Glory In The Minefield

Lord, It’s so strange… walking around in this minefield… exploring so many old tripwires. These places have long been deserted. Intentionally so. I have never been more grateful to be away from them. I use to be so afraid of looking back. Of even thinking about them. I was so afraid it would take me back and re-imprison me. I can remember thinking it was never going to stop. That things were never going to change.

These poems are reminders of times, people, places, events that were so evil. I have long been horrified to reread them. Even though I wrote them… lived them… witnessed them. The only reason I even dare to go near them is to follow You in putting them into digital storage and on the poetry blog (gaillovegodspoetry). So many times I wanted to tear many of them up.

Even now they can be hard to type and click that publish button.

They’re so personal. So evil. So dark.

They scare me even now.

Yet as I have been following You, I am completely taken by the responses. Especially from those who say they are either going through those things now, or are trying to deal with the fact of their own similar events, but to see things from a lens of bringing them to You, talking them out with You, and allowing Your Spirit to lead me in writing anything new with them, is moving them… touching them…. helping them.

They are seeing YOU instead of the evil.
How You amaze me! ❤

We have only begun to approach this dark and evil time. We are literally on the outskirts of what seems like land mines, grenades, tripwires, explosives, and so many unpredictable triggers. As we walk through 1989 alone, I have seen so many that make me cringe just to see their titles.

But this is…. a journey… a life… a testimony… that You allowed…

and continue to magnify Your Holy name through what You have done in my heart alone. And when You allow ME to see the changes, and allow the poems to help me see the freedom from them, instead of the fear and shame that the enemy wants me to live with, You allow the love that You are in my life to be a love that I never want to let go of. I am so grateful that You are a love that never wants to let go of me! If any of the words You have given me, even through such an evil adventure, can bring one other soul out of their darkness, or shine Your light of love where the enemy chains their soul… it is very worth it all.

Freedom from a mental torture takes every bit of strength that we just don’t have alone.

That is why I am so in love with YOUR Word! ❤

“My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.” – 2 Corinthians 12:9 AKJV

May You receive all of the glory that YOU planned before I was even born!

“Before I formed thee in the belly I knew thee; and before thou camest forth out of the womb I sanctified thee…” – Jeremiah 1:3 AKJV

 

Drowning of a Writer

I use to subtitle this Ode to Suicide… actually the original title itself was Ode to Suicide, but I made it a subtitle so no one would worry or try to take it from me. Now, I don’t think it is wise to have such a title because suicide itself is not beautiful.

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Bubbles… accelerating to the surface. Pleading for my forgiveness, for my survival, my rescue. “HELP!” I’m crying from within the depth of the ocean. I’m losing my life. My will to fight is being taken from me. The strength of the almighty sea is too much for me. My body grows weak. I’m feeling numb. Every inch of my muscles are aching! Yet… all I can think about is fighting for my life. If only I had a little hero, or maybe a little support. If only I weren’t in so deep, but I’m in way over my head. As I struggle with every breath I have left in my body, I sink further and further, into my burial grounds. My new dwelling place, where my bones shall rot into tiny pieces of exhausted life. Soon, I will have nothing left. No warmth of loving. No tears of enjoyment… no…

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Praise You for 100 Followers and Over 3,000 views on gaillovesgodspoetry!

❤ The Lord is worthy of ALL His praise! ❤

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Ok, God. It’s time to give YOU some more glory! It’s not about the numbers! You know anything You give me is all about You! What You bless this poetry blog with is all Yours!
According to WordPress, Damon Ashworth Psychology became the 100th Follower.
Bless him and his blog, Lord.
He had a pretty interesting sleep study (What Happens If You Go To Bed Too Early?) as his last post. Help him and his clients to have the restful sleep that only You can provide.
100 Follows!
Congratulations on getting 100 total follows on gaillovesgodspoetry!
Your current tally is 102.
WordPress also says there have been over 3,000 views now. You always amaze me that what You whisper in my ear, or that I talk with You about would be of any interest to anyone.  It’s You! They see You in anything they see good, or…

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Thanking God for Failed Relationships

Lord, thank You, for failed relationships!
I know You know what I mean and why I say that.
For as long as things have gone wrong,
You knew exactly where I was at.
From molestation as early as I can remember
(which happens to be three),
to things a child just shouldn’t know,
and neither should a teen.
From dating before I even “became a woman”
to “becoming a woman” with a man,
nothing has been hidden from You,
and by Your grace You’ve held my hand.
—–
So it makes sense that it would take so many failed relationships
to bring me peace in a relationship just with You,
a relationship that cares about my body and spirit,
willing to make my life brand new.
If any of those relationships had succeeded,
I would have never known the peace
in having 1 year of life without anything to do with touch.
The filth would have never ceased.
Being in a wrong relationship only allowed me
to focus on pleasing someone else instead of You,
or maybe enjoy someone saying what made me feel good,
instead of knowing what the Holy Spirit could do.
—–
While I do pray for each one of those souls,
I thank You earnestly for the failure each had.
Thank You for loving me enough to save me for Yourself,
for only wanting good for me, not any bad.
Thank You for allowing failure to be my rescue
of what would only get worse if allowed to last.
Thank You for the years that have brought peace
from the guilt and shame of that past.
Thank You for showing me purity from YOUR eyes,
as mine just could not see.
Thank You for sparing me of a miserable life,
and finding it special to spend a Holy one with me.

