My New Journal With You, Note 10

**Verses are inserted exactly where God had them placed in my new journal at the bottom of each page. I love how personal He is! **

Good morning, Lord. How are You? I pray You are smiling and happy. I know we give You plenty of reason not to, but my hope takes shelter in knowing You are the God of peace, the God of joy, and that You are able to rejoice, even when we are not. You are where we find our strength to experience joy so that we can rejoice in You! Praise Holy and Jubilant name. The God who loves His children, and loves to see them smile. You are the reason for joy. Therefore my mind recalls and states itself while proclaiming aloud to You… “This is the day the Lord hath made. I will rejoice and be glad in it.” 🙂 ❤

You are my smile, Father! ❤ You are my joy. Therefore I know You are there, even when my mind betrays me. You know what it’s like to be betrayed, even by Your mind. Your suffering in the garden was that human flesh torturing You long before the cross itself did so cruelly. Your flesh tortured Your mind, just like our flesh tortures our mind. We too hit our knees

“Wherefore seeing we also are compassed about with so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which doth so easily beset us, and let us run with patience the race that is set before us, looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of our faith; who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is set down at the right hand of the throne of God. “
– Hebrews 12:1-2 KJV

and cry out to our God… our Father who lovingly and patiently waits with compassion, mercy, and grace as He sends His angels to minister. He is our Great Counsel, our Great Physician, our Father God who cares for us. He is grieved with all that we are grieved with because He cares that we grieve.

Just as He was with You, Jesus, and quickened Your Spirit, He will quicken our spirit with His presence. The healing power of the presence of God. His name alone can heal all things. I love You, Father God! I love You my sweet and precious Jesus! My Savior and Friend! ❤ I love You, Holy Spirit! Thank You for any insight to my Lord and Savior, and our Heavenly Father.

Blessed Be the Name of the LORD! ❤

“Delight thyself also in the Lord;
and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart.”
– Psalm 37:4 KJV

PS… Lord, I LOVE how Your verses always address exactly what I am talking to You about, but from Your wisdom of what I need. You are so personal! ❤

My New Journal With You, Note 9

**Verses are inserted exactly where God had them placed in my new journal at the bottom of each page. I love how personal He is! **

Good morning, Lord! How are You? I pray You are blessed, pleased, and saving as many souls. I know You love Your children. I know You care about them. You created us all for Your pleasure. 🙂

Lord, I’m sitting here waiting in the car as my brother has his surgery. We aren’t allowed to wait inside (understandably so), but we are allowed to use the bathroom if needed. I’m trying not to. Nathan has been so worried about this surgery, and then he has one next week. How stressful to have to worry about 2 surgeries, and so close to one another. Be with him, Lord. Help his mind to focus on one thing at a time, unless You deemed it good, helpful, or necessary.

I pray for his doctors and nurses, and everyone who will be taking care of him, or coming in contact with him. Keep everyone in there safe from this virus. Put a hedge of protection around them. May this day and this surgery (and the other one) be filled with You all over to the point You are all that everyone sees, praises, talks about,

“Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God.”
– Philippians 4:6 KJV

prays about, and just feels Your Holy presence. Thank You that You can be with each one individually and be so personal, yet be with them as a community…. and even be with me and Sandy here in the car, as well as be with Bobby at the house, with Anthoni, and Tim and Cliff out at Nathan’s.

I thank You, too, for being with my WordPress family. Nitin has begun such a terrifying task in treating COVID-19 positive patients. He is stressed and scared (because he is human), yet he is serving. I am grateful to know he has a relationship with You. His faith is encouraging. Omo has some tragic events happening in her country. I pray no one in her family or friends were among the victims. God, only You can stop such evil. Please keep a hedge around Nitin and his colleagues, and around Omo and her family and friends.

I pray for my Lifegroup too, Lord! So many burdens, losses, heartaches, and of course COVID. I am even more grateful for my small Lifegroup Blooming. Thank You for putting me in a Covid sensitive group of ladies. They have such a heart for the medical community, as well as anyone who has to work, or makes

“Rejoice evermore. Pray without ceasing. In every thing give thanks: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you.”
– 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 KJV

deliveries, or has Covid in their family. They have had family and friends with Covid too.

And then of course, there is their own health. They are doing as You teach us in Your word, taking care of the vessels You have given them. We are a small group, but mighty in faith. We have You! ❤

Well Sandy is awake, the sun is up, and we’ll be on the move before long.

I just want You to know I love You. I pray all my friends, family, church, Lifegroup, community, city, county, state, country, and world into You care. With the Holy Spirit and Jesus making intercessory prayer on our behalf… it is enough.

❤ I love You, Father!
❤ I love You, Jesus!
❤ I love You, Holy Spirit!

“Be strong and of a good courage, fear not, nor be afraid of them: for the Lord thy God, he it is that doth go with thee; he will not fail thee, nor forsake thee.”
– Deuteronomy 31:6 KJV

PS… Lord, I LOVE how Your verses always address exactly what I am talking to You about, but from Your wisdom of what I need. You are so personal! ❤

 

A Wise, Understanding Family

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Wisdom, you are my sister.
God has said we’re family.
I am to trust your words.
I am to trust your whispers.
I am to heed your shoutings.
I am to seek and trust you.

Understanding,
You are my kinswoman.
I am to follow your lead.
I am to trust you to keep me.
I am to accept you as family.
Because in God’s eyes
You are! ❤

Wise understanding,
Oh how I need you,
To keep me from flattery,
To keep me from self destruction,
To keep me from falling into a snare,
Bound for hell.

Lord, I seek. I call on.
And I trust through your faith
In wisdom, understanding.
We are all one family.
Your family.

7.7.2020 Tuesday
Written by Gail Brookshire
Inspiration: Proverbs 7 in my Proverbs journal.

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Adultery Is Sure Jealousy

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Surety, you are no friend.
You know my God does not want
Me to entertain you.
You know He warns against you.
You know you’re putting chains on me
If I were to give thought to you,
Or speak on your behalf.
No one can speak for you.
Only God can say,
“Have nothing to do with her.
Plead release from her,
But if she insists the debt be paid,
PAY IT!
BE DONE WITH HER!
THEN LEAVE HER ALONE!”
Jealousy is your friend.
She tries to flatter me.
She tries to convince me that
“He” is worth it too.
After all, a woman’s jealousy is
So much well known that she is
Referred for “her fury.”
No Surety. No Adultery. No Jealousy.
Only God! Only His wisdom!

