave me a little bit of an answer to that nagging question You and I know I deal with. Wouldn’t You know it (and of course You would 😉 ) it’s the same answer You’ve always given me. I loved the song Sue mentioned she stumbled across.
Defender was another perfectly related piece to the puzzle.
Those favorite lyrics of Sue’s were powerful.
When I thought I lost me You knew where I left me You reintroduced me to Your love You picked up all my pieces Put me back together You are the defender of my heart
And how did all of this tie into today’s study and title of being Made to Love My Family? Because that is exactly what I did with my week. You led and I followed. The majority of the week was about Bobby (my 86 yr old stepdad) and his home health care team. All of our family worked together to get through this week when we also had a family crisis happen that we knew nothing about with my brother in law Tim cracking 4 ribs and having an infection. We ran the needed medical errands for Tim because Nathan (my brother who is Tim’s nurse) could not leave him because Tim was a fall risk. It’s what led to the ribs. Tim is a hospice patient dealing with a lot. My sister Sandra was doing these errands with me while wearing her bedroom slippers inside oversized shoes from the Goodwill in a search for shoes that she could get into. Her old shoes came apart. So many stores! For several days! Thank You for allowing the temporary ones You led her to. I pray the ones coming will be the shoes we have both been saying You have waiting for her! My son Anthoni stayed with Bobby one day so the home health care team could talk to him. He does a great job helping us look out for Bobby.
Bobby’s home health care team have been diligently looking out for him. They were sent by his doctor who has not seen him in several months and understands we’re trying to keep him home away from others, especially with both of his lungs already damaged, living with COPD, using a CPAP machine, and a nebulizer machine several times a day, and still struggles with his breathing. Bobby has to do needed bloodwork for the medicine he takes since he had his stroke in 2015, and to see how he is doing over all. Just day before yesterday, we were all in a circle (with masks and gloves) praying with his nurse because she had spent the whole day traveling around to different patients, was now seeing Bobby, all while her own husband and father both had been sick enough during the week that they were believed to have COVID. Praise the Lord they tested negative! But Stephanie had still came to work to look out for others!
So that is how family relates to this week. That time out was needed to focus. You still had me to post… by sending me awards! Anabel of Lebana’s Journey nominated me for The Ideal Inspiration Award, and Stu of Something to Stu Over nominated me for The Outstanding Blogger Award. My WordPress Family sent me so many encouraging messages. That’s how You work! You tell us to be still and know You are God… and You did just that. I took that break and You showered me with encouragement. And along the way allowed me to share that encouragement with the nominees! What do You do when voices of doubt whisper in my ear? You send Sue that message to encourage her! Sue shares it and encourages me! The song is a tender hug that assures You know my heart’s cry and are fighting for me where I don’t even know I have a war going on… a spiritual warfare. Your leading becomes my victory! Because YOU are my victory every single day!
Thank You for leading me through my wilderness. Thank You for leading our family! Thank You for protecting Stephanie’s family! Thank You for being the chain of encouragement for my WordPress family! Thank You for leading Sue all the way over in Australia, and then sharing a glimpse of that precious time You had with her. Thank You for the powerful message in that tender song. Thank You for helping me get this Bible study thing worked out. And thank You most of all for still being the God of Psalm 46:10.
“Be still, and know that I am God: I will be exalted among the heathen, I will be exalted in the earth.”
I love You, Father God!
Thank You for making me a part of Your family! ❤
“Let all the earth fear the Lord: let all the inhabitants of the world stand in awe of him.” – Psalm 33:8 KJV
How outstanding YOU ARE, dear Lord! How continuously thoughtful You are of me! You pursue me, You encourage me, You build me up, and You love me with a never ending love. You leave me standing in awe of You, and I am enamored to be in Your presence! ❤
Thank You for pouring a little more of Your favor on YOUR blog! It has always been Yours! Thank You or sharing a little more love so that I may keep sharing it with others! Bless the one whom You used to pour out that favor! Stu of Something to Stu Over nominated me for The Outstanding Blogger Award! Bless him, his family, and his ministry, Lord! Shower him with a little more favor that glorifies the skies with Your love! Shower his family! And shower his ministry! Hug him tight, Lord! Let know You’re there with him! ❤
Thank you, Stu! May God richly bless you for your thoughtfulness. Thank you for allowing Him to pour a little reminder of His favor, and a little reminder of His great love all over this blog, and the WordPress Community! Please know I am praying for your ministry, and praise God that you are willing to keep reaching out and ministering to those who are trapped in the addictions of pornography! So many souls and families are being torn apart. Thank you for following God’s calling in your life. Thank you again for the kind nomination! 🙂 Me and God love you, Brother! ❤
Here are the rules/guidelines:
1. Provide the link to the creator’s original award post.
(very important: see why in step 5)
2. Answer the questions provided.
3. Create 7 unique questions.
4. Nominate 10 bloggers. Ensure that they are aware of their nomination.
Neither the award’s creator, nor the blogger that nominated you, can be nominated.
