Waiting For My Man of God’s Unfailing Love and Unbiased Mercy!

Years ago I was asked to read this for a single’s program. I was so nervous! I prayed and prayed… that I was doing His will… and that He really wanted me to read THIS material. I was so afraid it was going to offend. God completely humbled me!

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**A very long and personal one**

Dreams and fantasies of the perfect future mate, I like so many have them quite often.
I dream of loving someone who loves my God.
I dream of someone who says “our” God.
I dream of sharing His love and word with him.
I wish for someone who will love me as God loves me… just as I am.
I need someone who will not judge me, for I have enough lions to watch for in snatching my joy and confidence.

I need someone who will not hold my past against me.
If Jesus knows what I have done and forgiven me, who is man to say that I am unclean?
Wouldn’t it be great to marry someone who saw your past as what God intended it be… growing?
Wouldn’t it be great to know that your mate could see the purpose in witnessing…

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Mystery Blogger Award 5.18.18

“And without controversy great is the mystery of godliness:
God was manifest in the flesh, justified in the Spirit,
seen of angels, preached unto the Gentiles,
believed on in the world, received up into glory.”
– 1 Timothy 3:16 KJV

Oh how wonderful to think on such a verse… such truth… such good things of my Jesus! You are without controversy in my mind! You are manifested in my heart! You are justified through the blood You poured out for me! You were seen of angels! ❤ You were preached to me when I was a child! How blessed I was to meet You! You were absolutely believed on in my heart and soul! And our heavenly Father has received You into glory! Where You have went away to prepare a place for me! And will be back for me! ❤
I’m so excited, Jesus! I am so homesick for you! ❤

Thank You, Jesus, for Joni of Grief to Life
for nominating me for this Mystery Blogger Award!
And for the joy it gave me to think on this verse! ❤
Bless her and her family!
Her testimony of her loss still touches me,

but even more so the loving passion You give her for life!
Thank You for the encouragement she is to me!
In Your Holy and Compassionate name I pray, Amen! ❤

 <3 THANK YOU, JONI! ME AND GOD LOVE YOU!! ❤


For those of you who don’t know what the Mystery Blogger Award is:

“Mystery Blogger Award is an award for amazing bloggers with ingenious posts. Their blog not only captivates; it inspires and motivates. They are one of the best out there, and they deserve every recognition they get. This award is also for bloggers who find fun and inspiration in blogging, and they do it with so much love and passion.”

Created by: Okoto Enigmas Blog

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RULES

  1. Put the award logo/image on your blog
  2. List the rules.
  3. Thank whoever nominated you and provide a link to their blog.
  4. Mention the creator of the award and provide a link as well
  5. Tell your readers 3 things about yourself
  6. You have to nominate 10 – 20 people
  7. Notify your nominees by commenting on their blog
  8. Ask your nominees any 5 questions of your choice;
    with one weird or funny question (specify)
  9. Share a link to your best post(s)

3 Things About Me:
1. I love God.

2. I love children.
3. I am so grateful for people who love to help others.

 

My Answers to Joni’s Questions for Me:

  1. Why did you start blogging? 
    As a personal blog to have private talks with God.
  2. If you had to change your name, what name would you choose and why?
    I am content with my name… real or blogging. 🙂
    But if I HAD to, I would follow whatever God gives me!
  3. You are about to get into a fight, what song comes on as your soundtrack?
    Lion and the Lamb by Bethel
    Our God is the Lion, the Lion of Judah
    He’s roaring with power and fighting our battles
    And every knee will bow before Him!
    Our God is the Lamb, the Lamb that was slain
    For the sin of the world. His blood breaks the chains.
    And every knee will bow before the Lion and the Lamb
    Every knee will bow before Him
    (link to video added below)
  4. If you could write one new law that everybody had to obey, what would it be and why?

    ❤ That no one could ever hurt a child again! ❤

    No questions asked!

