Leaving Things as They Are

Well, it’s been days, and as uncomfortable as the idea is I will leave the original post up, and whatever I have blogged since. While I have a tendency to regret saying some things, especially out loud, it is what it is. A testimony is not true unless it shows the progression of healing, and what the change and/or progress is. And praise God there is always the power of delete! 🙂
So much is on my mind, but it is hard to get it out. SO with that said, I will try to leave a verse or something. If the Lord gives me a thought to share with you, I will do that as well. I prefer keeping it about him anyway!
“Be not afraid of sudden fear, neither of the desolation of the wicked, when it cometh.
For the LORD shall be thy confidence, and shall keep thy foot from being taken.”
– Proverbs 3:25-26 KJV
SO often I need this verse and praise God for giving it to me. Anxiety is not a fun experience, whether it be what is called natural or what is called clinical. I call it cruelty. Oh, I realize people love the anxiety of roller coasters and haunted houses, but they’re not my thing. Anxiety has plagued me since I was in the hospital years ago for a cesarean. The trauma my body experienced caused a natural anxiety, but the complete ignorance of sudden fear caused an anxiety that has carried with me through life. A nurse laughing at me when I was distressed instead of helping me instilled a lack of trust when at the mercy of others having control of my life, or having no mercy when I simply cannot control it.
Initially, I struggled very hard with it to the point of hyperventilating. As God sent me compassionate counselling with wisdom that educated me, I grew. Yet even more so, my relationship with God grew. As I grew to know him more and trust him more, he gave me a peace that passes all understanding. Now I still struggle with anxiety. I even take an antidepressant now, but what my medicine cannot do physically, my God does in ALL aspects. And the only side effect… more peace… more wisdom… more understanding… more love! And he loves you too!

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It's not about me. It's all about my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ!

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