1-31-12 Written by Gail Brookshire
(by the grace of God)

Gifts 2017 #12 (200 Followers, 5,000 Views)

Christmas Countdown: God’s Favor is a gift. I intentionally added the 200 Followers and 5,000 Views so those of you who have been so kind to stop by gaillovesgodblog will know how thankful I am for you, and to praise God for His favor in allowing such growth to happen. I know it’s customary to celebrate every 100 followers, every 1,000 views and other moments, and I know I’ve not done this. I’m not doing gaillovesgodblog for numbers. I did not want to gloat about something that belongs to the Lord. But the Lord has used you to affirm He wants His whispers heard around the world. The hundreds of comments on blogs that have touched you, taught you, inspired you, but more importantly clearly stated that God used it… for whatever reason you commented… THAT is what it’s all about! So let God have His way!
Please hear me say THANK YOU as this week the blog hit 200 people who have signed up to follow every single post, and 5,000 views of the conversations between me and God (some just about Him). You have allowed God to affirm His favor on the very thing I simply followed Him by obeying His whispers. God deserves ALL His glory! HE has allowed this blog to prosper with followers, views, likes, awards, comments, and new friends all over the world! HE has allowed the poetry blog to be just a few views shy of 1,000 already. I am amazed how the poetry has also received so many comments of the God using them… even reblogging. God NEVER ceases to amaze me.
Lastly, I must praise Him for prompting Lene (aka LeneinJapan) to invite me to guest write on her Song of Virginity blog, to give my testimony. Her blog celebrates purity, whether it be as a virgin or a Christian who has been redeemed from an impure past. I was afraid to mess up my testimony, insult God, or tarnish her site. By praying, listening, and obeying God, my testimony Love of My Life – I am His Song TRIPLED the blog numbers in just a couple of days… and kept it growing. Only God’s favor could do that! Praise His Holy and Favorable name!! ❤

Thankful 2017.1 gaillovesgodspoetry

Lord, thank you for helping me get the poetry copy and pasted onto the new site gaillovesgodspoetry. That blog is just as much yours as this one, and anything in my life. I was hoping to get it done in time to do some Thankful blogs for Thanksgiving… and maybe longer. However you lead. I keep following. Thank you for all of the love and support from so many with their views, likes, comments, follows, and e-mails. Even though it is all about you, you are so loving to encourage me. Please don’t let me fail to thank you and praise you with my reluctance to celebrate the numbers on each of these things. You deserve ALL of your praise!
And there it is, Lord, Thankful post #1 for 2017. I am thankful for you helping me getting the courage to get gaillovesgodspoetry started, and for helping me finish the copy and paste to get caught up in time to do the Thankful posts started for this week.
I love you, Father! ❤
I love you, Jesus Christ! ❤
I love you, Holy Spirit! ❤
I love the Trinity! ❤

Getting gaillovesgodspoetry Started

Hi, Guys! gaillovesgod here letting you know I’ve been working on getting my poetry on a separate blog  gaillovesgodspoetry, but as much as I have been struggling to have time and energy to learn how to do things… I am still learning.

I had difficulty with export downloading properly to load to gaillovesgodspoetry, so I gave up, choosing to copy and paste each poem. It means losing the loving and supportive comments, and the followers posting them, but I’m not tech savvy enough to figure it out, and it’s time consuming. My health doesn’t allow me that energy any more.

I do care about each of you who have been so supportive, so I’m leaving on gaillovesgod what poetry has been added thus far, but after also adding them on gaillovesgodspoetry I will post all new poetry there so that I can separate by years, then months, as I always have. There are literally thousands. The Lord led me years ago to do this to allow the testimony of what He has done in my life to show that growth in my writing… the spiritual gift He gave me. You are more than welcome to join me there as well.

The gaillovesgod blog will remain for… devotional journaling, challenges, reblogging as a prayer warrior at times, and simply spending time talking with the Lord, as well as sharing responses He gives at times. I ask your patience with me as I post several posts at a time on the poetry page to catch up. I’ve been checking and you shouldn’t get the notifications unless you have already clicked to follow gaillovesgodspoetry, and they will slow down when caught up.

Any feedback is helpful. Oh… and I haven’t decided 100% on a theme. I still have so much to learn, but with so much therapy (and far more to come) and the latest procedure I had this week, I am constantly falling asleep either as soon as I touch the keyboard, or worse… in the middle of talking with someone. So sorry.

I hope to get back to blogging soon. I even have an award to share… thanks to Lovely A!
Remember…. God loves you!!