  5. What’s the meanest thing you have ever done to someone to get back at them?
    I am ashamed of any harm I’ve ever caused anyone, especially my Jesus! 😦


Nominees:
Jessie of Jess Kidding
Lois of LoftForum (Living Our Faith Together)
Shacollier of Her Reason
Joy of Finding Joy
Secret Angel of The Abuse Expose
T.R. of Inside Cup
Overwhelmed By Joy
Susan of Nana’s Love Notes
Brandon of Chaotic Shapes
Caz of Invisibly Me
Alethea of Alethea’s Mind
A Country Boy of Whosoever Will, May Come
Tony of Reflections: A Mindful Journey
Lakeside Poetry
Emma of Blogging Babe
Lisa of Blended Hope
Aicha of They Got it Covered
Paleeza of Just a Quiet Girl
Payte of Paytej

 


My Questions or the Nominees:

1. What makes you burp? (That’s my required weird question.)
2. What would you like to talk with God about one on one?
3. Do you have a prayer request?
4. What do you like to blog about?
5. Where in the world do you live?

I don’t know that I have the right to pick my best post or how I would decide, but the most important is my testimony of salvation… how I met the Love of my life… my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. ❤ I would love to tell you about Me and God! ❤

Congratulations to the Nominees! Please do not feel obligated to participate. If you do, no rush! It’s meant to be a blessing, not a burden! 🙂 Tag me and let me know when you do so that I can come check out your post! God loves you! ❤

 

My Blessed Mother’s Day 2018

❤ Blessed is the woman who walks with God! ❤

This is the overwhelming message You sent me this Mother’s Day 2018! How that touches my heart, Lord, that You would send me this message through the many blessings You showered me with!

First there was the Spasday You gave Anthoni and I as a combination of celebrating his birthday that just happened to fall on Mother’s Day this year, as it sometimes does.
I posted that day to the world as a testimony and praise to You in

Happy Birthday to My Son Anthoni
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because You know we had to carefully follow You in making that day happen 3 days before the actual day. If it had been the actual day, it would not have happened. The actual day itself came so close to being a normal day of family warfare. We even lost the keys to the car during the stressful event. But You in Your loving mercy and omnipotent sovereignty displayed the omniscient Father You are to each of us! ❤

After getting Anthoni’s back up keys to the car, going to get pizza & breadsticks that were Anthoni’s chosen dinner, and watching Anthoni receive his birthday presents (reclining cot and chair from his aunt, a Gamestop giftcard and gaming t-shirt from his uncles), I was handed a bag of goodies. I first thought it was him showing me more of his presents. But it came with 2 cards for me!

The first one was from my brother and brother-in-law.Md18.6

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The other card was from my son Anthoni.
(with his unique humor 😉 )
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Then I opened the bag of goodies! 🙂
❤ Candy and a rose! ❤
My son knows I love some Reese Cups ❤ ,
and this one has Reese’s Pieces inside the cups! ❤Md18.1

And that wasn’t JUST a rose. It was a light-up rose! 🙂
I love a rose that won’t die! ❤

Also in the bag was a small note pad and stylus pen!

Then it was church time! I got to go to Your house, sing with Your people, pray with Your people, fellowship with Your people, and hear a powerful message from our family friend Pastor Boyer on Running Our Race. And these were not just any people, this was longtime familiar faces of dear friends, church family! And the Mother’s Day gift for us moms was so You… being so personal! ❤

The cutest little stationary book!
The cover read…
Blessed is the woman who walks with God.Md18.10

Inside was a note pad
(with the same message at the bottom of each sheet),
a pen, a sticky note pad, and sticky strips! 🙂
personally put together by a dear friend! ❤Md18.11

I’m familiar with the talent of that dear friend, as she has made me personal stationary books before! She is so talented, creative, sweet, and very dedicated to serving God! She is the same friend who treated me to a Wendy’s Frosty and Taco chips not too long ago! And that pen wasn’t just a pen! It has a light up too! With the same message on the pen!Md18.12

All day long, You were with me… with us as a family. Satan wanted to disrupt and ruin, but what he meant for evil You worked to good! Everyone had a good day! There was plenty of pizza, bread sticks, and even the homemade cookies and cream cake that Anthoni specifically asked his aunt for. Everyone was able to eat. No one was sick. The family squabbles were put on the back burner. And even the rain that threatened to interrupt was the sunniest day! Smiles! Laughs! My brother using his phone to take pictures while using snap chat with each of us to entertain himself!