7.6.2020 Monday
Written by Gail Brookshire
Inspiration: Proverbs 6 in my Proverbs Journal

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My New Journal With You, Note 8

**Verses are inserted exactly where God had them placed in my new journal at the bottom of each page. I love how personal He is! **

Good morning, Lord! It’s really the middle of the night as far as I’m, concerned, but technically… officially… it is 2:45 in the early morning. So it is morning.

I just needed to come talk to You. To sit with You. To lay in Your arms. to lean on You.. with my head on Your shoulder and my heart in Your hands.

So much has happened in this last week. It’s left me completely mindful this week as well. There is so much I need to note… for You.. for me… for my sanity. It doesn’t help that so much is going on in the world too… around us and across from us. No wonder so many are checking out. It’s not fair to You.

So many words, emotions, judgments, threats, temptations, fears, and so much more are being thrown at us. It’s hard to find someone to lean on, to talk to, to confide it, to counsel with… because we’re all going through this… even the strongest of us… so we need to be mindful of one another…

“The Lord thy God in the midst of thee is mighty; he will save, he will rejoice over thee with joy; he will rest in his love, he will joy over thee with singing.”
– Zephaniah 3:17 KJV

to hold our tongue and all on the wrong to be done to us… so that we don’t lay our burdens on top of someone’s already heavy load. With so many losing their battle under the weight of their own burdens, it’s a very difficult time. Stress can be a pretty fierce opponent.

Praise You for being strong enough for all of us. Nothing is an opponent to You. Thank You for being mighty… Almighty! Thank You for being ever present, for being True and Faithful… Sure and Steady… Strong and Upright. Thank You for being You.

I miss writing to You, God. It’s been a couple of months since I wrote some poetry, but it feels like forever. It feels like I need to exhale so badly. What is it that I need to get out, especially when You are having me be as discreet as possible with my words. Even my thoughts are going through Your filter. What

“For I know that my redeemer liveth, and that he shall stand at the latter day upon the earth:”
– Job 19:25 KJV

is it? Is it as important as it feels? Or is it just my mind trying to run away with me? What is it You are trying to say to me during these uncertain times? That You are the only thing that is uncertain? I know that You are! ❤

The Paper Waits to Relay

Words, thoughts, chasing shadows.
Things heavy on my mind.
There are no answers for the questions.
The days are left behind.
The pen runs with the ink.
The paper waits to relay.
Do the words have Your permission?
What are they allowed to say?
Weary, scared, confused,
The world wonders what to do.
The pen needs to write the message,
God loves you!

10.21.2020 Wednesday
written by Gail Brookshire

“Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.”
– Matthew 11:28 KJV

PS… Lord, I LOVE how Your verses always address exactly what I am talking to You about, but from Your wisdom of what I need. You are so personal! ❤

Discretion, A Mutual Friend

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Discretion,
You and I have been friends
Many times over.
I thank God for being our
Mutual Friend.
He is wise to tell me to choose.
He tells me to choose you
Is to choose wisdom.
Thank you for being
A faithful companion.
Thank you for helping me
Keep my mind on Him.
Thank you for helping
To escape my folly.
Thank you for clarifying
What I can and cannot trust.
Thank you for not wanting
To make a mockery of me,
For not shaming me in my own guilt,
As I so rightly deserve.
Thank you for preserving me for Him.
Thank you for teaching me
What’s right.
Thank you for helping me to honor
our Mutual Friend.

7.5.2020 Sunday
Written by Gail Brookshire
Inspiration: Proverbs 5

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Let’s Pursue One Another

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Wisdom, let’s pursue one another.
I need your instruction,
And you need my obedience.
I need your knowledge,
And you need my heart.
I need your understanding,
And you need me to attend you.
I need you to establish me,
And you need me to exalt you.
I need you to preserve me,
And you need me to keep you.
I need you to lead my paths.
You need me to keep looking straight ahead.
I need your grace and your glory.
You need me to honor God’s word.
His promises mean so much to me,
And you mean so much to Him.
He tells me so much about you,
And promises so much value.
Help me to receive the good
In trusting His word.
Help me to honor HIm
In trusting you.
Wisdom, knowledge, understanding,
Let’s pursue one another.

7.4.2020 Saturday
Written by Gail Brookshire
Inspiration: Proverbs 4

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My New Journal With You, Note 7

**Verses are inserted exactly where God had them placed in my new journal at the bottom of each page. I love how personal He is! **

Good late night, early morning, Dear Lord. I pray You are happy and well pleased. I’m very tired, but I wanted to thank You for seeing me through this last week, especially this weekend we just went through. Friday into Saturday were very challenging. I only made it through because of YOU! It was only possible because of YOU!

I love You, Lord!
I love You, Jesus!
I love You, Holy Spirit!

It’s so hard to stay awake!!! 😦

“The Lord is not slack concerning his promise, as some men count slackness; but is longsuffering to us-ward, not willing that any should perish, but that all should come to repentance.”
– 2 Peter 3:9 KJV

PS… Lord, I LOVE how Your verses always address exactly what I am talking to You about, but from Your wisdom of what I need. You are so personal! ❤

Thank You All for Your Prayers and Patience!

Dear Lord, what a journey this has been lately…. this journey called life. Not just for me either. This one is affecting the world while at the same time affecting each individual life… in a very negative way. The only thing I can think of at the moment that has ever done that is… sin. Sin is ugly and sad. Covid-19 is ugly and sad. Death and illness is ugly and sad. There has been so much ugly and sad for so long now.

I want to take a moment to thank You for the prayer warriors! We need them! I want to take a moment to thank each one who has been praying with me and for me! And I want to thank You for answering prayer! Praise Your Holy Name, Father God! I love You, Jesus! Thank You, Holy Ghost!

Friends… Prayer Warriors! I want to thank you for praying so faithfully and fervently with me and for me, and for my family and friends. On September 8th I was finally able to have a much needed appointment with the specialist about this struggle I have had with choking, and constantly clearing and cleaning out my mouth all day long. This has been a 4 year battle, with some dysmotility that has happened along the way.

