My New Journal With You, Note 5

**Verses are inserted exactly where God had them placed in my new journal at the bottom of each page. I love how personal He is!  **

Good early morning, Lord. How are You? I pray You are blessed, happy, and well pleased. Thank You for loving me. Thank You for being my family, and for allowing me to be a part of Yours!

I am grateful for all You do, LORD. Even when it’s so hard as it is right now. I’m trying to bear what I must in my cross, in my consequences, in Your will. I do have that question laying on my mind. Is this the way things are going to always be now? Just getting worse as they continue? Have I brought this on myself? Is this one of those Job things where You test me? I hope not because I know I fail You in being whiny, grouchy, depressed, and just ready to give up.

I think of the song (hymn) “Till The Storm Passes Over.” The line that says, “Many times Satan whispered, there is no need to try, for there’s no end in sorrow, there’s no hope by and by. But I know Thou art with me, and tomorrow I’ll rise where the storm never darkens the skies.”

“Blessed is the man that endureth temptation: for when he is tried, he shall receive the crown of life, which the Lord hath promised to them that love him.” – James 1:12 KJV

You lovingly remind me that Job too was depressed (his soul was cast down), and questioned with words that devalued his life. You remind me of Jeremiah who said he would have been better off if his mother’s womb were his grave.

You know man’s spirit. How easy it is to break. How heavy it can weigh. And how discouraged our despair can choke us with. You know how we truly are, and how our mind can play such cruel games with us.

You remind me that Your strength is made perfect in my weakness. That You walk with me in the valley of the shadow of death. That You uphold me with Your right hand. That You will not leave me comfortless. And that Jesus and the Holy Ghost are praying for me. They are my intercessors.

I don’t know if this pain, this discomfort, and the unpleasantness of poor health will continue, but I know You know my battle. I know You know I have fought long and hard. And I know You fight my battle much fiercer than I. Yet I also know I sit here feeling so defeated with a body that I can’t seem to take care of, or if I have (and do),

“It is of the Lord’s mercies that we are not consumed, because his compassions fail not. They are new every morning: great is thy faithfulness.” – Lamentations 3:22-23 KJV

it doesn’t feel like I even have the ability to honor You as I should with the vessel You give, in the shell that You say the Holy Spirit resides in. How incredibly reckless and negligent I feel. Surely You must be so disappointed.

And if it’s not me, but Your will for Your purpose, insulting I must be to You, and disappointing, even offending You with constant negative words. And as the skin burns, and the sting bites so hard, I still find myself fighting to keep my spirit in reverence, as You deserve. My hope tries to fail me. And my testimony seems so pointless.

And them You remind me as You have many times that You love me, all of me… the good, the bad, and the ugly. You don’t care for the behavior, but always love me. So while I don’t know the answer to that question, I know the God who promised to love me even when my

“For which cause we faint not; but though our outward man perish, yet the inward man is renewed day by day.” – 2 Corinthians 4:16 KJV

words and spirit fail me… and You.

You know how the flesh is. And You still love us anyway. On top of that You promise a brand new body, and a brand new world where sin can never enter, and the flesh seeks only to praise Your Holy Name. How I look forward to those promises being fulfilled. I KNOW You will.

I end with Your loving reminder of the prayer in Your word. “Lord, I believe. Help my unbelief!” –

❤ I love You, Father God!
❤ I love You, Lord Jesus!
❤ I love You, Holy Spirit!

“And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.” – Romans 12:2 KJV

PS… Lord, I LOVE how Your verses always address exactly what I am talking to You about, but from Your wisdom of what I need. You are so personal! ❤

12 thoughts on “My New Journal With You, Note 5

    1. PTL! Isn’t He, Wonderful?
      Wonderful, Isn’t He?
      Counselor, Almighty God,
      Isn’t He, isn’t He, isn’t He?
      Thanks for making me think on this hymn!
      I love it! ❤
      And you are right… no matter what.
      He has given me that motto for comfort too in that no matter what I know He loves me, and I know He knows that I love HIm… no matter what! ❤
      Me and God love you, Regina!

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  1. HEY FRIEND! All I can think of as I read all you said here is this Gail…….BUT GOD!!!! GOD sees YOU and HE hears YOU. Half the time I don’t understand all HE is doing and WHY. Times now are so hard for everyone. My post today ties into a little of what you wrote here and it refers to LOSS as GAIN. Philippians 3: 8!!!
    I pray for you today and may you KNOW HIS loving arms around you in a big way!

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    1. PTL! But God indeed!
      Has it been a whole 11 days since I answered! I am so sorry, Maxine! The changes in my new cell, the design on FB, and the changes in WP have made it so hard to keep up when it was already a challenge!
      Please know that I am grateful for your friendship! Thank you for your encouragement, and for your prayers!! I am thank God for your fellowship! Me and God treasure you!

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  2. My sweet sweet sister, Gail. First and foremost, I am sending you the BIGGEST, most loving hugs. Heap onto those a great big dose of Christ’s love and call that holy medicine. 😊

    Next, if you have time and choose to – would you read my latest post? — https://wholenesshaven.com/gods-promise-to-you-is-yes-and-amen/ — Forgive me, friend, I don’t like leaving links to my blog because I don’t want to be ‘spammy.’ This time is different. Holy Spirit said this message is for YOU! 🤗 My most sincere prayer is that every word, and the overwhelming, all-consuming love, of Father God would saturate every part of your being until all discouragement, loss of hope, and feelings of unworthiness cease.

    You are not a disappointment to Abba, sister. Not even close. He absolutely adores you. The enemy who is coming against you only does so because he knows EXACTLY who you are in Christ. You are a bold, powerful, mighty woman of God who was called and chosen for such a time as THIS. The devil only seeks to bring you down to silence the voice and roar of God in YOU. He knows the damage you do to his evil kingdom every time you open your mouth! BUT GOD! Holy Spirit has been laying you on my heart. KNOW that you are worthy, loved, and deeply adored. GOD LOVES YOU, Gail! There’s no shame in His heart over you.

    You are a blood-bought daughter of the King. Sealed and redeemed through the BLOOD of JESUS. No weapon formed against you shall propsper. Every lying tongue that is seeking to torment your mind must release you NOW in the name of JESUS! 🙏🏼

    I love you and I believe in you. Don’t forget WHOSE you are, my precious sister. I trust that today Father God is wrapping His arms of love around you, hiding you under the shadow of His wing. He will show you just how loved you are, this day and always. ALL of God’s promises for you are YES and AMEN! I know it’s hard, but the better is coming…

    Read that post if you can. I pray it encourages you in the very way you need right now. 💕

    All My Love,

    Holly

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    1. Oh dear, Lord, thank You for the heart of my dear friend Holly! ❤
      Praise God for you, Holly! My cup runneth over. I am humbled by your thoughtfulness. Thank you for sharing that post! I was blessed to read it, and to hear the music! God is speaking to us at the same time about the same things! That God would lay me on your heart! I could see it! I love how He works like that!!
      Thank you for every word! Thank you for fighting with me in my corner! Thank you for the reminder of who He is… and and who that makes me in Him! ❤
      I pray the Lord is blessing you and keeping you well! I pray for all those fiery darts that Satan throws at you to be quenched by the Holy Spirit! Me and God love you! We value you! What a treasure!! ❤

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