Your message was personal and clear.

Blessed is the woman who walks with God.

❤ And for You to say that! ❤

❤ Confirmation of walking with You! ❤

❤ Be still my heart… and know He is God! ❤

Praise Your Holy name, Father!
Thank You for making me a Mom!
Thank You for Your many blessings!
Thank You for family!
Thank You for Your message…
From You to me! ❤
❤ I love You! ❤

 

Praise You for 100 Followers and Over 3,000 views on gaillovesgodspoetry!

❤ The Lord is worthy of ALL His praise! ❤

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Ok, God. It’s time to give YOU some more glory! It’s not about the numbers! You know anything You give me is all about You! What You bless this poetry blog with is all Yours!
According to WordPress, Damon Ashworth Psychology became the 100th Follower.
Bless him and his blog, Lord.
He had a pretty interesting sleep study (What Happens If You Go To Bed Too Early?) as his last post. Help him and his clients to have the restful sleep that only You can provide.
100 Follows!
Congratulations on getting 100 total follows on gaillovesgodspoetry!
Your current tally is 102.
WordPress also says there have been over 3,000 views now. You always amaze me that what You whisper in my ear, or that I talk with You about would be of any interest to anyone.  It’s You! They see You in anything they see good, or…

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Happy Birthday to My Son Anthoni!

Praise Ye! Praise Ye! Praise Ye! Our dear heavenly Father above! Creator and Maker of the Universe! And the Creator and Maker of my 30 year old son… Anthoni Lance Brookshire (aka InnerManTheatre on WordPress)! 30 years ago today, on a Friday the 13th, You looked down from Your heavenly throne and had mercy upon my soul… grace upon my life… and love yet to express itself in Your many ways that You taught me more about Your sovereign and parental love, as well as Your tender and nurturing love. So many of Your wonderful and mysterious ways manifest themselves so easily, so frequently, and so profoundly in the eyes, arms, heart, and soul of a child. Yet today He is not a child. Today He is 30! He will always be my babedoll! And He will always be Your son. A child of the King! ❤

Thank You , Father for the day we got to spend together at Cheddar’s and Cold Stone!!

Yup! That’s right! His birthday fell on Mother’s Day this year, so it was a win/win.

We first went to Cheddar’s so that I could eat my favorite food…
Cheddars’s Famous Spasagna with garlic bread!
(the tomato was from Anthoni’s cheeseburger,
he always gives me his tomatoes 🙂 )

I was so excited to eat Spasagna that I didn’t even care that I literally had to ask the waitress if I had gotten the Spasagna with Chicken Alfredo instead. The texture of the cheese was so hard and clumped into crusty lumps, so I honestly thought I could be eating chicken meat. It was still GOOD! But it wasn’t tasting the least bit like spaghetti, lasagna, or the delicious cheeses that were supposed to flavor the whole meal. The only thing that tasted right was the marinara sauce!

In these pictures below You can see the CLUMP it really was.
It was so thick I had to use my knife.  😦
It looks nothing like the delicious noodles I miss!

But again, Lord, I was so excited. It had been a few years since I had gotten to eat it! I thought it was me somehow. I wanted to be thankful for what You gave me, especially with the opportunity to share this special time with Anthoni. I could tell he cared about my food being edible, and what I actually wanted. I will do a feedback on the survey on my receipt, and actually call this week to Cheddar’s as well. If they have changed how they make it or what is in it, it absolutely changes my love for it. I had hoped to get good pictures for every one who had been asking about it and loved the idea of it.
I’ll post an update later.