While I was terrified to go through with the procedures that I knew it would require and just knew I would have problems with, your prayers finally gave me a doctor who HEARD me, who LISTENED, who BELIEVED me, and made notes for possible problems and possible procedures. And though I wasn’t really keen on going near the hospitals because of Covid, I agreed to do them on October 12th. Within a couple of days the doctor’s office moved them to the 16th so that my doctor could do the procedures himself. (See how personal your prayers were!) It was a 4 year battle just trying to get my previous doctor to even believe me (and he never did)!

I am so grateful for those prayers and grateful for this doctor because I did end up having the very issues we had discussed. But the morning I arrived EVERY.SINGLE.PERSON. of that team listened to me, reassured me, and were very attentive. When I awoke coughing so hard, they knew it was from that choking issue but had such fear in their eyes. Yet they STILL took care of me!

When I had told my sister Sandra that I would need those procedures, she called her doctor to check on her situation, and came to let me know they went ahead and scheduled her for a needed surgery. She was extremely nervous, and so many things were uncertain. She had hers on September 30th. Thank you for praying for her!

Then I spent a week doing the things instructed to do for my procedures/surgery on the October 16th. It was a challenging and stressful week. After the procedure, I struggled with choking, swallowing, talking, even the challenge of getting my medicines down for a couple of days. Thank you for praying for me. There was a moment I thought for sure I would be on a liquid diet for the rest of my life. I see my doctor on Nov. 3rd to see if we have any answers, and what to do next.

The following Thursday (October 22nd) my brother Nathan had a surgery on his tongue that took them 3 hours. He struggled with the anesthesia so it took him hours to wake up. He also had a lot of pain from them having to put a tube through his nose and down his throat because he would stop breathing. Your prayers surely helped him get through a horrible time!
Thank you!

Now yesterday (October 28th) he had his other surgery that the doctor told him would be worse. We were all concerned, especially with the anesthesia and breathing. So many of you prayed with me for my brother. God blessed him and his day so mightily! I thought of you and your praying for him each time God moved!. The surgery went well and timely! He did NOT struggle with the anesthesia! He did not stop breathing (so no tube down the throat either). They even took his stitches out of his tongue. He awoke and was alert much quicker and stronger this time! And the concern the doctor most had… was ruled out! Which also meant the biggest concern my brother had in losing function to his body… was no longer a scare!

I cannot begin to thank you enough, but I absolutely want to try a little. SO many of you have been so incredibly merciful and patient with me for quite awhile now with delayed messages, inactivity, falling asleep while talking to you, missing calls altogether (many while holding my phone… I’m still trying to get used to my first smartphone since February), and so many more things that sadly I cannot even remember. I have hated finding later I left someone waiting for a reply for a week or more! (Sorry, Tosin, Caz, Holly, Randee, Margaret, Maxine, Nitin, Doreen, Stu and so many more!) 😦 Or that I have lost awards and tags that someone nominated me for! I didn’t even get to thank them, and have forgot who and the award!

You guys are so faithful and loving, merciful and full of grace. You have your own health issues, family scares, and just as much loss, uncertainty, and unending numbers of family and friends contracting and dying from Covid too. Yet you are so loving to still pray, to still call me friend, to encourage me in the faith with your own, and to speak prayers over me right in the comments and messages in my inbox… some even sending me cards and notes to my mailbox! (I am still so touched by that one who sent the $200 in a birthday card for my birthday fundraiser! And each one who contributed to make the other $200. I can’t tell you just how much you let God work in me!)

Christ… and His wonderful, undying, unconditional, never ending love… this is what you have constantly blessed me with. You have shown me His mercy, extended His grace, accentuated His kindness, and bore burdens with me. Thank you especially to each one who has been praying for my friend Nitin and all of his colleagues as they fight on the front lines treating Covid patients. Many of my doctor friends read your comments and tell of their own gratitude and journeys which include losses.

Lastly, that is certainly the thing you have been most faithful to pray with me on. So much loss in this Covid war,the senseless and petty bickering over rights being more important than our concern for one another’s health, calling millions of deaths around the world a hoax, and so many people who live with asthma, COPD, and many other compromised bodies terrified to come out of their homes not just because of the virus that can take their life, but many fear more the careless friend, or that enraged stranger that may attack them for wearing a mask as they have seen on the news. So many loved ones dying alone, or having no funeral because of the danger taken serious a little too late.

I have not kept updates on the prayer requests I have had along the way because they are so lengthy it would depress you. It depresses me! And angers me for those whose loss was due to carelessness… some their own, some the carelessness of others. In just the last few weeks, 2 ladies from my lifegroup lost a father who began his horrible battle on the daughter’s birthday and lost it, and another who lost her husband, 2 local facilities warned of large numbers among their patients and staff (which house several family and friends of the ladies in the lifegroup, and a few were the staff members), another has a brother who survived Covid but now battles with Afib, and that same lady has another brother in hospice dying from cancer, a family friend who is 29 was on a ventilator for a week without anyone knowing until he came out of it, a 27 yr old girl with little children is fighting Covid so hard the doctors had to put her into a medically induced coma to stop her from having seizures, and another family friend in his 60s sounded pretty bad on the phone when letting us know he was headed to the doctor and we still haven’t heard back if he has Covid or not.

And I could not begin to count the constant postings of friends on their blogs, Facebook, and emails of surviving Covid. No one would have known if they had not survived to post! 😦 Many are now living with permanent health problems gained from Covid. And I mean of all ages.

On top of all of this loss, are the losses of many who are dying from the things that were already killing us…. cancer, suicide, failing organs, car accidents, heart attacks, strokes, murder… and the pneumonia and flu that get dismissed so easily to make Covid look so harmless. So many have lost husbands, wives, parents, children, sisters, brothers, friends, and many have lost more than one. And sadly so many pastors and others in ministry are among the suicide numbers.

And there are so many working in the medical community. The team that took care of me on October 16th knew my situation, knew to expect how I would wake up, knew I had been tested for Covid as all patients entering the hospital are required to do and cleared (Praise God!). Yet my heart sank to hear them before I could open my eyes, and then see the terror in their eyes when I could open mine. Some got away from me as quickly as possible. I wasn’t the least bit offended. I felt so bad for them. They’re living and working with this all day long! 😦

The Lord has made that burden to pray for them even heavier, as well as to thank you for praying! With me! For me! Thank you. And if you read this all the way through, I pray the Lord blessed you in a way that you know it is absolutely Him reminding you that Jesus is an intercessor for you when He prays to the Father on your behalf, and the Holy Spirit is praying for you with groanings that cannot be uttered.
God loves you! And He prays for you! And everyone you pray for!