5. At the end of 2020, every blog that ping-backs the creator’s original post will be entered to win the 2020 Outstanding Blogger Award!
This award was created by Colton Beckwith.
Stu’s Questions For Me:
1. What is your favorite clothing to wear that unfortunately does not look good on you? (Color wise, etc) God, there are a lot of things that do not look good on me, but I will say jeans because they only look strange now being as big as I am, and are way too uncomfortable which defeats the purpose of jeans. 🙂
2. Why do you blog? Is it so you can minister in the lives of others, you just enjoy writing, a calling from God, or another reason? Lord, first and foremost I write to talk to You. When I am not writing, I feel like I am suffocating. I cannot breathe! When I am writing, I am talking heart to heart with You, and sometimes through Your whispers and clear commands I write to encourage or share with others! Everyone needs to know how much You love them! ❤
3. Mask or no mask? Don’t worry about what others think or say, please give your honest opinion and why… Lord, I wear a mask for several reasons which all fall up under obeying you by… being a law abiding citizen, taking care of the vessel You have given me, using the wisdom YOU have given me, following the doctor’s advice (while also loving him and his family as I do myself because they are my neighbor), to be thoughtful of others as we love one another, for the accountability in my responsibility to look after my 86 yr old stepdad and the rest of my family to the best of my ability, and to do as You command in keeping a vow once it is said as we vowed to stay home and stay safe on behalf of the medical community that is sacrificing their time, lives, and families to fight for ours.
4. What is your favorite book of all time? That one’s easy, Lord. Your Holy Bible! Preferably the King James Version. ❤
5. What childhood memory bring an immediate smile to your face? Fighting with my little brother. Charlie was just 10 months younger than me, and we used to fight all the time. We would start off play fighting and one would hit too hard, so the other would get so mad and hit harder. The other would laugh until hit too hard. We would both laugh about it later. 🙂 Lord, I know You don’t like fighting, and praise Your name we grew out of it. 🙂 I miss him, Father. I know He is with You and has been the last 13 years, but I miss him. Hug him for me! ❤
6. Do you see God’s Handiwork everywhere? In people, nature and objects… Absolutely! I think hymns like This Is My Father’s World,
I Sing The Mighty Power of God,
Come Thou Fount,
How Great Thou Art,
and so many more sing it so incredibly well! ❤
7. Which band, not singer, has influenced you the most? Oh wow. This is a doozy, Lord. I have personally known and met so many bands… local bands, popular bands, famous bands, amateur bands… working with them, entertaining them, even dating a few. While music had too much negative influence over my life when I was younger, I actually had no one particular band influence me. The same is with bands now. I may love their music, but the bands themselves have no fluence on my life whatsoever. Even if it someone’s music I really like, You know Yourself I just don’t do concerts or anything personal, other than the friendships I have with different people who just happen to be in bands.
Has your blog changed in any way since COVID-19 arrived?
Do you have a bible verse for today?
Have you lost anyone to COVID?
Have you been sick with COVID?
Do you have a favorite hymn?
What do you find outstanding about God?
(I stand in awe of His ability to pursue every single one of us… at the same time! 🙂 )
Congratulations to all of the nominees. Please do not feel obligated to participate. If you do, no rush. Do as God leads you! And send me a link please! I would loved to read your post! God loves you! 🙂
“But there is a spirit in man: and the inspiration of the Almighty giveth them understanding.” – Job 32:8 KJV
Dearest, Lord. How inspiring You are to me! So generous and thoughtful. Always pouring out Your love! Just as You have done in whispering my name to our dearest Anabel of Lebana’s Journal to nominate me for the Ideal Inspiration Blogger Award. How my heart smiles to know it is our sweet Anabel! You have allowed Anabel to be one of my inspirations on WordPress since I began blogging. She has always been so encouraging, so kind, and has such a sweet spirit. I’ve always loved how her bio dares her readers to get to know her. And what touching poetry! And that beautiful picture of her! Thank You, God, for allowing such a sweet fellowship with my precious friend Anabel!
Thank you, dearest Anabel! What a dear friend you are to me, and have been from the beginning of my WordPress journey! Thank you for your kind nomination! And thank you for all of your encouraging messages, and for always sharing your heart for God. Your poetry and your faith has also been a blessing to me. May God bless you as richly! Me and God love you, my Filipina Sister! ❤Rules
Thank the person who nominated you and provide a link back to his/her blog.
Answer their questions.
Nominate up to 9 other bloggers and ask them 5 new questions.
Notify the nominees through their blog by visiting and commenting on their blog.
List the rules and display the “Ideal Inspiration Blogger Award” logo.
Provide the link of the award creator of Ideal Inspirational Blogger Award as Rising Star from Ideal inspiration. idealinspiration.blog
Anabel’s Questions For Me:
What is your advice to new bloggers out there? Write what you want, It’s your blog! Write how often (or not) you want, and how you want! Write what God gives you!