🙂 But today! Today I am celebrating Anthoni! Not Spasagna!  🙂
And what better way to remind me of the miracle You designed him to be in my life and the lives of so many others than to give us a waitress named Miracle! ❤Spasday5

Miracle was so incredibly nice, pleasant, sweet spirited, with a beautiful smile. She was kind to allow me to get a picture of her and my son to remember his special day.
She is from Troy! (Anthoni I had fun discussions of Helen of Troy). She was our birthday miracle for him. We didn’t need one though. Anthoni was the miracle God gave 30 years ago to save me many things about my life, and my family from the dysfunction that was eating us apart. The Lord used his presence to break down races barriers on both sides of my family, bring peace to family squabbles, and lead us all back into church… including several family friends.

“The wolf also shall dwell with the lamb, and the leopard shall lie down with the kid; and the calf and the young lion and the fatling together; and a little child shall lead them.”
– Isaiah 11:6 KJV

Next! On to Cold Stone for my other favorite!
That Founder’s Favorite Ice Cream without a brownie! 🙂

After watching them make it… the finished product!
Gotta Have It size! (That’s their Large! 🙂 )
I thought of Caz when I realized the wording was slightly wrong from when I had previously said the sizes are called Like It, Love It, and Have to Have It. 😉Spasday8

It was melting all over the place. It was all I could do to get it to the table safely!Spasday9

Then I had to get Anthoni’s safely to the table, as he went to the bathroom.
He had the Birthday Cake Delight! How fitting!
Gotta Have It size… of course! 🙂
I’ll have to remember that next month for my birthday! 😉Spasday10

When he got to the table we found his ice cream!
It does not show in this picture, but his ice cream ended up all over the table,
despite my using several napkins underneath, and TRYING to keep it clean.
He had an interesting time with it.Spasday11

It brought back a sweet memory of him when he was just 6 or 7 months old.
He was in his car seat, eating ice cream. When the ice cream started melting all over his hands, he intentionally dropped it to the floor and started crying. He wanted me to pull over right then and there to wipe his hands clean, which of course I did with some baby wipes. Once he was clean, he was back to being a happy baby. He didn’t care about the ice cream anymore. All my family and friends in the car said, “Yep. He’s yours alright! Just like you!.” I hate having sticky or icky hands! Or mouth! Or face! LOL. Even if it means giving up what I am eating or going without!

So far down his bowl today, Anthoni just put his spoon down, looked me directly in the eye as if to point out that with his next statement he was giving me a hint.
“I’m done. Anytime you want to leave, I’m ready.”
He wasn’t saying it as of to hurry me or to tell me what to do. He was letting me know that I didn’t have to wonder about his leftover ice cream.
“Did you get enough? Is it OK?” I ask.
“Yes. I am putting my spoon down while I am satisfied, before I regret not doing it.”
He was only 1/3 of the way down his bowl.
“You mean like I already do, and I’m only half way down?” We laugh.
“Very disciplined, Anthoni! I am well pleased for you! So I guess that means we really only Like It! 😉 We laugh again.

Thank You, Father, for such a blessed time! For laughs! For good food! For awesome workers! For weather that held out to make for a beautiful day! For the time that is so hard for Anthoni and I to get alone! And I NEVER get to go to my favorite places, even if I am willing to pay for someone else! Unless I bribe my son because his birthday falls on Mother’s Day! 😉 Companionship is my gift. But he smiles because he knows he loves it too. That’s how I knew You were in on this today! And You lovingly put Your signature on it when You sent us our very own Miracle! With a smile! 🙂
No one says Happy Birthday or Happy Mother’s Day like You do! ❤
Me and Anthoni love You!

Praising God for 400 Followers and over 10,000 views!