A special thank you to my Lifegroup… Blooming Zooming!
Thank you for praying with me, and letting me pray with you! God knew exactly who to put me into a sisterhood with! I praise God for each of you being Covid sensitive! For being so burdened already on your own to pray for the Medical Community, and emphasizing to pray specifically for as many as possible by name, as often as possible! Thank you for having such a love for God, and a heart for pursuing obedience even now. Thank you for being wise as serpents, and harmless as doves. Thank you for making room for me, and for being so welcoming.
Me and God love you each one! ❤

Thank You, Jesus, for encouraging me to get a thank you written down, and for helping me to stay awake and get it written and posted!!
Praise Your Mighty and Majestic name!
I love you… forever… no matter what!!

“Is any among you afflicted? let him pray. Is any merry? let him sing psalms. Is any sick among you? let him call for the elders of the church; and let them pray over him, anointing him with oil in the name of the Lord: And the prayer of faith shall save the sick, and the Lord shall raise him up; and if he have committed sins, they shall be forgiven him.
Confess your faults one to another, and pray one for another, that ye may be healed. The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much.
Elias was a man subject to like passions as we are, and he prayed earnestly that it might not rain: and it rained not on the earth by the space of three years and six months. And he prayed again, and the heaven gave rain, and the earth brought forth her fruit.
Brethren, if any of you do err from the truth, and one convert him; Let him know, that he which converteth the sinner from the error of his way shall save a soul from death, and shall hide a multitude of sins.”
– James 5:13-20 KJV

My New Journal With You, Note 6

**Verses are inserted exactly where God had them placed in my new journal at the bottom of each page. I love how personal He is! **

Dear Lord, How are You? I pray Your day is blessed, and that many souls have given their lives to You today. I pray You have won many souls. I know You love them. I know it breaks Your heart to see them in pain. You are a good God, and a good Father. I know You and Jesus both long to have them home with You.

I know You also long to see us love one another, and I’m so sad to say we are NOT doing a good job of that. We are being so ugly and judgmental to one another. The violence and anger are so rampant. People calling for justice while justifying their own criminal  behavior. I know You’re not surprised by this. This is what sin does… deceives us, and leads us astray, making us defiant to You in our behavior. I pray for us, Lord. We need You so desperately. There is absolutely no hope without You.

Only You can bring about peace, true justice, brotherly kindness, selflessness,

“Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.”
– Proverbs 3:5 KJV

thoughtfulness, and any Christ like love. Only You know what is best in a time when everything is so uncertain, and our world seems to be falling apart. We are at a loss for understanding anything right now, but You are always the omniscient, omnipotent, and very omnipresent God… wise in all Your ways. You are the same yesterday, today, and tomorrow. How blessed we are that You never change! Especially with Your love, mercy, grace, patience, long suffering, and all that makes You the good and loving God and Father that You are!

I love You, Father God! ❤

I pray all my fears, uncertainties, and all distractions that want to come between You and me into Your Holy and Sovereign hands. I know You love me, and only want Your best for me. I trust in Your perfect timing, and Your perfect will. Even in my unbelief, I still trust everything about You, because I know I truly believe. Thank You for believing in me. You make all things new and possible. I am Yours forever!  ❤ I love You!

“For the word of God is quick, and powerful, and sharper than any twoedged sword, piercing even to the dividing asunder of soul and spirit, and of the joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart.”
– Hebrews 4:12 KJV

PS… Lord, I LOVE how Your verses always address exactly what I am talking to You about, but from Your wisdom of what I need. You are so personal! ❤

Vincent Ehindero Blogger Award 6.24.2020

Oh Dear Lord! Yay! Praise Your Holy name for allowing me to find one of my lost Tags and Awards. It has been so depressing losing awards, tags, posts, comments, and more. It makes me feel so rude, negligent, and careless, and most importantly makes me afraid the one who thought of me will think I did not care about their kindness. How incredibly wrong they would be.
Thank You for the heart of Jevannel of Jevannel Academy, who nominated me for the Vincent Ehindero Blogger Award. She was so sweet and merciful to not be upset with me, but instead was excited with me in finding the post! 🙂

Thank you, Jevannel, for your thoughtfulness in the nomination of the Vincent Ehindero Blogger Award back in in June, and thank you for your extended kindness in being happy with me in finding the nomination! Your mercy is added joy, as it allows me to reflect on the loving mercy of God. He too celebrates with us when we finally meet Him on the same page in different moments of our lives. May the Lord continue to bless you and your blog!
Me and God love you! 🙂

The Rules:

  1. Thank the person who nominated you with a link to their blog.
  2. Make a post of the award (with a photo of the logo).
  3. Post the rules.
  4. Ask 5-10 questions of your choice.
  5. Nominate 10-30 other bloggers (or more) and notify them.
  6. Follow Vincent Ehindero @vincentehindero.wordpress.com
    (to qualify for a free blog promotion and shout out and more blogging opportunities)

Jevannel’s Questions for Me:

1) What is your writing style?
Keeping it all about my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ! ❤

2) Do you plan your blogs or is it more freestyle?
They are more freestyle and poetry, and anything the Lord gives me to share.

3) What is it that you enjoy most about being a blogger?
Being able to share the love of God with others. Everyone needs to know how much God loves them! ❤

4) What is the best piece of advice you have ever received from someone?
To give my heart and life to my Jesus! ❤

5) Do you see yourself blogging in 5 years?
If that’s what the Lord wants… see ya then. 🙂

6) What has been the highlight of this year?
Witnessing God confirming His word to me every single day. He made it clear in November when I was so sick to convalesce with Him….
: to recover health and strength gradually after sickness or weakness
not just in that month, but He made it clear He wanted it for the whole year, and to share with others to do the same. I would have never dreamed something like COVID would happen to make it hard to do anything else. I have felt His confirmation all day and night… and His sweet whispers… and His smile to know I am listening. He is my health and strength! ❤

7) What do you miss about last year?
Being able to go to church and the ladies bible studies.

8) If you could change one thing what would it be?
That everyone would come to know just how much You love them, Jesus! ❤

9) Would you encourage your kids to become bloggers?
My son is already a blogger at Inner Man Theatre! 🙂
He was a blogger before I was, and has helped me quite often! He encourages me! 🙂 I absolutely try to encourage him as much as the Lord allows.