What is the greatest lesson you’ve learned in life so far? Life is worthless without God!
And God loves me! ❤
What are the three things you are being grateful of at this moment? God being so Personal, Present, and Protective! ❤ ❤ ❤
If you would be given a chance to travel to three countries, where would you go? Why? Australia, United Kingdom, and Philippines to see my WordPress Family! ❤
When you are not blogging, how do you spend your time? Doing different devotions, puzzles, movies, TV, sermons, music
And each one who has nominated me for an award that you have not heard back from me on. I have lost so many emails, award nominations, comments, and more lately to where even if I KNOW I had one, I cannot find them. It’s very possible I have accidentally deleted them or just need to find where I put them. For the last year and this one, I have been learning to use my new smartphone and tablet. Unfortunately I have been learning the hard way not to trust them. I apologize and want to make clear how much you are valued! Praise God for your encouragement, your merciful heart, and your thoughtfulness. Me and God love you!
Congratulations to the Nominees. Please do not feel obligated to participate. If you do, no rush. Do in your time, as God gives. And please send me a link. I would love to read your post! Just sharing a little of God’s love your way. Thank you for inspiring me! 🙂 Me and God love you!
PS… Sorry about forgetting the questions. Please feel free to use the same questions Anabel gave me.
“Be ye therefore followers of God, as dear children; and walk in love, as Christ also hath loved us, and hath given himself for us an offering and a sacrifice to God for a sweetsmelling savour.” – Ephesians 5:1-2 KJV
“We love him, because he first loved us.” – 1 John 4:19 KJV
You continue to pour out Your love as…
Lord, whether I fell asleep or got distracted I seemed to have lost what I was going to say this day when trying to spend time alone with You and Your word. There’s just no getting those thoughts back. But I know Your love is indeed unfailing and unconditional! ❤
“Behold, what manner of love the Father hath bestowed upon us, that we should be called the sons of God: therefore the world knoweth us not, because it knew him not.” – 1 John 3:1 KJV
“For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life. “ – John 3:16 KJV
“According as he hath chosen us in him before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and without blame before him in love: having predestinated us unto the adoption of children by Jesus Christ to himself, according to the good pleasure of his will, to the praise of the glory of his grace, wherein he hath made us accepted in the beloved.” – Ephesians 1:4-6 KJV
Thank You, Father, for the tender reminder of Your love for us.
Thank You for being Faithful.
Thank You for being Genuine.
Thank You for being Present.
Thank You for being You.
“Let us come before his presence with thanksgiving, and make a joyful noise unto him with psalms.” – Psalm 95:2 KJV
PRAISE YOUR HOLY AND GENEROUS NAME, LORD!!
My Birthday Fundraiser goal for Sufficient Grace Outreach was met….
As You recall, Lord, the fundraiser actually ended $25 shy of the goal, being You allowed $175 of the $200 goal to be raised. I posted it on Facebook and WordPress to praise You and to make a testimony of the $160 of the $200 that You had provided at the time of the blog post. I made the statement that I would pay what remained of the goal as soon as this week got here. Even after that post, You were so generous to provide $15 more, bringing the ending balance raised to $175 of the $200.This weekend as I was going to donate and post an update, I found a letter in my mailbox from a dear friend with a note and a money order for $200!! That was an additional $200 to the $175 already donated! :O I was in a delightful shock! Speechless! Yet filled with joy and amazement too! Gratitude… for my friend, for such a generous heart, for the the souls You know You have the funds intended to go towards, for Amanda and all those who help her in the ministry, and for the correspondence from my dear friend! ❤
“I will abundantly bless her provision: I will satisfy her poor with bread.” – Psalm 132:15 KJV
I was so excited to get straight to the bank, go straight home and donate the money, make a post on Facebook for all to know how You so generously provided the remainder and more! I was unable to post to the original fundraiser because FB closed it, but I was able to just start another one with the goal of $200 again so that I could share the good news!
I went to make a post for the blog and fell asleep with the laptop in my lap.
Lord, how good and generous a Father You are. You know the needs that are urgently out there! And You love ALL of Your children. I pray for those who are stuck in trafficking and horrible situations that many are stranded in. Thank You for the heart You put in Amanda and all of those who volunteer through her ministry! Thank You for their passion and commitment to share Your love, and to tell others of just how much You love them… right there where they are! Thank You again for my dear friend!
To my dear friend, THANK YOU for your thoughtfulness, and giving to bring God into someone else’s life, and to rescue and minster to others who are trapped in lives that feel so hopeless. Thank you for allowing God to use you to bring some of that needed hope! Me and God love you! ❤
Thank you to everyone who took part in helping with My Birthday Fundraiser 2020 for Sufficient Grace Outreach! I know these are some tough and trying times, days filled with great uncertainty and changes that so are hard to imagine but clearly God at work in our lives. May the Lord richly bless you! May He provide that very need you have been so earnestly praying, waiting, and trusting for. Me and God love you each! ❤