Okay, God. You know this blog is not about numbers and stats. It’s all about You. This is Your blog! You know I am nervous each time I see someone new is following me. It still makes me think of the word stalker. But You also know that in following Your lead to open my settings from private to public, and to communicate with others, trusting You with likes, comments, followers, and the many awards, tags, and challenges that You use to keep me actively communicating, that You have blessed me with the richest of community, friends, and new family in Christ! All over the world, I have the dearest of hearts as friends! People who mean so much to me! Yet with so much love pouring from You through them, I can still so easily forget others are reading what You and I talk about.

Poetry, blogging, awards, tags, challenges, struggles with fear, anxiety, depression, chronic illness, and so many other things You and I discuss, and then You completely take me by surprise with over thousands of views, and thousands of the most encouraging and uplifting comments (praise Your name for the ones that testify for You and glorify You!) from some of the most amazing souls You have blessed me with. And oh what wonders You do for my soul to make so many of them fellow lovers of Christ! How my heart just flows over with such love to read and share You in everything! ❤
How Your heart must smile! 🙂

So let me share with the world the numbers You have allowed this blog… as a praise to You! Thank you for Thought for Change becoming the 400th Follower! Bless her blog, Lord! And her life! It was so wonderful to read how she loves you most! ❤
My favorite part of the stats is actually on the Insights page, where it has Comments by Authors. It seems to keep track of the top 6 Authors (aka bloggers) who are commenting. I love seeing that change around! It reflects the many God filled conversations with Your dear children loving one another through cherishing everything about You!

Right now, the top 6 are:
1. Discovering Your Happiness (Lovely Anita, Lovely A, Miss Lovely)
2. Red Letters (Hayley)
3. The Word (Margaret)
4. Invisibly Me (Caz)
5. Not Easily Broken
6. Walking With The Way (Arnya)

Praise You for each one of them, and those who may have simply commented Congrats or nice, and only once. If they have given praise in any form… it’s all Yours! ❤

I finish by praising You with the wonderful hymn You taught me years ago:
To God Be the Glory, hymn lyrics by our dear Fanny Crosby

To God be the glory, great things He has done;
So loved He the world that He gave us His Son,
Who yielded His life an atonement for sin,
And opened the life gate that all may go in.

Refrain

Praise the Lord, praise the Lord,
Let the earth hear His voice!
Praise the Lord, praise the Lord,
Let the people rejoice!
O come to the Father, through Jesus the Son,
And give Him the glory, great things He has done.

O perfect redemption, the purchase of blood,
To every believer the promise of God;
The vilest offender who truly believes,
That moment from Jesus a pardon receives.

Refrain

Great things He has taught us, great things He has done,
And great our rejoicing through Jesus the Son;
But purer, and higher, and greater will be
Our wonder, our transport, when Jesus we see.

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3 Day Quote Challenge 5.7.18, Day 3

 My Dear Loving Father, It has come to the last day (Day 3) of the challenge:
The 3 Day Quote Challenge that Alethea of Alethea’s Mind nominated me for.
Because of what You have laid on my heart to share today, I am ever so grateful for Your whispering my name into her ear. This is a month that recognizes Mental Health Awareness. For every word You lead and allow in this post to express the love You and Your Son carried for us on that cross even after experiencing the anxiety that sucks the life out of our weak flesh, please bless our dear Alethea just as profoundly. Because of this opportunity, You will be allowing me to share Your love and truth with so many others who suffer with anxiety, and are shamed by it so harshly either by their own condemning mind or the cruelty and ignorance of others who call it sin, and insulting to You. It makes the world of difference to know Your Son suffered His own moments of anxiety and agony... three times in one nighteven after praying. His example shows He understands, and allows His words to help us to know that anxiety is real, human, and heavy. And His example also tells us what’s best to do.


The Rules for the 3 Day Quote Challenge:

  1. Thank the person who nominated you.
  2. Post a quote each day, and why you like it.
  3. Nominate 3 different bloggers each day.