10) If you could snap your fingers right now and change one thing about the world what would that one thing be?
That Jesus would have won every heart and have us all home with Him, the Father, and the Holy Ghost! ❤

Nominees:

  1. Omowunmi of Grace Fifteen Ten
  2. Anjali of Positive Side of the Coin
  3. Ara of Recuperation
  4. Maja of Lampelina
  5. Sunshine of Eunoia
  6. Dr. Namrata of Pen of Hearts
  7. Alicia of For His Purpose
  8. Raghavasree of Desert Flower
  9. Charity of Confessions and Thoughts of a Reluctant Preacher’s Daughter
  10. Dariush of HHH: You Are Awesome
  11. Hephzibah of Being Found in the Vine
  12. Matt of Jesus Luvs All
  13. Stu of Something to Stu Over
  14. Vickie of Vickie’s Book Nook and Meditation Corner
  15. Janet of Planted with Faith
  16. Mindy of A Word with Mindy
  17. Saania of Fun with Philosophy
  18. Tangie of Mrs. T’s Corner
  19. Jacquie of Joy Cottage
  20. Mercy of Herry Chic Counsels
  21. Dawn of Drawing Closer to Christ
  22. Farm Girl of Faith on the Farm
  23. Tammy of God Inspired Arts & Quotes
  24. Sharon of Beat Depression & Anxiety
  25. Alana of Glimpses of Grace
  26. Renee of Hands Full of Blessings
  27. Janet of My Father’s Symphony
  28. Brenda of Becoming His Tapestry
  29. Siphe of God’s Anointed Princesses
  30. Grace of Following Him Beside Still Waters

Questions for the Nominees:

  1. How are you doing during this COVID-19 Pandemic?
  2. What is a good indoor activity?
  3. Do you have a favorite Bible verse?
  4. What has been your quarantine go to food?
  5. Do you know how much God loves you?

Hope the nominees have fun! It took me forever to get this tag done, even after I finally found it last week! (Thank You, God!) By the grace of God I managed to get through a great deal of the blogs I follow. So many have disappeared, changed names/blog locations, or simply have not been active for years. I hope to continue going through them. So many wonderful familiar faces and blogs!
May you all be safe and well! Praying for you!
God loves you! 🙂 ❤

“I thank my God upon every remembrance of you”
– Philippians 1:3 KJV

The Thirteenth Disciple Tag 7.27.2020 and 8.16.2020

Dear Lord, how interesting and exciting. This tag (The Thirteenth Disciple Tag) that Charity (aka Purple Rose) of Confessions And Thoughts Of A Reluctant Preacher’s Daughter created and nominated me for The Thirteenth Disciple Tag on 7.27.2020, a tag that she created. Thank you for having my dear sister think of me. Please forgive me for taking so long to get this done, and please let Charity know how grateful and excited I really was regardless of what they dates say. When I first read Charity’s tag, it made me smile and think of my mom. Whenever people would try to say the number 13 was bad luck, taboo, or evil, my mom would remind them that the 12 disciples plus Jesus made 13. ❤

Then you had my dear brother Stu of Something to Stu Over also nominate me for The Thirteenth Disciple Tag on 8.15.2020. Again I have taken so long. Please let Stu know how grateful I am for him as well. Bless them both and encourage them, Lord. Normally I would do the tags separate, but because I have taken so long I will do them together.

Thank you, Charity, for thinking of me. You created such an awesome tag! I loved the idea of hanging with Jesus!

Here Are The Rules:

  1. Thank the person who tagged you and include a link to their post.
  2. Link the original post (The Thirteenth Disciple Tag) and give credit to the creator of this tag (Purple Rose) https://reluctantpreachersdaughter.wordpress.com
  3. Answer the 13 questions asked by Purple Rose
  4. Tag as many people as you like
  5. Use the original tag image as the FEATURED image on your post:

Purple Rose Thirteenth Disciple Quote

Here are the 13 questions:

1. Which disciple is your favorite?
John… the one who was noted for loving Jesus so, and who wrote the book of John that is absolutely Love, Love, Love. It even has the REAL Lord’s prayer where Jesus is praying to the Father on our behalf in chapter 17! ❤

2. How often do you pray The Lord’s Prayer?
Funny that this is the question just after I was thinking on it. 🙂 I pray as often as the Lord allows. There was a time I prayed it every day before I started my day, and every night before I went to bed as I felt the Lord asking me with compelling compassion, “Do you not think the words my Son gave you would be enough for everything?”
I had been praying for “the right” thing to pray. So I committed to using it to pray for ALL my needs in those only 2 prayers of the day, allowing anytime I felt I should be praying more to God’s trust. It is amazing how He opened my eyes and my mind to those words covering every single thing we need prayer for. And why wouldn’t they? Would Jesus leave us unprepared or ill equipped??
NO! OF COURSE NOT!

3. How often do you take communion?
It depends. If I attend my stepdad’s church, they do it every Sunday at the end of service. If I am at my church, I believe it’s quarterly (every 3 months). But since COVID arrived, I have not been back to church physically, and won’t be for sometime. They did one for Easter online, and that was the last time I did.

4. Do you listen to sermons during the week?
Absolutely! As much as God will allow! I would rather listen to sermons than watch TV or movies.

5. If Jesus asked you to have your own small group of 4, which 3 disciples or Bible Characters would you choose to be in your weekly prayer group?
John the Baptist, Samuel, amd Enoch

6. Why did you choose those 3?
They were all three devoted and obedient from the beginning to the end. I want to be with people who love Jesus and His Father no matter the cost, and whose every thought is dying to self. Enoch was even spared of dying. One minute he was here, and then “he was not.” 😉

“and Enoch walked with God: and he was not; for God took him.”
– Genesis 5:23 KJV

7. What Bible characters do you relate to or understand the most?
I don’t know that I would claim to fully understand any of the Bible characters, but I relate to characters like Hannah, Hagar, Tamar (both David’s daughter and Judah’s daughter-in-law), Leah, and Mary. Hannah and Mary are the two I relate to most often.
I, too, prayed for a child to give back to the Lord, like Hannah did for so long. I didn’t know my Bible yet then or my son Anthoni would have been named Samuel. When I did have him, I was a single mom like Mary (yes I know their engagement was the same as being married, but technically she was on her own until the angel told Joseph to marry her).

“Now the birth of Jesus Christ was on this wise: When as his mother Mary was espoused to Joseph, before they came together, she was found with child of the Holy Ghost… the angel of the Lord appeared unto him in a dream, saying, Joseph, thou son of David, fear not to take unto thee Mary thy wife: for that which is conceived in her is of the Holy Ghost.”

When I think of the responsibility I felt from the beginning to raise a child given from God, especially when Anthoni began to be a little preacher, it was a very important concern for me every day…. and still is with him grown. How much heavier must that concern have been to be raising the Son of the Living God! ❤

8. Which disciple would you argue with the most?
Judas or Peter for always wanting to argue with Jesus! 

9. Which disciple would you get along with the best?
I would love to hang with John or Nathanael. John loved Jesus so, and Nathanael believed Jesus was the Son of God and the King of Israel from the beginning just because Jesus knew who he was. Jesus said there was no guile in him.

10. If you were in the painting of the Last Supper, where would you be sitting?
Definitely John because he was leaning on Jesus! He loved Jesus! ❤

11. Peter carried a sword and cut off a soldier’s ear in an attempt to protect Jesus. If you were there that night, what would your reaction have been to the soldiers coming to arrest Jesus?
When I first read the Bible for myself, I was so angry and ready to fight before I came upon it. I remember being so glad when Peter used his sword. So yes I probably would have, but I would have had the same astonishing rebuke that Peter got. 

12. We all need a Simon Peter in our life, someone who carries a “sword” and will fight for you. Who is/was your Simon Peter?
My son Anthoni has been a Simon Peter sent from God Himself to rescue me from my world, and keep my focus on God not only in my own relationship, but also in the determination to teach Him about God’s love and teachings. God has taught me so much about His love for me through my love for my son, and in allowing me to have in common with Him being a single parent of an only Son.

13. Similar to Jesus, we all have a Judas in our lives who helps us fulfill our destiny or find our purpose. Can you look back and appreciate their role in your life despite the harm they did or the hurt they caused?
Whatever God has given me, He has given. Regardless of who, what, where, when, why, and how… it is done. He has forgiven me, so I am to forgive. I pray the Holy Spirit helps me to appreciate all things that God has allowed or designed. I thank God for seeing me through all He has walked me through.

Nominees:
(In honor of Jesus and the 12 disciples making 13, I will tag 13 nominees. 🙂

  1. Holly of Wholeness Haven
  2. Alicia of For His Purpose
  3. Margaret of The Word
  4. Mercy of Herry Chic Counsels
  5. Hephzibah of Being Found in the Vine
  6. Doreen of Becoming the Oil and the Wine
  7. Matt of Jesus Luvs All
  8. Regina of Help From heaven
  9. Tish of Ritisha’s Blog
  10. Shae of Shae’s Days
  11. Dawn of Drawing Close to Christ
  12. Siphe of God’s Anointed Princesses
  13. Gary of A Sagittarian Seeker

Hope the nominees have as much as I did!
What a joy to think of being Jesus!
We will very soon! 🙂 ❤

 

Wonderful Love

“But God commendeth his love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us.”
– Romans 5:8 KJV

Study Questions:

  1. In what ways does knowing God’s no-matter-what love change how you relate to Him?
    It changes everything! How could it not, Lord! It is mind blowing that You know everything about me… good and bad… better than I know myself… and STILL love me… NO MATTER WHAT!! Unconditional love is like no other love I have ever known! And I fall more and more in love with You every single second!!
    Thank You for loving me!!
    I absolutely love You the same way…. NO MATTER WHAT!! ❤
  2. How does God’s love for you change your love for others?
    Lord, Your love does wonderful things for all of us, whether we know it or not! I am grateful that You have allowed me to come to know it, and thankful that the Holy Spirit allowed my heart to believe it! Before Your wonderful love, I was scared of people, weary of people, untrusting of people, and growing further and further away from them. My poetry used to reflect just how painful I thought love was… referring to jagged knives, shattering glass, deep daggers, graves for the innocent… romanticizing death… and writing love letters to suicide.
    You created in me a love for others through the love I had for You and Your word. It began out of duty to Your word, and a sense of obligation to someone I loved so much. And to know that Jesus loved them so much that He died for them. You loved them so much that You allowed Your Son to make that painful sacrifice. Eventually I loved them too.
    Now I have a world full of church family and friends. I even have family on WordPress that mean so much to me. It breaks my heart to know so many are suffering right through so many trials. I especially think of our dear Caz! Lord, please bring her healing! Bring her good doctors and nurses! Bring her needed supplies and funds. Bring her comforting friends that she can trust to be there with her and for her… at the hospital and at home.
    Bring all my friends healing, comfort, finances, wisdom, direction, peace, health, employment, family, and the many things You have laid on their heart. And thank You for when You bring them to mind, as You did this day on the Parkway to make a video for them to ride along with me in one of our favorite places that I am always mentioning to them. I don’t even mind that I felt like I talked too much. My friends want to spend that time with me, and I want to spend that time with them!
    I praise Your Holy name for the day we will all be together to praise You forever! I love You and them!!! NO MATTER WHAT!
    Thank You for the Friend we all have in Jesus! ❤

Inspiration: WGWM Study Notes, Week 2 Days 6 & 7

Crying for the Broken Child


Good morning, my Beautiful Lord! My Loving and Personal Father! ❤
You and I began this day with crying unto You with things laying heavy on my heart, so heavy I did not even recognize them there. And while they could have been offensive and insulting, You were so tender to send me strong and clear messages of Love, Presence, Prayer, and You!

As I was praying to You about some honest emotions I had going on… anger towards those who are hurting other human beings in Human Trafficking, Domestic Violence, Sexual Assaults, and just pure evil… especially on children… I was broken. I was honest with You about the anger that I felt. Anger that brought me to tears. Anger and a broken heart that burdened me so heavily. Feeling so hopeless in not being able to stop it. Knowing it was only in Your power to do so. Yet remembering the free will You give us each.

In those moments, Satan was trying to fill me with unjust accusations toward You, and how little You seemed to care… about what is happening to the children, and the little girl I was at 3 years old. I knew He was wrong. I even told You so. But the words I have heard the world say so often kept trying to accuse You too. While I could not answer those questions of why, nor pretend to have the answers for something ONLY You will ever know, the anger and the pain that kept going back and forth eventually revealed to me that some of that pain was my own brokenness that seemed so long ago.