Quote for Day 3…

is a quote said three different times in three different ways in God’s word. It is that Jesus agonized! Suffered! Had sweat as great drops of  blood! Was sore amazed! Heavy! Exceeding sorrowful unto death! Fell on the ground! Kneeled down! He even asked God (His Father) if it were possible to change His circumstances, to remove His challenge, to find another way to do what He was being expected to do. Just like you and I do sometimes when we wish God would rescue us, or at least just change what we are currently going through. Even after He was ministered to BY AN ANGEL who strengthened Him, He was still in agony and prayed more earnestly! His human flesh was waging war. The flesh that He took on for you and me. He felt the need to pray like this 3 different times. And He warned us to pray because while our spirit is ready and willing, our flesh is weak and vulnerable to temptation.
But Jesus also loved us! He knew our Father loved us! And He thought we were worth it. Jesus prayed for God’s will to be done, not His own. And just for the record, Jesus was simply obedient! There is something to be said for someone when they can follow through on something that is so hard to do that they agonize with heavy sorrow over just the thought of it! THAT IS ANXIETY! Obedience (aka follow through) is a commendable trait! It speaks for the soul that was faced with fear, but chose to turn over there fears, dread, sorrow, and all that they worry about to the one who can see us through. Placing our trust and faith in God! No matter what the outcome… as I am sure you remembered Jesus did not have His cup removed, His hour passed, and did not have His circumstances changed. He was still put on the cross! For you! For me!

❤ THAT IS THE JESUS I LOVE! ❤
❤ I’m so glad you didn’t give up, Jesus! ❤

Below are the passages!

And he taketh with him Peter and James and John, and began to be sore amazed, and to be very heavy; And saith unto them, My soul is exceeding sorrowful unto death: tarry ye here, and watch. And he went forward a little, and fell on the ground, and prayed that, if it were possible, the hour might pass from him. And he said, Abba, Father, all things are possible unto thee; take away this cup from me: nevertheless not what I will, but what thou wilt. And he cometh, and findeth them sleeping, and saith unto Peter, Simon, sleepest thou? couldest not thou watch one hour? Watch ye and pray, lest ye enter into temptation. The spirit truly is ready, but the flesh is weak.”
– Mark 14:33-38 KJV

“And he took with him Peter and the two sons of Zebedee, and began to be sorrowful and very heavy. Then saith he unto them, My soul is exceeding sorrowful, even unto death: tarry ye here, and watch with me. And he went a little farther, and fell on his face, and prayed, saying, O my Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me: nevertheless not as I will, but as thou wilt. And he cometh unto the disciples, and findeth them asleep, and saith unto Peter, What, could ye not watch with me one hour? Watch and pray, that ye enter not into temptation: the spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak.
– Matthew 26:37-41 KJV

 And he was withdrawn from them about a stone’s cast, and kneeled down, and prayed, Saying, Father, if thou be willing, remove this cup from me: nevertheless not my will, but thine, be done. And there appeared an angel unto him from heaven, strengthening him. And being in an agony he prayed more earnestly: and his sweat was as it were great drops of blood falling down to the ground. And when he rose up from prayer, and was come to his disciples, he found them sleeping for sorrow, And said unto them, Why sleep ye? rise and pray, lest ye enter into temptation.”
– Luke 22:41-46 KJV


Nominees:
Sophie Harris
Life of a Coffee Addict
Essential Life


3 Day Challenge 5.7.18, Day 1 can be read here.
3 Day Challenge 5.7.18, Day 2 can be read here.

Congratulations to the nominees! I pray the challenge is fun for you as well!
Thank you, Alethea, for letting God use you!
So many people need to know anxiety is not the end of the world,
however… He completely understand what it feels like to have the weight of the world on their shoulders! Literally! May you be encouraged and blessed! ❤

❤ THANK YOU, JESUS! ❤