Feeling that pain kept Satan trying to accuse You, and caused that little girl’s memory of the pain and confusion to feel like we were still in the middle of it all. Sometimes that question the world throws at us about You caring, and where were You when we needed You can be pretty persuasive when that father of lies (Satan) causes such a heaviness from the cloudy visions of long ago. The distance of those years can make them feel like centuries ago, but the pain too easily brings shame, confusion, and sense of not mattering enough to allow any emotion. Emotion just annoys me. What good would it do? Nobody can do anything about it. And before I can get those next words out of my mind (Who cares?), Satan chimes in again with, “Yeah, who cares? We know He doesn’t.”

But I state to Him and You both that I know You do. I can’t explain why things are allowed to happen, but I know You are good, and You care! I even hear You say to me, “I care.” I know You do. But as soon as I even start to think of feeling any peace, my heart is broken for those who are not old enough to look back… with the freedom to be out of their situations… who will die in their environment, thrown away like trash, no one ever knowing, or caring. I cry so hard.

“Lord, I hurt so much for them! I can’t help them. No one has the power to do anything to put a stop to all of it but You. No one cares about them. Some of them have been snatched so young that no one knows who they are and what happened to them. No one ever will! It’s so horrible! So sad! No one cares! I know You do, but why does another human being ever want to do such things! I know the psychological answers the world gives, but it’s not enough! People shouldn’t be able to find sexual pleasure from doing horrible things to another human being… especially children!! It breaks my heart!”

I keep crying… hard. When I cry that hard I can feel it… that emotion from that little girl inside of me that I deprive of that emotion because it feels so pointless, and I don’t recall feeling it then. I was too numb to feel anything in life. But I hear You telling me… “It’s not pointless. Be honest… with Me… and with Yourself. Your pain matters to Me too! Even when You convince yourself it doesn’t matter to You. It does to me.”

You bring my attention to the time. It’s after midnight. The devotional for the new day is ready on YouVersion. I take the time to go and prepare to sit with You, still finding it hard not to cry sometimes. But I am determined to show You I trust You… and believe You care!

What is the first thing I read?

WELCOME
Where are you hurting? Today, we’re going to learn that God brings healing and comfort. As we begin, enter into a time of silence before God.

Keep silent. That’s absolutely what I choose to do because I am also afraid to offend You, to anger You. Yes I am to be honest with You, but I am also to reverent with You, remembering that the fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom and knowledge. I keep reading. You keep pouring out Your love!

SCRIPTURE
He healeth the broken in heart, and bindeth up their wounds.
– Psalm 147:3 KJV

I know You are in this message. I know You are wanting to focus on continuing to be honest. Trusting YOU, not the voices in my head.

REFLECT
In what area of your life do you need to experience God’s healing?
a) I need healing from emotional trauma.
b) I need physical healing.
c) I need spiritual renewal.

While the answer is really all 3, You I both know I ALWAYS make sure to pray for the spiritual renewal. In the last several years, I can’t get away from the need for physical healing. But You have made this clear…. it’s the trauma… and not just the physical trauma… but the emotional trauma that I can not even find value in. I need healing from emotional trauma.

DEVOTIONAL
Day 3: You are wanted.
(Taken from the Haven’t Seen It Yet 5 Day Devotional Series By Danny Gokey)

Wanted?? Do I feel unwanted, Lord?? I know this is You, and You are being very direct, very personal, and very detailed. Wanted?? You tell me to be patient and keep reading.

When I was writing the song “Wanted,” my co-writer was going through a difficult time. He had been praying about a specific situation that happened when he was younger. No matter how hard he prayed, he couldn’t seem to get past this incident from his childhood. He even had a bunch of friends praying for him, but he still felt the impact of the event on his life. He was praying for freedom from the past because it was holding him back from all the good things God had planned for him in the present.

Finally, one day while he was praying, God gave him a powerful picture. God took him back to the place of this traumatic event; but this time, my friend saw Jesus standing on the side of the room. Then He walked over and told my friend, “I was there the day you lost your heart, and now I’m giving it back to you.” Then Jesus handed him his heart, but it wasn’t broken, it was healed and whole.

We wrote the song “Wanted” for anyone, like my friend, who’s been wounded by circumstances beyond their control. You can be assured that the God who holds the universe in His hands is holding your heart He takes great care with it, because He wants you more than you could ever know.

The first verse of “Wanted” says, “I was there the moment it happened, but you couldn’t see Me through the pain. I caught every tear as they were falling, when you lost your heart that day.” The chorus goes on to say, “If you could see it through My eyes, you’d know that you are wanted.”

Friend, you have value in the eyes of God. No matter what you’ve been through; no matter what you’ve been told; you matter. Many times, we don’t understand His love for us because we compare the way others have loved us, and there is no comparison.

Humans are capable of wounding one another greatly. God is incapable of wounding us. He offers us a safe place to rest from the wounds of the world. Psalm 147:3 (KJV) says, “He heals the broken in heart, and binds up their wounds.”

We have to allow God to heal our hurt in order for us to fully embrace the good and perfect plan He has for our lives.

Maybe you haven’t experienced a traumatic event in your life. Maybe, instead, you simply feel incredibly lonely today. Just know, you are not alone, you are enough, you are worthy, you are accepted, and you are wanted more than you can ever comprehend by a heavenly Father that loves you more than any human ever could.

Confession/Prayer:
Father, I accept Your love for me. I accept Your healing for the wounds I have carried. I release my need to understand all of the hurt, and I receive the strength that You are bringing into my life through these events. Thank You for wanting me and giving me a place to belong.

PRAYER
God, please come to my aid when I am hurting. Heal my wounds and restore my heart. Please come close to me and let me feel Your amazing love – today and every day. Amen.

A PRAYER OF THANKSGIVING
God, thank You for being with me even when I struggle to talk with You. When I don’t know how to put my concerns into words, thank You that the Holy Spirit is praying on my behalf. Amen.

A PRAYER FOR FACING TRIALS
God, when I face trials of any sort, help me to run to You, not away from You. Help me to see hard seasons as opportunities to grow in my faith. Give me the strength (Your strength) to persevere and the courage to always trust You. Amen.

TRUSTING GOD’S FAITHFULNESS
God, I come to You trusting that You are faithful and good. No matter what I go through, please let me never forget that You are with me. Help me hold tightly to Your unfailing love and sure promises. Amen.

DEALING WITH ANGER
God, please teach me to deal with my anger immediately, and help me not to be controlled by my anger. Please help me to release what is angering me completely to You. Amen.

LIVING A DISCIPLINED LIFE
God, help me to live a disciplined life. I want to live full of faithful and obedience. Please show me the areas I need to be even more disciplined. Amen.

Wanted! That feels like a whiny word for me. It breaks my heart to think of all those children who are unwanted by their traffickers, by their rapists, some even by their parents. But unwanted feels whiny for me because that is what I felt when my brothers and I were tricked into visiting the foster care home, only to be abandoned by our parents. Unwanted is what I felt for the 10 months we were constantly promised to be taken home only to be dropped off again at the end of each visitation. Unwanted is what I felt the day I finally had enough of broken promises, lost it in front of everyone after fighting not to be taken out of the car, cried myself to sleep, and gave up on ever believing in hope again. All hope was false hope to me.

Somehow I do feel that pain when I think of 3 years old… and all those years of violence, filth, and death. I feel it all every time I think of these children. All I can think is that no one cares. No one can do anything about it. NO ONE wants or cares about Your children outside of their own evil gain. And they just keep doing it.

You want to make it clear to me that You care… for me… for them. You want me… You want them. I belong to You! Each child belongs to You! You care about every hurt… every tear… every act that You warn the world of committing against Your children.

“Take heed that ye despise not one of these little ones; for I say unto you, That in heaven their angels do always behold the face of my Father which is in heaven.”
– Matthew 18:10 KJV

“Even so it is not the will of your Father which is in heaven, that one of these little ones should perish.”
– Matthew 18:14 KJV

“And whosoever shall offend one of these little ones that believe in me, it is better for him that a millstone were hanged about his neck, and he were cast into the sea.”
– Mark 9:42 KJV

You want me to know that You know exactly where I am, and what is going on inside. You aren’t angry with me for being honest. You aren’t disappointed with me for having emotions. And You certainly are not offended for having a broken heart for Your children. You have placed that burden on my heart. Just as I cry to think no one cares, so no one cries… You tender my heart to cry with You for Your children. And as You have me start to think on that very thought about where You have me in my journey with You, tears and all for Your little children, including the little girl who had no one crying for her, not even herself, You bring this Facebook meme to my attention while sharing the verse of the day.

FB Meme for Remembering 9/11
(That was the day planes were driven into The Twin Towers in New York, The Pentagon in Washington DC, and into the ground in Philadelphia. Thousands of people lost their lives. This meme was pointing out the many lives who were saved by the little things reported on the news that made them either run late, or not be there that particular day.

The head of a company survived 9/11 because his son started Kindergarten. Another man was alive because it was his turn to bring donuts. One woman was late because her alarm clock didn’t go off on time. Another was late, stuck on the NJ Turnpike because of an accident and his life was spared. One missed his bus. One spilled food on her clothes and had to take the time to change. One’s car wouldn’t start. One couldn’t get a taxi. One went back to answer the house phone. A man who put on a new pair of shoes that morning developed a blister before he got to the Towers, so he stopped at a drugstore to buy a Band-Aid.
When you’re stuck in traffic, oversleep, miss your ride…all the little things that annoy youmaybe you’re exactly where you’re meant to be at that very moment. May all who perished on 9.11.01 Rest in Eternal Peace & may the loved ones still grieving find strength.

You want me to trust where You have me, exactly as I am. How can I trust emotions that I won’t even acknowledge? You want me to trust YOU with them. You want me to trust that You are healing me. You want me to trust that You are using me to help someone else… even if it’s just through sharing this post, or sharing a missing child alert, or sharing trafficking information with others, or counseling someone who has been hurt by letting them know You do care… You DO love them!

I then go to look up the song You have given me in the devotional…

Wanted by Danny Gokey.
I was there the moment that it happened
But you couldn’t see me through the pain
I caught every tear as they were falling
When you lost your heart that day
Yeah, you lost your heart that day
And now you only see through broken lenses
Trying to keep your head above the shame
You believe the lie that I am distant
But I hold you every day
Yeah, I hold you every day
If you could see it through my eyes
You’d know that you are wanted
You’d know that you are wanted
And if you’d let my love inside
I’ll show you that you’re wanted
I’ll show you that you’re wanted
You’re more than all your darkest moments
You are defined by what I see
You’re my reflection, you’re my treasure, you’re my heartbeat
Oh, child, you belong to me, ohh
‘Cause if you would see it through my eyes

How incredibly personal You continue to be. I feel as though I have been leaning on the shoulder of my loving Father who cares about every tear…. more than I do.

And then You add another song right behind it that is so fitting. Even the video itself feels like it represents that LOOONG road You and I have been on. I listen to You minister to me with…

Haven’t Seen It Yet, also by Danny Gokey.
Have you been praying and you still have no answers?
Have you been pouring out your heart for so many years?
Have you been hoping that things would have changed by now?
Have you cried all the faith you have through so many tears?
Don’t forget the things that He has done before
And remember He can do it all once more

And then You finish this time of loving on me with a song singing the very declaration I was determined to trust You with… I know You are Good!!
Nothing is more important to me than to keep it all about Christ! If there is anyone who understands pain… it is Your precious Son! My Jesus! ❤

I Know by Big Daddy Weave!
I know that You are good
I know that You are kind
I know that You are so much more
Than what I leave behind
I know that I am loved
I know that I am safe
‘Cause even in the fire, to live is Christ, to die is gain
I know that You are good

Thank You for spending so much time with me! Thank You for reminding me I am wanted, that my emotions matter, that my pain matters, and that my tears matter.. to You… and to me! Thank You for crying for Your children. When innocent children lost their loves, it’s horrible enough. But when no one cares, or knows about what has happened to be able to cry, it’s so much sadder… heart breaking. Thank You for crying!! Thank You for caring. Thank for the promise… the assurance that THERE WILL BE AN END TO ANY CHILD EVER BEING HURT AGAIN! And EVIL WILL PAY FOR EVERYTHING THEY HAVE EVER DONE!

Thank You for making us Yours. Thank You for giving us a place to belong. Thank You for creating LOVE to be a beautiful thing with You! Thank You that there is NO PERVERSION with You! Thank You for being You! And thank You for thinking I am worth spending the time with!

❤ I love You, Abba Father!

❤ I love You, Sweet Jesus!

❤ I love You, Holy Spirit!